Friday, March 9

looking deeper

self portrait, canon digital rebel xt

I haven't been afraid to look deeper into myself lately...into the places that I need to pay more attention to. Some places are beautiful, confident and free, others are dark, insecure and afraid.

I've been visualizing myself hugging my inner child when the harsh voices that want to distract me from my dreams become too loud. My inner child is a fighter and knows she can do anything she sets her mind to. It is those negative voices that try to hush her out. Me paying more attention to her has allowed them to fade. She helps me feel more brave.

I have a lot to work on because looking deeper within myself is hard but it feels so good to be more awake. I thought about this in yoga today. As I bend, stretch and hold difficult poses, my body hurts. It's hard work but then for the remainder of the day, I walk faster, pick up things stronger and breathe easier. It is the same with our heart and our soul. It takes work to make them healthier and it might hurt while in the process but at the end of the day, you feel lighter and loved...and paid attention to.


Blogger Colorsonmymind said...

Wow baby- beautiful.

The picture the reflection the love-all of it
Love you

March 9, 2007 at 5:12:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I really appreciated your last post... seeing your studio and where you live your life. I don't know, it brought me some kind of comfort, to see YOU in your real world walking this life and living every day, facing whatever each day brings. It brought me some sense of connection that I needed. And this post..... THIS post could have been written from inside my heart. It has made my tears begin to fall again. I've had a yucky night... the little girl inside me feels so ugly today, the negative voices are talking to her. I don't know what else to say, but God let me read your post when I needed it. Growth really does hurt sometimes.

March 9, 2007 at 5:47:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

thank you - an inspiring post and a lovely photo! a gorgeous spirit shines through your words.

best wishes,

March 9, 2007 at 5:56:00 PM PST  
Blogger Alessandra Cave said...

Boho! You are the #1 self portrait goddess! You repeatedly make your photos so interesting and captivating. I also wrote something about looking deeper at the places we hide... I want to free all the parts of me that want to speak my truths! x

March 9, 2007 at 6:19:00 PM PST  
Blogger rubyslippers said...

Yes, it is so worth it. The work is so worth it. Glad we can all share this journey together!

March 9, 2007 at 7:40:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

it's a precious journey we owe to ourselves and those around us to take. The more we know ourselves, the more real we can be in our relationships...great photo!

March 9, 2007 at 8:24:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I've been reading about your week, and I love your new studio space. I can see you there, making your magic.
Sending lots of love as you go deeper. We are all there alongside you.

March 9, 2007 at 8:27:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

So, so true and worth it.

Your words are ones of inspiration :)

XO Sophie

March 9, 2007 at 11:40:00 PM PST  
Blogger luzie said...

Hmmm, I couldn't agree more with your post. You are so brave, and reading about your continuous work to explore your inner self gives me confidence that I can continue to do that, too.

Great photo!


March 10, 2007 at 10:41:00 AM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Amen sista' friend.

When I saw that mirror a few months ago at a local store I loved it! Totally you. Great photo.


March 10, 2007 at 11:58:00 AM PST  
Blogger Regina said...

It's amazing what can happen when we tap into that more powerful part of ouselves- and we are all powerful. We were born that way- but somehow we forget all that...
I am so grateful that you are inspiring us all to do our own inner work with your wonderful honest posts and beautiful pictures!

March 10, 2007 at 8:05:00 PM PST  
Blogger Susannah Conway said...

you are so wise, little monkey :-) xo

March 11, 2007 at 5:06:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Stacy said...

everything about this is beautiful.

March 11, 2007 at 11:09:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Letha Sandison said...

You are a fighter, and so fearless! Love this post!

March 12, 2007 at 6:05:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Beta Fishy said...

I have been lurking around your post for months. I wish you all the best things in the world and have shed tears along with you.

I loved the wording of this post. The idea that your inner heart and soul need to be worked to feel more whole and healthy is an intriguing thought.

March 12, 2007 at 9:45:00 AM PDT  

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