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Friday, January 4

back to the center*


me behind a fountain in san francisco, taken by boho boy

This morning I snuggled in bed later than usual. After my husband brought me a warm mug of yerba mate, I grabbed my copy of Eat Pray Love from our bedside and opened it up to a place I wanted to return to. I am rereading bits that resonated with me. Bits that transform what can be my limited way of thinking or being. This pretty much means almost the entire book...bless the author and her wisdom.

With my cat curled up next to my hip and her head laying against my bosom, this is what I turned to:

"Imagine that the Universe is a great spinning engine. You want to stay near the core of the thing - right in the hub of the wheel - not out at the edges where all the wild whirling takes place, where you can get frayed and crazy. The hub of calmness - that's your heart. That's where God lives within you. So stop looking for answers out in the world. Just keep coming back to the center and you'll always find peace. "


~ says the Yogic Irish dairy farmer to Elizabeth Gilbert during her time in India at the Ashram

After reading this I felt warm all over. Beyond the warmth that my 100% bamboo sheets offered me in my bed. I looked around at our indigo blue walls and ahead of me at the arched doorway that my husband carved. My head and body felt light. The walls felt like they were pulsing like a heartbeat and closing in on me but I didn't feel suffocated or claustrophobic. I closed my eyes and felt the room enter into me and me into it. There was this sense that we (cat, bed, walls...even the socks on the floor) all became one. I opened my eyes and a knowing flowed through me that we are all indeed one and everything is God. I reached my hand out to our indigo blue wall, knowing that I was touching God.

I took a deep breath and smiled to myself, to my cat that was looking up at me because she must have felt a shift in my being. Lately God has felt so very far away. Perhaps because I had stumbled out beyond the center and was trying to make sense of what I thought was chaos in my world, in our world.

God was sending me a message through that passage in the book and through what transpired after reading it.

I glanced over at the part of our bedroom that used to be a closet but is now a light green painted nook where a bassinet has taken up residence. Above it are wooden letters that read "Le Bebe" (the baby in French). I felt a peace. I heard myself whisper out loud "In this very sacred moment, I understand what trust and gently releasing means."

I have had moments with God similar to this while walking in a forest draped in redwood trees or sitting in the warm sand as the waves thunder and crash up ahead but laying in the center of four walls surrounding me, away from nature... this was a first.

Tears of gratefulness trailed down my cheeks. I took my aloe Kleenex and slowly wiped them. I tore off a small piece of my tear soaked tissue and placed it in between the pages where I could come back to those wise words from the Yogic Irish dairy farmer when needed.

"Just keep coming back to the center...and you'll always find peace."

53 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

I was aghast when I heard you have a baby bassinet set up in your home already. WTF! Slightly obsessed?? I think someone needs to slap you in the face and let you know you're becoming unhealthily obsessed with getting pregnant. Just read your blog.

And what about adoption? There are so many children out there who need loving homes. How can you be so obsessed with having a baby of your own?! Wake up and move on with your life!!

January 4, 2008 at 12:03:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Oh, Denise, the quicker I can counter that awful first comment, the better. I usually lurk around here, but I'm always so inspired by your journey. I hope the bassinet means what I think it means, and if it hasn't quite happened yet, I think it's such a quiet and beautiful way to manifest your destiny. Hope you're doing well... -chan

January 4, 2008 at 12:06:00 PM PST  
Blogger The Byrd said...

Another De-lurker here..

I just found your site a few days ago and I am coming out of hiding to counter the first comment as well.

I love your blog, I think that you are on a journey that so many women in this world are on and to put a voice to that?

Completely courageous.

January 4, 2008 at 12:14:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

What makes the first commenter think the bassinet isn't for an adopted baby?

January 4, 2008 at 12:25:00 PM PST  
Blogger dean said...

Denise, I hope that you are in a strong place where the first comment can flow over you and land somewhere far from your heart.

I imagine that having a bassinet in your immediate vicinity is as important as having books on the bedside table to someone who wants to read. Intention. Thought and energy.

I suppose being audibly and visibly judged is just another challenge the universe places before you to solidify your conifdence of being, independence of journey.

I wish the coming year to unveil so many more sacred parts of yourself in a safe and joyful environment.

xox.

January 4, 2008 at 12:27:00 PM PST  
Blogger Left-handed Trees... said...

I'm not blogging right now...but I am catching up on reading them and I just wanted to compliment you for being so sweetly open and honest--I'm sorry this leaves room for someone like the first commenter to walk in and say whatever nasty things they like. I have said this a dozen times, but for the person above, if you don't like what you read on a blog--um, just stop reading it...no one is forcing you to follow along. I'm sorry you had a comment like that...it brings up another line from Eat, Pray, Love (one that has resonated with me lately), "Tell the truth. Tell the truth. Tell the truth." Just keep speaking your truth, Denise...it *is* a beautiful thing.
Love,
D.

January 4, 2008 at 12:28:00 PM PST  
Blogger Boho Girl said...

thank you, sweet de-lurkers for your warm and gentle words.

perhaps because of what transpired this morning and because i am in a place of feeling true peace, i am okay after reading the first comment.

this person doesn't know our truth and that the reason we have a bassinet, which was recently purchased before Christmas, was because we decided that in 2008 we will have a baby whether it be from being pregnant or adopting.

it has become a symbol of our intention to be parents, of manifesting this dream but also has helped us to let go and trust, which to me feels so far from obsessing.

my only disappointment from this comment is that it has now become about my sweet, loving readers and me defending my journey and not about the message that i felt this morning laying in my bed.

that message is that God is within us, all around us and we can find this peace and oneness with the Universe if we come back to our center.

when i looked at our bassinet and found peace, i wasn't just thinking of the idea of us being parents but about the books i intend to write and my photography, my strong marriage and how it all seems to be extraordinary and rising out of the ashes of all this pain we have endured.

it's beautiful...and all is well.

January 4, 2008 at 12:35:00 PM PST  
Blogger pERiWinKle said...

My sweet friend...at one stage I've become a bit jealous of where you are...I also want to have all these centred feelings...and then I realise that we all grow in our own pace...and my contentment with our situation will come when I'm ready to be there...

I admire you so for your courage to share your inmost thoughts here...you are so brave...

and tonight...

tonight I pray a selfish prayer...and that is that I'll have the opportunity one day...to make you some tea...and to resonate with you about all the feelings we had...to talk about all the dreams we have for our children...together. Right there. With them running and laughing around us.

And then...to thank God for letting our roads cross...for making our dreams come true...to say a prayer with you for listening to our hearts.

I embrace this very special feeling and moment with you...and send you a soft cuddle! xx

PS: don't delete this post..this is your true self...and it is so beautiful and precious!

January 4, 2008 at 12:40:00 PM PST  
Blogger Schmoops said...

oh, but there are so many things i wish to say to your first commenter, but instead i wish to focus energy on the beauty that is you.

this is beautiful. your words, your godly experience, your manifestation.

i completely agree with left-handed trees. people shouldn't read blogs they take issue with. but you know, this is also part of your strength ~ knowing that this particular person is where all the wild whirling is and simply trying to project their answers and chaos onto you. she/he obviously has no clue.

"just keep coming back to the center... and you'll always find peace."

keep speaking your truth angel. spend no energy on the vampires, you know in your heart what is right for you, and who circles you. stay strong in your center.

i love you.
xoxo

January 4, 2008 at 12:41:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Belinda said...

I sense that 2008 is going to be an extraordinary year for you in all the right ways.

And thank you for this post - I felt the peace and calm you describe coming through me as well, just through the power of your words.

January 4, 2008 at 12:43:00 PM PST  
Blogger pERiWinKle said...

ahhh...you just posted your second comment...the same moment I posted mine...there you go...

have you read "A course in miracles"?

This book is exactly about where you are now...

the website is www. acimi.com

Love you! xx

January 4, 2008 at 12:47:00 PM PST  
Blogger kristen said...

it's unfortunate that people feel a need to leave ugly comments anonymously. what's the point? the commenter's angry words are about something that's hurting them and nothing with you.

i know you know that, but still. xo

January 4, 2008 at 1:08:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am a lurker on your blog as well. You often give me messages that I need to hear, just when I need them and I thank you for that.

One thing I keep feeling like I wish I could tell you is that (and I was there once too, when I had trouble holding onto my pregnancies) you might want to consider pulling out of the idea that babies are romantic and that you will be this calm, wholesome threesome.

Kids rock, they really do. You already know about the great part of having kids, clearly.

But you will give up a lot of things that help you NOW keep your sanity. You will give up quiet time with tea cups, a lot of time photoshopping, most of your deep conversations, tabletops full of little trinkets that make you happy, wandering through little shops.

Oh, sure, when the baby is tiny, you can wear him or her and browse, but when they start reaching out and grabbing, or tantruming because you say no, you will give that up, too. When they are tiny, you can occasionally meditate, but when they are toddlers, time for YOU goes away. Free time is spent cleaning up the catastrophes around the house.

I don't want to be a downer... its just that when you crave a baby, you look at this life with rose-colored glasses.

Motherhood is messy, chaotic, brings out the best in you, but also brings out the worst. It actually can bring you closer and also become a wall between you and your hubby because discussions will be about doctor's appointments and methods of discipline, and frustration.

I am sure that deep down you know all this, but you never really realize how much you have given up until its gone. Because of your kids.

I just ask that you bask in your quiet times now, that you revel in your alone time, that you learn to find peace and centeredness in the midst of chaos, because that is what your life will become.

Its an awesome kind of chaos, but its definately a kind of constant chaos that you can only walk away from when your hubby sends you out alone and takes care of the child so you can get a break.

Luckily you have an awesome hubby.

I have gone on and on. Too much. Please don't take these words as criticism. Just a reminder from a mom who would NEVER give up her kids but often reads your blog and envies your times to read a book or drink a cup of tea, your beautiful home, and your time away with Boho Boy.

Revel in your current life. Because your current life is sublime.

January 4, 2008 at 1:09:00 PM PST  
Blogger Boho Girl said...

yes anon, you are right...my life is sublime and i am really feeling that today.

your life also sounds sublime. i love the word sublime. whomever created that word, i want to kiss them. ; )

bless you and your beautifully abundant family.

i wish for you moments of stillness over this new year where a friend or family member could perhaps give you a wee break so you can read that book or drift into that cup of tea without interruption.

i once heard a woman share on Oprah that she created a little solstice for herself in her closet where she lit candles and played soft music. she sometimes read or meditated or wrote in her journal. her kids knew when she was in that closet, it was mommy time and they left her alone. i thought that was brilliant and wrote it down in my journal under fabulous ideas.

who would have known a closet could be an oasis?

love & peace to you and yours,
denise

January 4, 2008 at 2:34:00 PM PST  
Blogger gem said...

Denise,

i so enjoy coming here to your space. thank you.

as you bless Elizabeth Gilbert, author of Eat, Pray, Love, i say the same to you: bless you and your wisdom.

warmly,
gem

January 4, 2008 at 2:35:00 PM PST  
Anonymous melissa said...

I got chills reading your post...so beautiful just like you!

January 4, 2008 at 2:36:00 PM PST  
Blogger Swirly said...

I find it a curious blog phenomenon that the cruelest comments are always left by the same person - "anonymous". Who are you anonymous? If you are going to share such vicious words, show your face! How easy it is to feel superior when you're hidden behind a curtain...

January 4, 2008 at 3:00:00 PM PST  
Blogger mccabe said...

as i wrote in your email,
these words, pictures, and wisdom
could not have come on a better day for me.
i just love this-
especially the light green space with wood letters.

your sharings are a gift
to anyone who reads them.
i am sorry that not everyone feels
that way.

you are a light
that shines in all circumstances...

love
mccabe x

January 4, 2008 at 3:15:00 PM PST  
Blogger the brady girls said...

"Just keep coming back to the center...and you'll always find peace."...

i think this is the perfect ending to the beginning of all this.

you know you are a beautiful amazing person & as is evidenced by everybody here... you are supported & inspire so many of us on so many different levels.

xoxo

January 4, 2008 at 3:18:00 PM PST  
Blogger Tammy said...

amen denise...

love, love, love your comment to the first anon. he/she cannot begin to know of your plans, your truth, your intentions for creating your family in 2008.

i love that you have a bassinet in your cozy nook...what a lovely confirmation that you WILL be a mom soon. oh and what a lucky little baby she/he will be~

babies, books, writing, traveling, photography...oh what wonderful things await you this year. i can just feel it! ;)

one of my hopes/wishes will be coming true in 2008 as well~~ meeting you! YAY! i cannot wait.

stay strong sweet girl.

loving you.

ttd

January 4, 2008 at 3:19:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Hubby said...

I am so proud of you. I love you.

January 4, 2008 at 3:50:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I just wanted to be clear to some of the ladies here that I am anonymous #2, NOT anonymous from the first comment here!

But I have to say that I had commenters remorse the moment I hit "send". I felt like spewing and venting my frustrations and warning you, Denise, to not imagine the world of motherhood as the world of "completion" because you gain so much, but you lose so many other things you love.

I felt this was a safe environment because of how well supported you are by all your awesome girlfriends. I envy you that circle of girly-girls. So, thanks for taking my comment to heart and recognizing where I am coming from.

Its funny, I was thinking about that analogy of the being at the center of the wheel. I felt very much there, late nights, with my sons at my breast, rocking. But now that they are older, I often feel like I am out on the rim, holding on with one hand, legs flying space-ward!

Motherhood IS awesome. But there are days I wonder why I tried so hard for this, these tears, this frustration, having your child tell you they "hate you" because you are trying to shape them into a good person. That brings a lot of guilt after all the work and stress to bring these children into the world.

Thanks for the good wishes... I will try to put them into practice... Even though I don't have a circle of friends like yours, thank goodness I have my own Boho-guy who understands what a Mama needs.

Thanks for letting me use your little corner of the world as a soapbox and venting space.

Have a blessed (and sublime) new year... and stay to the center!

January 4, 2008 at 3:53:00 PM PST  
Anonymous penelope said...

Wow Denise, this was amazing. And I think it's so wonderful (in a strange way) that you were tested immediately with that first comment and you soared up and above it. Really lets you know that God and your feeling of deep peace has gone down deep and settled into your very being. These are not just words you're speaking, it's your truth.

I'm so happy for you!

And a baby either way in 2008! Yay!

love to you beautiful girl...

January 4, 2008 at 4:32:00 PM PST  
Blogger hlkennedy said...

I always get chills when someone else mentions their deep connection to that book. It found me at just the right time and I too am inspired to go back to certain places in it. Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I often don't because it feels so intimate to me (my reaction to the book from a place deep within myself).

All is well and all will be well. So true.

January 4, 2008 at 5:22:00 PM PST  
Blogger thea said...

I teared reading your post-not only because this experience yuou had today was AMAZING, but because as I read it, I somehow felt and heard my mom, on this evening where she gave birth to me 36 years ago. It was a beautiful bountiful gift.

I close my eyes and feel the oneness through you and your sharing.

I have a book titled oneness-it is very profound-I have read very little and embrace that I will be pulled to it when the time is right. This post felt like a tug to it. It is the secret magnified by a trillion - at least that is what I have gathered.

I LOVE that you have decided to create a beautiful space for boho baby-from trust and faith that they will arrive soon. It is because you have opeoned yourself to trust and manifest. I love that about you my love.

You are such a light in my life.
I love you
t2t
h2h
c2c
b2b
k2k
XOXOXOXOXO

January 4, 2008 at 5:26:00 PM PST  
Blogger Josy said...

there's a child waiting for you... whether in your womb or outside of your womb... and I wish you all the best in 2008! I read your blog often and you have an amazing talent with your writing! You're doing exactly what you need to do! :)

January 4, 2008 at 5:31:00 PM PST  
Blogger Kirsten Michelle said...

this photo is incredibly stunning...
your experience today so totally encompassing...
the closing quote so gratefully welcomed by my scattered mind.
it upset me greatly to read the first comment on this other-worldly post, but i have read your subsequent comment and wish not to direct more energy toward it.
i hope you know that finding you here in 2007 has been an absolute godsend to me. that while our day to day lives have very little in common...our spirits are kindred. you are a source of continual inspiration to me and i consider myself truly blessed that our paths have crossed.
sweet blessings to you, my beautiful friend...2008 will be an extraordinary year.
xoxoxo

January 4, 2008 at 6:00:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Jessica said...

such a personal and intimate post...thank you for sharing a piece of your private sacred space in time with us. I have been fortunate enough to have several of these moments but never so selfless to share them with complete strangers...thank you again...light and love, me

January 4, 2008 at 6:23:00 PM PST  
Blogger mccabe said...

i had one more thing to add-

you have been a great comfort to those in need, not only women who are trying to conceive (but especially women who are trying to conceive) but ANYONE who is having a difficult time.

sometimes it is hard to find the words to describe those feelings. i feel like you assist others greatly in your healing as you heal yourself. you are the voice for so many, even ones that cannot find the strength to speak up.

that is what makes this place so special and sacred. coming here is like being invited into your indigo room-with sweet smelling candles, nag champa burning, and beautiful photographs and art surrounding the space. you hand out hot tea and listen with such gentleness...even the teeniest of voices are heard.

thank you for being so brave and generous with your big, wide heart.

xx
mc

January 4, 2008 at 6:41:00 PM PST  
Anonymous kristin said...

wow bohogirl! i always look forward to reading your latest entries...such a wise soul for a young body. but today i got more than i bargained for. your heartfelt entry and subsequent comment were thoughtful and enlightening. and i even had a revelation from your first Anony. commenter. it was a reminder for me that lately i too have taken the sometimes easy road of "judgement" as i travel along the edges of my own life, frayed and whipped about. Lightbulb moment...i always have a choice, and i do want to get back to the centre. 2008 is a great time to start. thanks so much for this moment :)
much love to you, kristin

January 4, 2008 at 8:32:00 PM PST  
Anonymous amy said...

what a gorgeous photo and lovely wise words. one thing i enjoy most about your blog is that it really captures a multi layered journey. elizabeth gilbert's book does the same thing.

January 5, 2008 at 1:37:00 AM PST  
Blogger Christianne said...

This post brought tears to my eyes, and when I went back to the top to read the quote again and let it really sink in after hearing your thoughts on it, goosebumps ran up and down my arms. Thank you for sharing this. I am so excited for you and where you are in your journey and what lies up ahead for you and Boho Boy.

By the way, that photo he took of you behind the waterfall is BLISS. Gorgeous. Just like you.

January 5, 2008 at 4:53:00 AM PST  
Blogger pERiWinKle said...

I agree with Mccabe,
you are the voice for many,
you bring comfort for many,
with your words, you help others heal.

Big soft cuddles...while you cuddle in the centre...

Love you.
xx

January 5, 2008 at 5:57:00 AM PST  
Blogger megg said...

I think that the thing about you that makes you so real and yet so vulnerable to attack is that you put yourself out there. You tell us about all of yourself and your journey. That is what this post was full of - your journey to yourself - what a shame that someone felt that they needed to bring you down. Denise, please don't ever ever stop writing about who you are and what you are going through. At this point there are 32 positive loving comments here. Hold those close to your heart. Obviously your sweet, honest, kind, real words opened up someone else's issues and that scared them. You are who you are - and you are deeply DEEPLY loved and supported on this journey.

LOVE you sweet friend. Sending you one of our 'vibes' right now - feel it? (It's a puppy-pile cuddle!)

January 5, 2008 at 6:56:00 AM PST  
Blogger Bohemian Mom said...

Happy 2008, boho girl.
This was a magical post to read. Your words are so soothing, and you write from a enlightened place deep within your heart.
Negative comments can never take that away from you.

The most important aspect of a baby's experience is it's mother's self-love. You are so there, hon. I want to recommend a wonderful book to you. Check out "Buddha Mom" by Jacqueline Kramer.
All the best to you & hubby in the new year.

January 5, 2008 at 7:13:00 AM PST  
Anonymous bohemiangirl said...

I second Penelope. Not only was your post moving but you demonstrated that inner peace with your subsequent response to comment #1. And I love Eat, Pray, Love. I think it's time for me to pick it up again - so many valuable lessons.

January 5, 2008 at 7:20:00 AM PST  
Anonymous Honey said...

Beautiful you. I'm not able to articulate very well at the moment, but my feelings are pooling. Blessedly the others above are better equipped. In short thank you for the reminders and the rawness you share with us. It leaves you open to comments (both of resonance and rough ignorance), but because you are in such a good place you do not appear vulnerable. Your peaceful center radiates and you have a posse to be reckoned with bringing up the rear, my dear. I come here daily for your words, your images, your journey logs and you. Beautiful you. This year is going to be amazing. I feel it in my core. My center. Here's to 200Great!

January 5, 2008 at 8:27:00 AM PST  
Blogger Lisa said...

I found you today, and you touched my heart in ways that I am not able to express fully...
Sitting at work, in the lobby of a bank, your words (both past and present)resonated so deeply in me I have been brought to tears (I've kept them in though, how strange for the girl at the bank to be crying at her computer screen :0) ). To think I got here by researching a diet! Though I now realize that it is so much more than that.
In my world, I have been numbed by the routine and monotony of life. Wakeup, Work, Cook dinner,TV, bed. I read Eat prey Love and wanted so desperately for it to allow to me feel again.
Now I find you... And you shown me what it's really like to fully experience your life. And its beautiful beyond words. You experience your life and your emotions (both good and bad) and your love to the fullest. I'm amazed by you.
I also know the ache of the dream of motherhood, and I find in you beauty and strength that shows the mother you will be. Your child (or children) will be so lucky to have you!
And I thank you with all that I have for everything you've shared.
And now I strive to be like you... Only me. :0)
Thank you so much again
Lisa

January 5, 2008 at 9:49:00 AM PST  
Anonymous Becca said...

I had to stop reading all the comments. I had to focus on what I wanted to post to you and directly you and I was getting sidetracked!

Anyway, I reveled in this blog. It was the first thing I went to this morning, after having a warm, cozy few extra minutes in bed with my hubs. I giggled at first, knowing that someone takes such pleasure in the little things as I do.
The part of your blog that warmed me the most, from head to toe Denise, was about the nook that was once a closet, but now a baby space. I moment I read it, all that resonated within me, was your positivity and out look that you WILL be a parent. Why let issues with infertility wane all the good things about it and the journey!?
Thank you for your post, for all of your posts and goodness and light, even when your light has dimmed, as all of ours do, your truth speaks volumes of your beauty!
Happy New Year, Happy Journey, Happy Reading, Happy Gathering, Happy 100% Babmoo Sheets (yay!), Happy Everything to you, friend!
Hugs,
Becca

January 5, 2008 at 9:51:00 AM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

you have such a Jesus/Buddha nature about you that inspires me.

i would have wanted to kick that first commenter's ass and you were so gentle and strong.

a true example of being centered.

thank you.
susan

January 5, 2008 at 11:48:00 AM PST  
Blogger dreamergirl said...

i cannot wait to send a card to you boho's when your baby has arrived!

and i'm with mccabe, 'you are the voice for so many' and your voice always seems to resonate with me one way or another. thank you for whispering comforting words in my ear.

xOx

January 5, 2008 at 2:17:00 PM PST  
Blogger bella said...

Don't you love this? That the closer we ground in our own center, the more we are actually aware of the oneness of all things. It is not "losing" the self as it can be interpreted, but in dwelling fully in our own hearts that the god come alive and shimmers all around.
Such heartfelt and lovely words.
love to you.

January 5, 2008 at 4:43:00 PM PST  
Anonymous jen gray said...

hi chickie,
its me. wishing you all the love you can hold
within that expansive heart of yours....
and wishing that
same love to all of those here who understand what
really matters, ....and those who dont too.

i look forward to see you soon and making us a big bowl of soup :)
jen gray

January 5, 2008 at 6:50:00 PM PST  
Blogger daisies said...

so happy to hear that you are in such a good place ~ that makes me smile. its too bad that others feel the need to lash out ... you handled anonymous beautifully ... i hope you find ways to stay in your center, xox

January 5, 2008 at 7:56:00 PM PST  
Blogger nancygrayce said...

The gentleness of your spirit just is an inspiration to me.....I too had to wait a long time for my second child. the tests, the tears the longing and the emptiness....Yes, I've walked that walk. Now he's 30. Everytime he does something stupid, my precious mama says, "You took fertility pills to get him." I always laugh! May God bless you in your endeavor and give you the desire of your heart!

January 5, 2008 at 7:58:00 PM PST  
Blogger heather l murphy said...

beautiful photo + post boho girl! I have been rereading eat pray love too and finding much wisdom, just like I do from your blog! you truly inspire me to go deeper into myself. i celebrate you* and where you are in your life. it is all very exciting!

January 5, 2008 at 8:43:00 PM PST  
Blogger Intrepidflame said...

Beautiful entry. Just stopped by to say that I am still reading and that I miss your presence on my site. Hope you have a great 07; at the center and get everything you deserve...

January 6, 2008 at 11:26:00 AM PST  
Blogger Julia said...

Doesn't the Law of Attraction say that you have to act like you already have what you want? I think you're doing fine.

I love your journal. Can't wait to see what this year brings to you and your family!

January 6, 2008 at 4:21:00 PM PST  
Blogger Dana said...

You don't know me and I don't know you but your words resonated with me.

Thank you for your words.

January 6, 2008 at 10:17:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Erin Grant said...

My sexy-brave husband and I also struggled to bring our baby into this world. On August 21st, seven weeks before he was supposed to be here, our son entered the world kicking and screaming. 2007 was our year.

2008 will be yours.

And a quick aside about how chaotic it is having kids ... Well, the previous commenter's right. Everything about your world changes. But my husband and I still stare into each other's eyes over poop-filled diapers and hold hands through midnight feedings. We cherished the times we spent cuddling before the baby, but we cherish them even more now when there's a sleepy 4 month old curled up between us. Even when they get interrupted by somebody throwing up.

Blessings to you and your expanding family in the new year.

January 7, 2008 at 7:03:00 AM PST  
Blogger Susannah said...

you are so loved, my angel.. by me, by your tribe.. by the universe. you ARE love, and that becomes apparent every time you share your story with the world xoxox

January 7, 2008 at 9:40:00 AM PST  
Blogger kristen said...

i'm so sorry that heartless people are leaving nasty comments in your blog. i see an anonymous post and i just balk at what karma will do to that chump.

so what i was going to say was great idea rereading epl. what a great book. elizabeth is so wise!

January 7, 2008 at 12:21:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

"Just keep coming back to the center...and you'll always find peace."
Friendly, Maria

January 9, 2008 at 12:22:00 PM PST  

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