Friday, June 9

rain or shine

weeds in wind, canon digital rebel xt & photoshop

I've noticed lately that my life feels a bit like waiting for weather.

For the last four days our sky has been a canvas with a myriad of grays brushed on. I am waiting to see if what will spill from the sky is rain or sunshine.

I have felt restless waiting for something big to happen in my life that is just around the corner. I am feeling an overwhelm with how to prepare for it not knowing what is to come. Will it be a storm or a sunny calm?

When I try to sit still to breathe, I feel fidgety. I find myself walking around our loft, starting a project only to leave it unfinished and move onto another. I am struggling with the ability to marinate in a moment, as I usually do.

I am sharing this with you because not knowing what is ahead in our lives can at times be a good thing and at other times, a painful thing. Perhaps this "waiting for weather" is happening within all of us and knowing we are not alone, will give us courage to stop waiting and to move through it, rain or shine.


Blogger LiteraryGirl said...

This post resonated with me because I am in the same place. We're in the process of moving but our house hasn't sold, so the kids and I are still in our old life while my husband has moved on to our new life. It is hard to wait and be patient. It is hard to be "in limbo" even though I know it is temporary. I feel like I am always waiting to get on with it already! But I think there are a lot of lessons in limbo.

June 9, 2006 at 10:00:00 AM PDT  
Blogger M said...

"struggling with the ability to marinate in a moment"- what an amazing phrase. That's exactly how I've been feeling. I hope you will find the courage you are seeking. You are definitely not alone, we are all here to help you through it.

June 9, 2006 at 10:05:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I usually just lurk on your site, but your post today resonated with me. I wanted to tell you that you are not alone. I, too, am struggling with trying to just be ok with uncertainty, wanting to force a decision or a change or a reprieve, and yet realizing that force isn't the answer. It's hard to be patient when you are waiting for something to happen, some answer to come. Thank you for so eloguently putting into words what I, and probably many others, am feeling, along with you.

June 9, 2006 at 10:57:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Amber said...

This post really speaks to me. I've had this feeling for sometime now (for similar and different reasons).

The sky has been a murky gray here for many days now, only to show me that we do live under the same sky.

*hugs*, my friend.

June 9, 2006 at 11:02:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I love how your posts resonate with so many people, myself included. I have been a bundle of restless energy lately as well, and learning to slow down and sit with it. Wait, ponder. It was smoky here yesterday from a forest fire not far away, but today a bit cloudy..so changeable.


June 9, 2006 at 11:34:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Colorsonmymind said...


Sweetness, I am with you...as are so many of us in this bloggie tribe...restless, fidgety...all of it.

I feel you..hear your heart and embrace you...

Love to you baby...
lots of love

June 9, 2006 at 1:54:00 PM PDT  
Blogger gkgirl said...

the sun has just come here...
breaking through
after a week of rain...

i hope the sun
breaks through
for you soon, too.


June 9, 2006 at 3:27:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

It's hard just not knowing. That's why I'm still afraid of the dark - the unknown.

It's been raining here for several days and I love the storms! But tonight, just now after putting the kids to bed I noticed that the sun came out just for the sunset so I went outside. And there it was, a great big rainbow. I woke up my little girl and brought her outside to see. I find that there is always something to get me through...


June 9, 2006 at 8:10:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Lyrically speaking said...

As a child I used to hear "we live in the last days" and still today I'm waiting for it to happen. I hate not knowing what tomorrow will bring us, it is a scary feeling. Thanks for sharing, I'm glad I stopped by

June 9, 2006 at 8:18:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Waiting has never been easy...never will be. It's the fidgets that make you feel like your accomplishing nothing, while starting everything.

Anticipation, however, is a good thing. Unguarded preparation for what is to come.

This makes life a surpise, spicy and unpredictable.

I know you...

You wouldn't want life any other way Den.

You are courageous and very brave. Don't force yourself to marinate, or think that "soaking" is the only way to appreciate where you are.

Breathe...smile...breathe again :)

*kiss on the tip of your nose*


June 9, 2006 at 9:09:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

For you, I hope there will be sunshine.

June 9, 2006 at 10:26:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Amy said...

Move through it, baby, rain or shine. Even if you can't do it with a smiling face, just keep going...

June 10, 2006 at 12:35:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Daibh said...

Today, in Chicago, it's a cold rain. Hopefully you'll get sun, both literally and metaphorically!

June 10, 2006 at 1:41:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I know what that "waiting" feeling is like. I want to say, "stop waiting, and it will happen" which is what everyone told me, and I wanted to kill every one of them.

But, it was true.

Boho, I hate that this is happening for you and your partner. When the time comes for your big thing to happen soon (it will happen soon, it will it will it will) it will be such a magical and wonderful moment.

In the meantime, let there be laughter, many magical moments, and sunshine- because your now is precious too.

June 10, 2006 at 3:04:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Letha Sandison said...

Hey love, what a beautifully written post! So soft, sweet and I felt like I could hear your voice as I read it!!

I feel like this a bit this week too...sitting beside you waiting for clouds to part.

I am watching your weather, hoping it will change soon.

I love you!!


June 11, 2006 at 9:13:00 AM PDT  

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