a schmoopfest

schmoopy, canon digital rebel xt

Yesterday I met Schmoopy at one of my favorite coffee houses by the sea. We've been corresponding for quite some time about our journey's to conceive. This was our first time meeting face to face and truly...it sort of felt like a blind date. When I first walked in and pranced up the stairs to where she was sitting in the corner of the coffee house, we both giggled with nervousness and sort of stumbled a bit with giddy words for the first few minutes. Then we joked about the blind date feeling. That definitely broke the ice and it began to feel like home...safe in the arms of the wonderful woman I've been sharing such raw emotions with.

After our java & tea, Schmoops and I went to our very first in person psychic reading. This woman was in the most adorable cottage filled with antiques and richly colored walls. When she opened up her barn door red fence, I could smell the essence of incense burning. Her long curly hair covered her flowy pheasant blouse as she waved us both into her magical home. Schmoops waited in the coolest waiting room ever, while I went in first...then she went in 30 minutes after me.

I won't share details yet except that I felt completely at ease and at peace with this psychic. She was very soothing and nurturing. Everything she said felt like a confirmation to what I've already been feeling is going to happen to me in regards to family, marriage and career. Nothing felt off, odd, fearful or uncomfortable. I hardly said a word and she already knew so much about me. She was spot on about the dynamics of my marriage and how we are bringing a baby into this world soon (organically) and how our lives will be full of creativity as a family. I left feeling so much lighter, energetic and alive. Schmoops had a similar experience and the first thing we said as we left the cottage was..."that was wild...lets get a drink!" So we did. We sat up at the bar and shared our magical stories over wine, tears, laughter and awe.

One of Schmoopy's readers of her blog that is also on this fertility journey said it well. "We are all part of a club that we don't really want to be a part of". Although, last night, as we were sipping our wine and we were spilling our roller coaster of emotions about this journey, we felt totally understood and grateful for these connections. Yes, the reason we are all brought together sucks but at the same time, I would have never ever connected with the amazing women that have come into my life as a result of it all. Because really, with each of these women, it is not only the fertility stuff that connects us. That just happens to be the cosmic pull in the beginning.

Later today I am going to the GIRLY SHOW to take some photographs of these amazing, talented, soulful, gorgeous, fabulous women. If you are in Los Angeles...do stop by and show them some love!!

p.s. Thank you, Dancing Mermaid for the tip on the lovely psychic!