sweet giftie from McMermaid on my doorstep, canon digital rebel xti
My birthday was a magical one. I've noticed that as the years press on, I am less excited about my birthday. It has nothing to do with getting older. I've never been one to freak out about that. When many of my friends were leery about turning 30, I wanted to shout it to the world. I had heard from so many of my hero's that in your thirties, somehow your experiences make you more comfortable in your skin, so I was ready for that. Now that I am 36, I can say that is indeed true....but I have noticed that I no longer crave the idea of a party or gifts or making a big deal about it.
After this birthday, that just might change! It was magical...from the moment I woke up to the moment I went to sleep. It felt good to celebrate my entrance into the world and as time went on that day, it wasn't just about that. It became more about what this whole year has been about for me. It was a time to reflect on all I've gone through and the wisdom I've gained. This time last year, I was frightened after months of fertility treatments not working and I was just about to embark on a holistic path to healing. Wow...so much has transpired and I am grateful for every morsel of it. Because today, I am a more calm, at peace me. I am more in touch with my body and I am in love with taking care of it, knowing I have so much more to learn.
I woke up to Boho Boy bringing me what we call "special drink". It is a creamy yerba mate tea blend with chocolate almond milk (did your mouth just water?). He then put a HUGE brown Anthropologie box on my lap. You can imagine my grin became too huge. Us girlies like big brown Anthropologie boxes...because that means either one huge yummy thing or many yummies inside. ; )
It was a gorgeous floral silk lined coat. When I tried it on, it wasn't a perfect fit, so he decided to take me back to the store after breakfast to switch it out (oh darn). We usually get water delivered to our doorstep, so he asked me if I could bring one in (wink, wink). When I peeked outside, I saw a bundle of colorful, painted rocks laid out on our doorstep. My heart swooned. I sat down in front of them so I could read each one carefully. Tears welled up in my eyes. Sweet McCabe drove 30 minutes this morning to leave this beautifully thoughtful gift for me full of all the affirmations my heart needed to hear. She had conspired with Boho Boy in secret. I felt an overwhelming amount of love and care for our friendship. She sprinkled her magic on my doorstep and that magic lasted the remainder of the day.
I had many birthday songs and sweet messages in my voicemail box and lovely packages from sweet dear friends and family. Boho Boy hung out on the couch at Anthropologie reading books while I salivated all over their clothes. This was the coat I chose! We browsed through bookstores, ate a scrummy salad, loaded up on health food and then he took me on a go-cart ride around the new gorgeous Spanish style school he works at. We then dropped the food off at home and drove up to the mountains to stargaze when it became dark. Snuggling up to him on the blanket and starring at the stars was dreamy. It was quiet and peaceful and surreal. Its been too long since I've done this and yes...two falling stars had my wishes.
I didn't realize how much I've needed this time to reconnect with him. I've been in a bit of a daze following the surgery and he has been working around the clock on websites and databases. We really missed one another and my birthday was the perfect excuse to fill our love cups.
This week I am feeling better but still not yet myself. I am having a hard time knowing when I push it too hard until its too late. I am trying to pace myself but I like to be on the go, so perhaps have not been as patient as I should be. Another lesson in taking gentle care of my body and listening to its signals.
Oh...and speaking of magic, thank you to everyone who left a comment for Grayson in my last post and/or left a message on his carepage. It is making the WORLD of difference. He is back in the hospital not feeling well, so if you're inspired, keep sending your love. Thank you so very much.