master cleanse ~ day two

me & my squirt tee, canon digital rebel xt

This tee is for those of you doing this cleanse. You know what it's all about.

So yesterday was a total trip. There were moments I felt high and then moments where I wanted to tear down our refrigerator and eat all the carbs I could find. Especially pizza. Actually pizza with some pasta on top. I had read and heard from others that when hunger starts, just drink the lemon drink and it is supposed to go away. It didn't go away for me but I think more than anything it was psychological and not physical. My mind was challenging me that I couldn't do this and I almost gave in. But I didn't and I am so proud of that.

I also heard that when you crave something on this cleanse, that means you are detoxing from that particular food. I have been consuming a lot of pasta and pizza lately. While reading the bit in "Eat Pray Love" where she was in Italy describing her orgasmic experience with pizza, I couldn't help myself but do the same. It doesn't matter how healthy you make pizza and pasta, it is still carbs and loaded with them.

I went to bed proud of myself and slept like a baby. I woke up feeling refreshed and I noticed the skin on my face felt more soft and clear.

This morning it was more difficult for me to drink the salt water flush. I was concentrating really hard on not gagging my way through it. I tried to imagine it as veggie broth but the thought of an ocean wave crashing in my mouth overpowered this. About 30 minutes later I ran to the bathroom and I swear I threw up the size of a pool. It's not supposed to come out that end! I was laying on the bathroom floor sweating and throwing up salt water which made me want to throw up even more when tasting the salt. My poor kitties were in the bathroom with me meowing and totally traumatized. I know this is not a normal experience. I am not sure why I had this reaction. Perhaps I used too much salt.

Although, right now, a few hours later, I feel great. I feel totally full. I've only had one glass of lemon drink because my stomach was nauseous but I have energy and no cravings thus far. Yesterday I had a bit of a headache but today its gone.

I am committed to this for many reasons. I feel like I am in a powerful place in my life and I am not going to give up. My body is actually doing what it needs to do for this cleanse. I obviously carried more toxins than I realized.

Thank you for sticking around on this journey with me. The good. The bad. The ugly. Your support is appreciated and needed.

Oh...and if you're wondering how Boho Boy is doing on this...he is doing WAY better than I am.

update: well, i found out what went wrong this morning. i talked to Thea and she said i was supposed to drink 1 quart of water with two teaspoons not TABLESPOONS of salt. nice.