Tuesday, January 22

giddy up*

a sweet family skipping together, canon digital rebel xti

I arrived home late last night from a trip that has transformed me.

Not only did I interview and photograph some of the most amazing couples I have ever had the privilege of meeting but I also cried with them, laughed with them and resonated with them on a level that was so entirely raw and deep.

Each of them had their own wild, crazy and beautiful story to how their babies came into their lives. I felt like I've been on a trip around the world and back with the scope of emotions I have felt along with them.

One thing that I left with that has soothed my heart in regards to our own wild adoption journey about to begin, was watching them hold their babies (some grown, some still tiny peanuts). The feeling dancing around the room was always them knowing and me seeing that they were so meant to be together. Those babies are theirs. Born from their hearts. Those sweet little spirits came into their lives in a way they did not expect in the beginning but it is not questioned. It is accepted, nurtured, embraced and celebrated.

I also brought home a poopie case of strep throat...which will more than likely keep me laying in bed for the next few days. To be honest, I am grateful for this opportunity to lie down, meditate and reflect on all that transpired on this trip and all that will transpire for me and Boho Boy over this next year.

As much as my head is spinning and my heart is singing...I feel a peace I have not felt in so long. A happiness that has transcended our sadness and a hope that sooths the fears when needed.

I am fastening my seat belt and holding on for what I know will be a whirly, twirly, sparkly, magical, intimidating, frightening, joyful, beautiful, delicious ride.

Giddy up.


Anonymous Anonymous said...

beautiful photo! I can't wait to chat when you are feeling better and I stop hacking.

love you and your wild ride.

January 22, 2008 at 11:29:00 AM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Magical....I'm in my heart snuggling up next to you...to listen to all your heart stories xx

January 22, 2008 at 11:30:00 AM PST  
Blogger Kel said...

"Born from their hearts." So beautifully put, my eyes misted over. Thank you for sharing your journey with us.

January 22, 2008 at 11:52:00 AM PST  
Blogger Silvia said...

Magical words boho beauty!
feel better soon xOx

January 22, 2008 at 11:57:00 AM PST  
Blogger Tanaya said...

Wow, it is so amazing how synchronistic this trip is. How fascinating to see how everything is coming together.

Who knows, you may just become a Baby Ambassador!!! I'm happy for you that it was a beautiful experience. Feel better soon.

January 22, 2008 at 12:10:00 PM PST  
Blogger Stacy said...

giddy up, indeed!

this was delicious to read and i can't wait to talk to you and hear all about it when you're throat is feeling better.

gorgeous, joyful photo!


January 22, 2008 at 12:12:00 PM PST  
Blogger Pen said...

welcome home. how wonderful to know that the journey was everything you expected and more. *so* looking forward to the stories you chose to share... my husband and i are embarking on the same journey and already your post is soothing our fears.

January 22, 2008 at 12:20:00 PM PST  
Blogger Lisa said...

Giddy-up, indeed! I am so happy and excited for you two. I have goosebumps from reading your reflections. You have such a way with words. Thank you for sharing such an intimate journey with us. I look forward to reading more...

January 22, 2008 at 12:51:00 PM PST  
Blogger Jessica S. said...

I had a feeling this trip was going to be a very very good thing in so many ways...take care of yourself...

January 22, 2008 at 12:52:00 PM PST  
Blogger christianne said...

I love that the title of this post is "giddy up" -- because your heart seems bubbling over with giddiness at the wonder of what you just experienced. Such a beautiful story! And I love the photo, too.

January 22, 2008 at 1:08:00 PM PST  
Blogger Ruby Bigonia said...

welcome home...feel better...and hold on tight! it sounds like you're on quite a journey...i'm so glad for you!

January 22, 2008 at 1:25:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

perfect...just perfect. (minus the strep)
rest now little one...

January 22, 2008 at 1:27:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

:) !!!!

love to you!

January 22, 2008 at 2:49:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

If you haven't already, you must see the movie Juno!

January 22, 2008 at 3:45:00 PM PST  
Blogger Bella Art Girl said...

adoption... having been adopted from another country, having adopted a child in this one, having birthed two from my womb and lost one I can truly say it is a gift to any child to have loving parents from the womb or from the heart. I think that nurture is the key in the nature vs. nurture question. I wish you well on this journey and can tell you that from what I have seen and read here that you and boho boy will be wonderful parents...what is that quote something about a long journey beginning with a single step..peace and joy to you both

January 22, 2008 at 6:15:00 PM PST  
Blogger Jan said...

Hope you feel better. This was a great post, and a wonderful photo.

January 22, 2008 at 6:40:00 PM PST  
Blogger tiny noises said...

I just love, love. And you and boho boy seem to be oozing love so much bigger than yourselves. Thanks for letting the rest of us tag along and smile and cry along with you!

January 22, 2008 at 10:23:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm so happy for where you are at this moment (not the poopie sick part, the wonderful road ahead part). I hope that one day I will look down the same path as you.

I know you and boho boy are going to be AMAZING!


January 23, 2008 at 9:26:00 AM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

this sounds like most wonderful journey you just got back from - i can't wait to see the photos, hear your stories and share your insight...how exciting!!!


January 23, 2008 at 11:16:00 AM PST  
Blogger Yolanda said...

I know that you will find what you are searching for.

January 23, 2008 at 11:52:00 AM PST  
Blogger Chelsea Talks Smack said...

your photographs are beautiful, absolutely beautiful. AND your writing, I will definitely be coming back.

January 23, 2008 at 2:48:00 PM PST  
Blogger mccabe said...

this post just filled me with so much love, warmth, and hope of miracles.

i couldn't be happier for you!!!!!!

all good things, my friend....
all good things.

excited to witness this incredible journey,
brave girl.

mcmermaid xx

January 25, 2008 at 10:30:00 AM PST  
Blogger Jamie Welsh Watson said...

You are a beautiful person! That photo is so gorgeous too. What an adventure. I am new to your blog, starting from 2007 making my way! I am inspired by you!

November 13, 2008 at 6:14:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Carissa said...

I am new to your blog and this is the post I was looking for. The one where you made the shift to say, "this is the new direction we're headed." because i experienced that shift myself just a few months ago and the hope that accompanies the shift is absolutely amazing. thank you for sharing your story. and your beautiful photos.

June 9, 2009 at 7:21:00 PM PDT  

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