making time

my lunch today: brown rice tortilla wraps (avocado, sprouts, turkey, mozzarella,
mustard, olive oil with red pepper pesto dip on the side), canon digital rebel XTi

Lately the days feel so quick and short. Not enough time in them to do all I need or want. Last week I was consumed with my friends wedding and this week I find myself consumed with deadlines for a few projects.

I feel a bit off balance and as a result feel short tempered. I snapped at my husband last night when all he was trying to do was help me solve a software issue that was freaking me out. He deals with situations like that so much better than I do. If he snapped at me when I was trying to help him, it would probably bring on tears or I might snap back. He, on the other hand, quietly turned his chair around and said..."I am just trying to help" in a really calm, centered voice. The silence after his sweetness lingered and about an hour later, when I was ready, I climbed into his lap and explained where my head was.

Part of it is hormonal but most of it is that I have neglected some things the last few weeks that are so very important to me feeling balanced. Exercising for one and connecting deeply with my tribe. I've been spinning and I am in a place of trying to stay centered in the midst of all this stuff coming at me.

One thing I feel has definitely altered in my life after doing the Master Cleanse is that I always make time to nourish my body with food no matter how busy I am. Usually, when I was so busy like this, I would go hours not eating never realizing why I have such a bad headache or feel so lethargic. I am listening closer to the signals and not rushing through making a meal. I am also trying to chew my food slower. Not only do I digest it better but the energy sustains me.

I am struggling though with how to maintain the raw food diet as much as I'd like with how busy I have been. So much of the raw food diet is the preparation. Sometimes it takes up to 8 hours in advance with soaking and dehydrating. I haven't eaten completely raw in a week and my body is craving it. So, for dinner I will attempt to make raw sushi from this recipe book. The ingredients are in my purse and off to the store I go soon.

I am in awe of the people that can do this diet everyday in the midst of their busy lives.

Funny though, when I think about all the stuff in my life that is creating this busy-ness, it is actually stuff I have asked for. Stuff that I have intentionally dreamed about and wanted.

I am so grateful for it all and now I am asking for balance and the ability to make time for everything that is close to my heart.