master cleanse ~ day six

today's self portrait, canon digital rebel xt

Well, I decided to write you the earlier part of the day since it seems nighttime is the hardest time for me and I get a bit pissy. I think I may have scared a few of you yesterday!

Today has been pretty good, actually. My energy levels are normal and I don't feel hungry. Last night was tough and I got a bit ill...so my stomach feels a wee bit sensitive. This morning and afternoon, I've been drinking more water than the lemon drink because the lemons feel acidic for my tum. I will probably crave it later when the hunger starts.

I was feeling really down on myself yesterday. I think these emotions all have to do with the detox. I felt really angry last night and depressed. I am allowing these feelings to come. No judgements here. I talked with Thea today who has been a wonderful resource and support. She is finished with the cleanse and has a lot of insight. It felt good to share and release all these ugly feelings that had surfaced. Even as I heard them come out of my mouth, I was aware that these feelings were old patterns of thinking that I must have stuffed deep inside of me. She said the same happened to her and that she did indeed move past them...along with the toxins. I find this all so fascinating how closely emotions and food are tied together. How not only do we hold toxic chemicals in our body but also toxic emotions. This cleanse brings it all out.

A "detox" is clearly happening to me because I ache all over as though I have a cold and that is all part of releasing toxins. For days my tongue has been pretty gross and grey and today it is becoming more pink. Such a good sign that my body is cleansing and healing.

I am not going to go to the YMCA while I am on this cleanse. Instead, if I feel up to it, I'll just do some weights, yoga, sit-ups, lunges here in my home.

So, all is good and well. I am sticking to it and am deciding to be more positive by focusing on the benefits of what is happening rather than the set backs.

It's chilly and rainy out. My favorite type of weather. It's rare in Southern California to put on a hat and scarf. This alone brings much cheer to me. Off to Whole Foods to pick up more and more lemons!