rhythm and letting go*
our darbuka drums & gourd shaker, canon digital rebel xti
Last night I watched my husband sit in his leather chair, close his eyes and find a rhythm with his darbuka drum. I could see the plethora of thoughts from his day just melt away into a world with no cognitive thoughts but only those that are in the present; his hand, his drum and the music that so naturally flowed through him.
I grabbed my small blue darbuka and tried to match his rhythm. I was holding tight to the drum and my hands felt clumsy and awkward. I realized that I was trying too hard to sound perfect. When I closed my eyes, took deep breaths and let it flow from me, I released my grip and allowed my fingers to tap lightly and with playfulness. The sounds we created together were harmonious, free and other worldly.
I know this was a message to me about letting go and the flowing rhythm my life can take on when I am in that space of surrender.
I am grateful that these instruments nestled in our home will be a gentle reminder for me that I feel more freedom and openness when I'm not holding on too tight.