Asqew Grill in Haight Ashbury, canon digital rebel xti
I'm so in awe of the sense of community and support that we have received from all of you about our decision to move forward with adoption. I realize a lot of people out in blogsphere have their own opinions on adoption and/or fertility stuff and I am so grateful for how respectful my readers have been about our choices throughout this journey. I am blessed with how gentle you've been with our hearts.
Our journey to conceive has been a challenging road from the very beginning and exploring all my emotions here on my blog has been so healing for me. On those days when I was hanging onto thin threads of hope, I would feel you all circle to lift me up and breathe more strength and life into me.
Our decision to adopt has not brought this journey to an end. In fact, it almost feels like a new beginning as we tread into waters that yet again feel so unfamiliar.
The last few days I have been sick with what feels like a combination of strep throat, bronchitis and the stomach flu. This has pretty much forced me to sit still and ponder a lot of the emotions that are rising and falling in my heart. I've realized that the past few months I've been running around with photo sessions, the holidays, a road trip and a creative project. I haven't allowed for much time to slow down and marinate. This past week I've been able to do this. In fact, I like it so much that I think I am going to continue to try and slow down over the next few months. I really need to wrap my head around the idea that we'll be parents soon...perhaps very soon and with adoption, there is so much that needs to be done between now and then.
Day by day.
Step by step.
Breath by breath.
All of this BIG~ness feels so much lighter with the support and love we've received from family and dear friends.
I am so grateful for this community corner that I can bunker down in when it all feels overwhelming.