Monday, October 29

Art & Love

clockwise from top: Susannah, Frida, Me & Swirly, taken by Mr. Swirly

me, swirly & frida, taken by Susannah

swirly (left) & frida (right) painting, canon digital rebel xti

susannah getting messy & creating beauty, canon digital rebel xti

me painting (left) and our hands (right), taken by Susannah

art & love, taken by Mr. Swirly

We climbed up a hill and came down a mountain together. I have returned a fuller, wiser, richer person because of these women. North, South, East, West...we gathered, we shared, we cried, we laughed, we comforted, we taught, we learned, we leaned, we stood.

As the Southern California fires roared around us, we huddled close and created our own little safe haven of burning, shedding and cleansing.

I feel like I have a new skin. The playful creative person deep inside has resurfaced out of the ashes. I am ready to get messy again. I am ready to face my fears of being less than perfect and making mistakes with the canvas of my life, as well as those in my studio. Beautiful messy mistakes.

The piece I made this night is now hanging on my wall. On the tip top of painted strokes of orange is the stamped word "balance". I chose this word for two reasons. One being that I felt the balance of our personalities and our gifts created such a oneness the entire time us women were together. A balance of creative souls giving and receiving equally. Two being that I came out of this time together knowing that balance is what I need in my life. I've been neglecting parts of myself that go beyond the desire to create a family. My art supplies have been tucked away in a transparent plastic bin up in my studio. I stare at it daily. I see the colors trapped inside. It's time for me to release them, to take them out so they can breathe through me. I've been afraid for what they would tell me but I am learning that fear is all part of doing something messy and thrilling and outrageously healthy.

Lately I've been expressing so many parts of me with my photography, which I love and is so naturally ingrained within me...but I miss my paints, my pastels and all in between. Sitting on a canvas cloth, with Swirly's abundance of art supplies, surrounded by three beautiful women giving me the permission to play, get messy and throw perfection out the window has lifted a heavy weight that I didn't even realize was there. I plan to pay more attention so that I can do whatever it is my "self" needs to feel more free.

I am so grateful for this gift that these hunk of burning lovelies offered to me.

(thank you, Sus for my new rockin' banner)


Blogger Susannah Conway said...

...and you are so beautiful when you get messy, so utterly gorgeous and ravishing! It all begins now... i miss you monkey x

October 29, 2007 at 12:11:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Kirsten Michelle said...

everything from your beautiful new banner through to the end of this gorgeous post glitters with the magic that is you, my love ;-)

October 29, 2007 at 12:15:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Lianne said...

Congratulations on your new beginning and your wonderful journey of balance.

Love the banner. Love the girls. Love you!

October 29, 2007 at 12:59:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Silvia said...

The banner is just beautiful as are you girls. What a wonderful inspiring post! xOx

October 29, 2007 at 1:00:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I just got little shivers of delight when I read this. So happy for all of you to have this powerful time together.

October 29, 2007 at 1:27:00 PM PDT  
Blogger daisies said...

what a beautiful inspiring post full of love and joy ... xox

October 29, 2007 at 3:24:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Stacy said...

what a beautiful post of balance and beginnings. you all are just so gorgeous, i want to be in a smush sandwich too! xoxo

October 29, 2007 at 5:08:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

LOVE the new banner

October 29, 2007 at 6:18:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

amen to that, my beautiful boho babe. messy, thrilly and filled with colour - we started something and i couldn't think of anyone i'd like more to be on this journey with. and i love the clolours and the supermodel shot in the banner, our suz is very clever!!


October 29, 2007 at 6:27:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Anna said...

Oooh, thank you for letting us in for a vicarious and juicy visit! :)

October 29, 2007 at 7:15:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Colorsonmymind said...

Looking at these photos brings me calm, love and peace. What beauty and balance emits from them.

I too love your banner-go Sus.

I am eager to see some of your messy hand-colorful creations.

It sounds like this time with the girls really nourished your soul.

Can't wait to talk and hear more.

Love you darling
toe to toe

October 30, 2007 at 4:18:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Mindy said...

you women all embody this passion that is so rich and so tangable. the energy radiates off the screen! simply divine and utterly inspiring. xo to all of you

October 30, 2007 at 5:37:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Darlene said...

so much love being passed around!!

and I am loving your new banner...so you;)

xOx Dar

October 30, 2007 at 6:24:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Michelle (a.k.a. la vie en rose) said...

you sound so good in this post. very empowered!

and i'm lovin' the banner. very boho!

October 30, 2007 at 6:43:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

What lovely passion, creativity, and sister-girl moments...

I haven't had that in such a long time. Not because it's not available, but because my armor is up and I can't find a way to let it go...
I'm so happy for you to open that bin. I have the same one, sitting, waiting.
I can't wait to see what you create!

Oh, and great banner SUS!!

October 30, 2007 at 8:44:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

The first thing that I noticed when I popped in today was your new banner. I am totally digging it. It's absolutely stunning... as are you.

October 30, 2007 at 9:01:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Kristen said...

snaps for a good time!

how do you meet such cool women in your life????

October 30, 2007 at 9:26:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

What a perfect ending to such a gorgeous, loving, creative week....I love that this new banner is full of color and some of the photos that were taken during the very week that you rediscovered your need to return to all of your creative loves. I also love that it was created by one of the very people who shared your journey during that week.

It is so very symbolic and...oh, I am so happy for you honey...so so happy. I can't wait to see what beauty your "messy" :-) creating produces.

Love you.xoxoxo

October 30, 2007 at 12:00:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Gina (Lady Goats) said...

You make me smile.

I am very happy for you.

The tone of this post was very different. I can tell you're feeling better about things. And about yourself. :-)

October 30, 2007 at 1:07:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Lady Prism said...

I have been siletly following your journey. I just want to say that I too feel the happy that you feel just reading here.

And the banner is really pretty.

October 30, 2007 at 10:20:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Unknown said...

sheesh. I'm trying not to be jealous, but it's pretty much impossible;)


October 31, 2007 at 7:02:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

What fun! Just what the universal doctor ordered! I'm so glad that you all had a terrific, soulful time together, chatting, laughing, confiding, and making artwork together. Sounds like the perfect trip!

I met up with Frida in NYC yesterday. She is such a sweet and interesting person, isn't she? She had such a wonderful time with you lovelies, too.

Now free those paints and create, Boho Girl! The reds are furious and the blues are depressed being that plastic bin! But don't worry too much about the yellow. He's always mellow and has a sunny attitude wherever he is. ;p I'm looking forward to seeing your new images. :)

November 1, 2007 at 6:12:00 AM PDT  

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