Sunday, March 2

perfect moment*

our solace (featuring Elvis...the kitty cat), canon digital rebel xti

As the sun peeked its way into our bedroom early this morning, Boho Boy snuggled me tight. He reached his arm up to open up the window. The cool breeze danced around our skin and hair while the birds sang their morning melodies. He whispered..."perfect moment" in my ear. I exhaled deeply, allowing each touch of nature to permeate my being.

It's been an emotional few days...and this moment made me realize it feels good to marinate in the quietness of the soul. When you don't feel you need to be anyone or anywhere but in that precious moment.

My mind has been cluttered with what I could have done different or how I would like the next time around to go or if I should be more open or if I should be more closed or the many why's and the what if's and the guilty guilts for not being perfect with everyone and everything. My sweet husband suggested that I hug those thoughts and not judge them and as I did this in my mind, I felt them drift.

It wasn't until that sweet moment this morning that I realized how busy and weighted my mind has been. So today I am going to welcome quietness into my heart and my soul and nurture the trust and faith that has been there all along.

I need each of you to know how much it meant that you took time out of your day to leave me a comment in my previous post. We so appreciated the love, nurturing, poetry, lyrics, stories, lit candles, prayers, affirmations (as well as sweet packages in our mail this week). Through the tough hours I read them over and over and your love lifted me higher. We are spilling over with gratefulness and cherishing every drop.


Blogger pERiWinKle said...

Beautiful you...you are enough.

Nothing else is needed to make you more round, less guilty,
more open, less close...
YOU are PERFECT just the way you are right now...or how you were 2 days ago...in every moment...living who you are...being true to your heart...loving....our imperfections, makes us perfect.

Love you sweet girl xx

March 2, 2008 at 9:14:00 AM PST  
Blogger Dear Sonea said...

What beautifull photoes you have! Your writing is lovely.

March 2, 2008 at 9:15:00 AM PST  
Blogger Jamie said...

Denise ~ Your thoughts and experiences resonate so deeply within my heart. We are just behind you in our journey through adoption after 7 years of trying to conceive. I am "with" you and I just want you to know that you are not alone and that it's okay to not be "perfect". What is perfect anyway. The baby that comes into your life will be the most fortunate baby in the whole wide world. You have to have faith that through the ups and downs of this journey, your baby will find it's way into your life and you will know that all is well. Enjoy your quiet day and keep it in the forefront of your mind that you and boho boy are beautiful, nurturing, magnificany people who any child will be overly blessed to spend their life with. You and he, together and with the child that is destined to find you, are indeed perfect.

March 2, 2008 at 9:16:00 AM PST  
Blogger jen said...

beautiful moments and simple pleasures.. thats what its all about!
enjoy this beautiful day!

March 2, 2008 at 9:55:00 AM PST  
Blogger Bethany Bassett said...

I love that picture of your room, your haven; just the image conveys such a peace!
I've followed your story for quite a while now, and there's a little tidbit I keep wanting to share with you. My second daughter was born just a few months ago, and when we're having our little conversations first thing each morning, I search her face for signs of my husband's features or mine. I don't see them though. What I see is her face, all her own. And that's when I know that nothing would be different had she been adopted. She's her own spectactularly beautiful soul, not just a spin-off of my own chromosomes. It is such a priveledge to have met her, to be able to nurture her, to help her grow into her blossoming little heart. And I know for a fact that when you first meet your own precious baby, the very same fireworks will go off in your soul. I'm so, so happy for your continuing adventure!

March 2, 2008 at 12:57:00 PM PST  
Blogger mnB said...

mama.. just remember that everything that is happening is happening to get u & boho boy to your baby! & when that time finally arrives you will look into her... or his eyes and know why you had to wait. you were waiting for them :)


March 2, 2008 at 3:43:00 PM PST  
Blogger AbraMichelle said...

Not to be a wet rag but I must say, relish every quiet moment with you and bohoboy right now. Soon your quiet will be shattered by the welcome sounds of babies squealing and so forth for many years to come. :) Love the silence as you wait for the chaos.

March 2, 2008 at 6:43:00 PM PST  
Blogger Intrepidflame said...

Just wanted to say, I am still here and I loved this post. Great pic.

March 2, 2008 at 9:02:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Please do not doubt yourself or your actions, I believe everything happens for a reason, whatever it may be...your baby is waiting for the right time, and only he or she knows when that is. This child will be so lucky to have you and boho boy as their loving parents!

March 2, 2008 at 10:06:00 PM PST  
Blogger Eileen W. said...

((hugs)) love and light still being sent your way dear ones. :)

March 3, 2008 at 7:23:00 AM PST  
Blogger Unknown said...

I love moments like that. perfect. thank the heavens for good men:)

March 3, 2008 at 9:19:00 AM PST  
Blogger Lianne Raymond said...

Hi Bohogirl,

This is not really on the topic of this post - but I was reminded of your mention of Matilda Jane clothes when I saw this book review - don't know if you're a knitter, but if you end up with a little boho boy - is that poet coat not adorable?



March 3, 2008 at 10:59:00 AM PST  
Blogger mormar said...

I think that your husband always says the right things to you.
It will all work out the way it was meant and how could it not for such beautiful souls.

March 3, 2008 at 11:36:00 AM PST  
Blogger L said...

I can only wish that I could be so centered....you inspire me.

March 3, 2008 at 4:11:00 PM PST  
Blogger Louise said...

You have such a beautiful heart!
hugs to you!

March 4, 2008 at 6:14:00 AM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Just be you..wonderful u
(said an adoptee who wishes she had the ultimate mom..open minded, nurturing, warm, caring mom...like you (now and as a mom!) I got a good one just not as warm as you! :)
Hang in there... please never doubt that you are too this or that or not enough. You are enough and the bmom is just out there waiting for you to find her.

March 4, 2008 at 9:52:00 AM PST  
Blogger Michelle (a.k.a. la vie en rose) said...

...holding you tightly in my heart...

March 4, 2008 at 11:26:00 AM PST  
Blogger jessamyn said...

it makes me so happy to think that the two of you have one another and can share moments like this.
and i have no doubt that your future is so bright from the light that shines off the moments that are yet to come with eachother and with your little one(s).

March 4, 2008 at 3:34:00 PM PST  
Blogger Sarcomical said...

i'm loving your room! it looks like a place you'd want to crawl into and rest.

hope all is going well today and always.

March 4, 2008 at 3:34:00 PM PST  
Blogger jenica said...


what a perfect moment and sweet, sweet man!

wishing you peace!

March 4, 2008 at 4:34:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I know you are dealing with many emotions right now, but perhaps because of the type of person you are... you becoming a mother was meant to have a higher purpose?

10 years ago I was witness to an abandoned baby who did not make it. It has haunted me to this day. There are young mothers everywhere who hide pregnancies, or who are in denial. When the baby comes, they try to make it "go away".

I recently heard about and wanted to get involved in Project Cuddle, a nonprofit organization that operates a 24-hour, 7-day search and rescue program for women that are contemplating abandoning or dumping their babies.

They need both regular volunteers as well as Rescue families that want to adopt these babies. You apply and then you just wait and believe your angels will bring the right baby to you at the right time.

I am not with the group, and sorry I don't know more, but just thought that maybe you would be interested in exploring it as an option, either as a volunteer or Rescue couple?

March 4, 2008 at 10:14:00 PM PST  

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