Thursday, July 13

Self Portrait Challenge ~ "Self Portrait As..."

boho strumming, canon digital rebel xt

Self Portrait As...A Passionate Guitarist

This is a dream of mine, really. I often drift off into a fantasy world where I am sitting on a stage in an intimate venue, pouring my heart onto the strings. In my reality, it has been a struggle for me to learn how to play the guitar because my hands are so small (tiny fingers). Truly...I only know a few chords and the Virgo in me puts the pressure on to do it all so perfectly, so I tend to put the guitar down with a sigh and walk away from it for days, even months.

I was first inspired by my sister Darlene. In the 70's, I watched her sit around with her friends in a circle while she serenaded them with her long straight hair parted in the middle and wearing embroidered bell bottom jeans. I was sitting up on our stairs, looking down on her hippy self and wanting to BE her in that moment.

Then it was Jewel, Sarah, Ani, Abra and Beth that inspired me in my later years to pick it up and make this dream come true. I took some lessons at a sweet little cottage in Berkeley, CA from the coolest artsy gal pal. It was her that taught me the spirituality and deep romantic connection that can happen between you and an instrument. Watching her play was like watching two souls make love.

I did this self portrait series of me playing the guitar to make it my reality. My husband is going to teach me a song to move me beyond those few chords so that I may begin to create my own music.

I want to find that passion between woman and strings.


Anonymous Anonymous said...

Music is so powerful, you will do wonderful at it. I loved the slideshow of photos. The black and white ones were amazing (totally digging the dragonfly lights).

July 18, 2006 at 7:41:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Intrepidflame said...

I’ve been playing guitar now for like ten years, and by all standards, I still suck, but it is the time I spend with the instrument that counts. There is nothing I like more than simply sitting with my guitar and trying to find new ways to make it sing. Sometimes out of nowhere a new riff or chord progression floats on down, and that is magic. Good luck and nice shots.

July 18, 2006 at 7:46:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

i began playing guitar when i was 15, but was discouraged as well by my own tiny hands. but eventually you learn to improvise so seamlessly that no one even notices. keep at it!

July 18, 2006 at 7:49:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Letha Sandison said...

Oh you are home!!! Welcome back, missed you!!

I love this pic!! You look beautiful, so serene. I love the big silk pillow you are laying on too, the green wall and of course the dragonflies. Love 'em!!!!

Everything looks and FEELS so perfect in this photo.

Love you....hope today brings tons and gobs of JOY!!!!!


July 18, 2006 at 8:38:00 AM PDT  
Blogger SoulPony said...

I love the photo. I only tried for less than a minute on the guitar thing. I just thought, "this hurts my fingers" and I stopped and never went back.

July 18, 2006 at 9:12:00 AM PDT  
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July 18, 2006 at 9:12:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I saw this series on your flickr site and could hardly wait to see what you had to say. I also have dreams of really being able to play my guitar, but for now I'm content to just play and strum at it. I'm afflicted with tiny fingers as well. miss you...

July 18, 2006 at 9:37:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Darlene said...

Yes~ friends in a circle with bell-bottom jeans... those were the days! :)

I never saw you sneaking a peek at the top of the stairs ;0 You were probably supposed to be in bed!

I'm telling Mom!!!

:)I never did tell mom when I caught you doing something you weren't supposed to...you were way too cute and I loved you so much I would cover for you instead.

Dang! I miss you Den....come home!

p.s. How did you post this from Canada? Com. Savvy You ;)

xxxxxooooo dar xxxxxooooo

July 18, 2006 at 9:51:00 AM PDT  
Blogger la vie en rose said...

girl i purchased my first guitar last friday!!! i heard an ad for the grand opening of guitar center and i just drove myself over and bought one. i've been plucking away the past 4 days but i can't do much. i can't even play a single chord--between my small hands and my tender fingertips it may be very slow going. last night i just layed on the couch and cuddled with it. i was hoping it would feel the love and show me some compassion by helping me out a bit...

oh and my most very favoritest part--the smell...i could just plant my face in the hole and smell the wood forever!

July 18, 2006 at 9:58:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

look at you! you've already shot remarkable album covers. how nice. i love the cushion you lie on. did you make it?

July 18, 2006 at 11:01:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

you look romantically deep in musical thought, and that couch is in true fabulous boho style! glad to see you home and comfy.

July 18, 2006 at 1:18:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Goddess Leonie * GoddessGuidebook.com said...

tee hee hee...
remember when we were gunna be guitar goddesses with fuscia guitars and cowgal boots & denim minis?


your house is just gorgeous deni (as are YOU!)... i am LOVING that couch of yours.

thank you for inspiring me to create a beautiful sanctuary in my home... and for being you :)

hope your holiday away was delicious,

July 18, 2006 at 3:44:00 PM PDT  
Blogger ::Bek Geach:: said...

You sweet womyn.
Loving you with that guitar.
Wish I were there.
Just hanging in your space... drinking some tea.
Just Being... with You.

July 18, 2006 at 4:02:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Sarah said...

Oooooh I love it!! Very nice photograph!

July 18, 2006 at 8:32:00 PM PDT  
Blogger turquoise cro said...

Such a DREAMY photo Boho gal! My poor little child's guitar(I wanted to start small)is in my art room still in the box! I'll have to take a pic with it soon! I've seen the love between player and the instrument, my dad played guitar but mostly the fiddle! It's almost like a mistress! lol My husband's mistress is his little Sony radio! I bought him 30 years ago! xo

July 18, 2006 at 8:48:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Ruth said...

Great series of photos... could totally see you drawing an intimate crowd in with your creations. Hoping you "find that passion between woman and strings."xoS

July 18, 2006 at 8:56:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

the photo series is lovely...now that blogger has audio post, maybe you can post a song or two on here in the months to come...(hint hint)

July 18, 2006 at 9:50:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Deirdre said...

hehe. Another Virgo. I took guitar lessons years ago too and struggled because my hands are small. Of course, there's that bit of tone deafness as well. Have fun. Great picture.

July 18, 2006 at 10:21:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Georgia said...

Beautiful. This inspires me to dust off my guitar and try to remember a few cords... and perhaps some finger picking too.

July 18, 2006 at 10:30:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Amy said...

You are so beautiful, truly. And the little glimpses of your personal space so much reflect the woman that you are. I love that about you - I love your true and honest heart.

I've always loved watching musicians play string instruments as well - the intimacy and beauty of it makes me swoon. So wonderful to hear that you're are searching for that same beauty.

Kisses, love.

July 18, 2006 at 11:32:00 PM PDT  
Blogger dani said...

want this dream too.
great image - really beautiful!

July 19, 2006 at 1:53:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

kinda romantic ... with your fairy lights and the silk mattress ... and dreamy.

July 19, 2006 at 2:51:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Susannah Conway said...

beautiful you - i see you're getting my bed all warm for me :-)) i want to hear your singing voice blending with the guitar, making magical music... i love this picture x

July 19, 2006 at 10:26:00 AM PDT  
Blogger melba said...

I love the photo series; it looks like such a special corner of your home.

July 19, 2006 at 10:33:00 AM PDT  
Blogger liz elayne lamoreux said...

oh yes...i want to hear you play one day my dear (soon....very soon).

love and hugs to you,

July 19, 2006 at 11:04:00 AM PDT  
Blogger *aimee* said...

Oh, I do wish you luck in this endeavor. I too would love to learn but my lack of time and fear of failure, often keep me far from my own guitar. Your passion for music is an inspiration to pick it up again. Thank you. Love the picture, by the way; it's raw, yet beautiful. :)

July 19, 2006 at 11:43:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Drea said...

Playing the guitar is very difficult. I cant do it because it hurts my fingers to bad...

I can play piano and Clarinet tho :-) woo hoo me! Oh and sing... thats kinda an instrument.

I love those fireflies..on the wall :-)

July 19, 2006 at 11:53:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...


from the beauty & love pouring out of the images of you & your instrument...i would say you have found the passion between woman & strings. they moved my soul.

have FAITH that this dream too will come to life & be a reality along with ALL the desires of your heart.

love to you~ chele

July 19, 2006 at 1:07:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I love how you said, "I want to find the passion between woman & strings" That was very profound. I had brought out my guitar the other day also, it popped a string, so I have to fix it to strum the 3 chords I know.

:) someday I too will learn that passion between a woman and her string, that's if I can stop breaking them!

Love your photography and your green wall!


July 19, 2006 at 3:53:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

That was me (the last comment) something went weird.... :)

July 19, 2006 at 3:55:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Bedazzzled1 said...

Great photograph. There is a wistful quality to it.

I think virtually everyone connects with music in their own unique way.

July 19, 2006 at 6:15:00 PM PDT  
Blogger AMANDA said...

I feel the same way. I have 2 guitars at home that I bought while I was in school. I haven't played in so long (probebly 4 years) b/c sometimes life gets in the way when you are busy making other plans.)I just want to jam, but I cant (little fingers too) so I get frustrated. Good luck with the lessons and you may have inspired me to do the same.

July 19, 2006 at 8:41:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Stef said...

you look fabulous and i love the flickr photos! i too love the guitar, so romantic and freeing ...never got around to learning it though. i just married a musician instead :)


July 19, 2006 at 10:55:00 PM PDT  
Blogger gkgirl said...

great photo...
i am also virgo

and want to learn how to play
the guitar
only i know
NOTHING about it...

its on my list of things to do though.

July 20, 2006 at 3:57:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Colorsonmymind said...

When I first saw your guitar series on flickr...I fell in love with it.

You look so beautiful, and natural with a guitar in your arms.

I lingered over each picture savouring all the details.

I too love the couch and the lights, all of it darling.

I came and visited this while you were gone, why I didn't post my comment through...puzzles me....must have been one of those moments when the babe was pulling at me while I was trying to get a minute on line:)

Hugs and kisses to you sweetness.

July 20, 2006 at 5:32:00 AM PDT  
Blogger AscenderRisesAbove said...

what a great photo!!!

July 20, 2006 at 9:05:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

This is so beautiful Boho!! i love all the details, and the colors, and the candles, and you of course, everything...

i just remembered "MY GUITAR MAN", did i tell you that i'm in love with that poem of you??

good luck finding that passion!!

love, love

July 20, 2006 at 12:22:00 PM PDT  

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