trying something new*
smiling me, canon digital rebel xti (wearing my delish superhero bulls eye pendant)
I started my monthly cycle today and it was the FIRST time ever that I didn't shed a tear as a result. Not a one. Actually, today has been a wonderful day full of other creative yummies birthing in my life and I've actually felt energetic and clear and hopeful.
Perhaps because I truly believe and when I say believe I mean not just saying it but actually feeling it...that it will happen. I will be pregnant. I just giggled to myself as I typed that out. I am not sure if I have actually ever written that here on my blog. EVER.
I. Will. Be. Pregnant.
You know...this is how I have manifested fantastic things in my life. I say them out loud very matter of fact. I FEEL them. I actually get to a place where I just feel and know it will happen. Sometimes it can be even more super cool when someone else is a negative nellie about it and yet I STILL have no doubt it is going to happen. I don't allow them to steal my mojo and stay in that empowered place.
I am not sure if I have yet been able to do this about getting pregnant. But I'm starting today and am going to nurture this space that I am in.
I feel happy and I am also feeling so grateful for those souls in my life that are rejoicing in my happiness rather than wanting me to be back where I was because it feels comfortable to them.
I even had a dear friend offer to be my pregnancy coach (similar to a life coach but with the focus on the emotional and physical process of trying to conceive). Isn't that a great idea? I love that she created this for me. I call her my BPC (beloved pregnancy coach) and she has been uber supportive with all the elements that surface.
I know some people reading this might be gasping a bit. Perhaps thinking..."oh no but what if she doesn't get pregnant...like ever?" And I would totally understand that reaction. Partly because you want to protect my heart from disappointment and perhaps also because it is safer to be more logical about such things. But I am going to try not being logical about this for a while. I am going to try something that has worked for me in so many other areas of my life and play in this positive pool of certainty. Try on my Certainty Shoes and you better believe they are funky and sparkly.
My heart is pounding with a nervous, excited energy and that always happens to me before delicious things come.
So here's to trying new things on this journey of mine!