self portrait challenge ~ online tools {1}

self portrait, canon digital rebel xt & movie poster by Flickr
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Okay, I had way too much fun with this month's new self portrait challenge using online tools. ; )

It felt so good to take a bit of time off from transforming my studio space and create online again. After I purged and cleaned my studio up in our loft, which took far longer than anticipated, we finally painted this weekend. The walls are a soothing sage color. The energy in the room has altered to something a bit more zen, more free, more creative, more whimsical. As soon as we put my new desk together and I started redecorating, I've received a few more orders and a cool portrait session. I had a feeling once my studio space emulated the peace I feel inside, that goodness would start to unfold for my business.

I want to thank each of you for your love and support this past weekend. I needed some time to hush and just be with all my emotions. I felt you all circling around me, lifting me up. I have felt that for quite some time. I know many of you have expressed that you feel you are on this journey with me as you watch each cycle unfold. I believe so strongly in the power of circling together. When our baby does come, just know you will be part of the miracle through your words, your prayers, your intentions, your visions, your dreams and your offerings. I walk this journey more firmly because of your reminders. Please know I am grateful beyond words.

I went to yoga today for the first time in far too long. I plan to go at least three days a week now. I think I've been avoiding it because as much as I feel so fabulous afterwards, during the class I usually break out into tears at least once. Some of the poses really open my heart chakra and I feel a flood of emotions. I am making a choice to not be afraid of this opening...because it is what I need to move forward, to grow, to accept, to learn on this journey. We as human beings all need to allow this openness, this transformation within us.

I am reminded of my first appointment with my acupuncturist when she gently rested her hand on my chest and said "You have opened up your heart to your husband and now you need to open it up to your baby." Tears flowed down my cheeks when she said this. I felt a release there or perhaps it was more an awareness of the tightness I held in my heart and when I released it, the flood gates opened. This is what happens to me during yoga, every time.