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Tuesday, August 19

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charlie (photo session), canon digital rebel xti

I had a dream last night that I was sitting on a velvet couch at a cafe. My mind was interlaced with the book I was reading and the table in front of me to the left. There was a male psychic giving a reading to a woman. He had long gray hair and a peppered beard. I thought I remember him wearing a cloak.

My head was down and I heard him say in my direction;
"Excuse me, ma'am..." in an authoritative voice.

I looked up at him and he was pointing at me with white gloves on. He asked;
"How old are you?"

I answered;
"36"
and simultaneously, he answered his own question with "37".

"Well, not really", I replied..."I'll be 37 in a few weeks."

He then said;
"You're going to have a baby."

I felt my eyes get larger and my mouth slightly open. The woman he was giving the reading to jerked her head my way with a huge smile. But he didn't smile. He had such a serious look on his face, almost exasperated, like he knew that he would have to convince me.

He continued;
"You'll need to take care of that round belly of yours and make sure to keep it in there for 9 or 10 months."

Then he turned around and went about the reading with this woman. I sat there stunned. How could this man even know my story? Something deep inside me didn't question this gift. I knew I needed this reassurance so badly. I knew I needed it now in particular, as I have been feeling myself slip into sorrow and impatience.

As I gathered my things and brushed crumbs off of my skirt, I walked over to their table and put my hand on his shoulder. Tears welled up in my eyes and I felt like if I didn't say what I wanted to say in a quick fashion, I would have fell to my knees with weepy gratitude.

"You have no idea how much I needed to hear this...thank you."

I saw a kindness fill up in his eyes that slightly washed away the abrasiveness I first felt from him. As I walked away, I heard his last words trail after me...

"This child is going to be very special, you know."

And I walked away knowing. Knowing that this must be the reason why our baby is taking so long to get here. There must be a specific purpose to their life.

I know this was a dream but rarely do I remember my wild dreams each night with such detail. I still can see this mans face so clearly. I still can feel the myriad of emotions I felt while sitting on that velvet couch. And I still believe what I felt walking out of that coffee shop. The reassurance from his words didn't fade away as I opened my eyes to stare at the indigo walls in our bedroom this morning.

34 Comments:

Blogger Sara said...

Wow...thank you for sharing. You have a beautiful way with words...I feel like I was right there in the dream with you. xxoo

August 19, 2008 at 11:13:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Schmoops said...

this made me smile for so many reasons...

you ARE going to have a baby, a very, very special one.

love you
xoxo

August 19, 2008 at 11:19:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

much peace and many blessings to you, your husband and your family (the one you were born into and the one you will create).

thanks for sharing your story, your feelings. it helps so many other people, including me.

August 19, 2008 at 12:23:00 PM PDT  
Blogger vivian said...

this is beautiful!! i felt chills as i was reading it....

thank you for sharing this!

v

August 19, 2008 at 12:38:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Susan said...

Looks like a spirit guide visited you in your dream!

This entry gave me chills...major goosebumps. It's true. Believe it!

August 19, 2008 at 12:46:00 PM PDT  
Blogger jen said...

oh, that gave me chills... happy chills!

August 19, 2008 at 12:55:00 PM PDT  
Blogger pen* said...

wow. i don't doubt he was a messenger.

and this child {will} be very special indeed: being borne to such amazing parents... can't wait to welcome boho baby into the world!

xx

August 19, 2008 at 12:57:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Becca said...

I have chiils. Im feeling this dream, this mans wide eyed perception, his insight....wow. Brings a good feeling to my own aching heart. Wish we could sit and share a Yerba Mate RIGHT NOW. I need to connect with someone who gets "it"...Im feeling lost again.....ah, but your dream brings faith!

August 19, 2008 at 1:41:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Kelsie said...

This gave me chills too.

Chills, and...

smiles.

August 19, 2008 at 1:57:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Goddess Diana said...

Welcome, my Goddess, to KNOWING. She is on her way - that was never the challenge. It's all about riding a different wave and being OKAY that this is where you need to be to nurture this special soul. Boho Baby in a not so boho world.

FAITH - you gotta have faith, my sister. If you have but the faith of a mustard seed...

Wishing you,
Peace & Love, Just Because,
Goddess Diana

August 19, 2008 at 2:11:00 PM PDT  
Blogger justagirl said...

I too had chills, thank you for sharing such a precious dream...

I too am going to be 37 in a few weeks, when is your birthday?

August 19, 2008 at 2:12:00 PM PDT  
Blogger ladybug-zen said...

you received a visit from the spirit world. maybe he was one of your guides, maybe not. but now you KNOW.

thank you for sharing this very intimate experience. it was beautiful.

by the way, when i was pregnant with both my children i received lots of visits from the spirit world. maybe because it;s such a sacred time for a woman. i don't know exactly, but i sensed lots of "activity" around me, my aura, in my dreams.

August 19, 2008 at 5:03:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous nikole said...

what an amazing dream. i hope you can hold onto the peace it brings you until the dream is realized in this realm. a very special child indeed.

August 19, 2008 at 5:56:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Bohemian Single Mom said...

Boho girl, I believe this is indeed a visit/message from your spirit guide. Did you recognize anything about him? Have you seen him before?
Each night, before you go to bed, ask for messages to be made clear to you. They always come, we just need to be more open to them, and recall them upon waking up.

True story - my dad who had been deceased for a couple years, came to me in a "dream" 3 months in a row, (during my cycle each time - bizarre). In each dream, he was holding a baby girl, showing me and telling me how to take care of her. The fourth month - no dream, no period- I was pregnant!
Freaky and true!

Take care of that belly, chicka!
xo

August 19, 2008 at 5:59:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Christine said...

Special children indeed go to special people.....although we have never met, i feel so connected to you and your family's journey because you have a sensitivity that is extremely maternal. Your baby is just waiting for the right time to make their appearance.....hang in there.
Christine

August 19, 2008 at 7:12:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous jen {she saw things} said...

that is so beautiful. i LOVE that dream visit... so much.

& and becca, i see you up there. i am holding you in my heart, darlin'.
xo,
jen

August 19, 2008 at 10:17:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Karen Maezen Miller said...

Yes sir. Sometimes they take their sweet time getting here. That was no dream!

August 19, 2008 at 10:45:00 PM PDT  
Blogger magicaldamselfly said...

I do beleive you were visited by a spirit guide and what I felt as I read this was "and so it shall be"!

Perhaps you should start a spirit quide journal that is kept close to your bedside so you can write these messages down. Also, take the time to invite your spirit guide to visit you in your dream world and to clarify things for you, being specific in what you'd like more clarity on.

Love and light,
Goddess Sheila

August 20, 2008 at 6:45:00 AM PDT  
Blogger designer girl said...

The timing for things in this life are always perfect, whether we recognise it at the time or not. I too believe that you had a visit from the spirit world. What a beautiful gift!

I just finished "The Instruction" by Ainslie McLeod about connecting to our spirit guides. I highly recommend it.

It might be something you'd like to read while you are takin' care o' that belly o' yours waitin' on that precious present to arrive in there.

Blessings,
L.

August 20, 2008 at 6:49:00 AM PDT  
Blogger michael said...

I continue to find myself waking up in the most beautiful places......... Lately, those places include seeing my mostly adult children smiling through challenges of waking up in the most beautiful places
Your cool words open inroads ... catalyst

August 20, 2008 at 7:02:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Sarah S said...

I'm writing this with tears flowing down my cheeks. I've experienced amazing moments like this, too, and it's so wonderful that you were ready to open up and accept it. What a beautiful gift he gave you that day.

August 20, 2008 at 7:17:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Shalini said...

Bless your heart... you have tons of positive energy and happy thoughts coming your way... All the best {{{hugs}}}

August 20, 2008 at 8:17:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Rowena said...

I've had dream dreams, I've had message dreams, I've had spirit dreams. They are different.

That does not sound like a dream dream to me.

Pretty powerful. Good luck.

August 20, 2008 at 9:07:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Carie said...

That's it! You got it girl!
Everyone your child interacts with is ment to be.
They need to arrive into this world when it is their time to be here. Their childhood friends, their roommates, their life's loves....it all comes down to that.
When I realized that in my own fertility struggle such a weight was lifted off of me.
Then I started meditating and saying "It's o.k. it's safe here and we are ready when you are"
Now that I have a this little love in my life. I can tell you it's true. Hold onto this dream with arms wide open.....

August 20, 2008 at 9:34:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Eileen W. said...

A real message of hope coming to you in your dreams. I know it will happen soon, dear lady. Your baby is special. xoxo

August 20, 2008 at 9:39:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

i feel it fore you, too! here comes your baby! peace and all good and belssings to you three. may we both get to experience motherhood. i beleive it for you. pelase beleive it for me, too.

August 20, 2008 at 10:33:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous amy seeley said...

thank you so much for sharing this .. i have chills reading your words .
much love to you .

August 20, 2008 at 12:02:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous morecheese said...

I stumbled on your blog because I was attracted by your photography -- gorgeous pictures!!! I was so surprised to read this entry bc I'm in a similar place -- 36 and waiting. This wait -- sometimes I'm so good at it, all zen-like and accepting and appreciating all the good things in my life. And other days - oy. I've never felt such frustration in my life.

I just wanted to wish you the best and more lovely dreams and speed on your journey.

Be well!

August 20, 2008 at 1:05:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous granolagirl said...

I have had a similar experience to you. Please believe in your dream.

Even before I could have known I was pregnant with my little one, he came to me in a vision as I was getting a Reiki treatment. I just knew then and there that there was a little being growing inside me. A few weeks later I was pregnant. It was so powerful and moving for me. I hope the same happens to you. I will send some positive Reiki energy your way if that is okay with you.

August 20, 2008 at 8:31:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous katie said...

Lovely dream. The night my son was conceived I had a dream that a women gave me two baby boys and I cried and cried and said that I couldn't take care of them both so I gave one away to a Chinese woman. Six months later my sister inlaw (who is Chinese) had a baby boy and 42 weeks later I had my one beautiful boy. Dreams are powerful, mine have been giving me insights to my life since I was very young (strange strong dreams). I truly feel that this dream was a sign for you. Good luck and believe in it.

August 20, 2008 at 9:55:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous glo said...

What a gift to have such a dream...and what a wonderful message indeed :) Can't wait for the day when you will deliver the big news.

PS - Will celebrate my 5th wedding anniversary in 3 days and will turn 38 in a month...what a "coinkidink"...hee, hee... :)

August 21, 2008 at 7:38:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Carie said...

Granola Girl, I too knew during a Reiki treatment! However for me it became so clear. As soon as the treatment was over I knew 100% I said "This baby isn't coming from me!"
The next day my RE called and said they had to cancel my IVF as my levels were poor. I just laughed and said "yeah, o.k."
Dh & I adopted our daughter 9 months later!!!

August 21, 2008 at 9:28:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Sam said...

What a powerful dream, I just LOVE it. Many years ago I too had a dream of holding my son - such a vivid, beautiful dream that I remember after all these years - and it gave me faith that yes, I would be a mother. I was at a point where I wasn't sure if my heart's desire would come true - if that's what I should shape my life around. My dream gave me such hope. I know yours is giving you hope and joy and I pray pray pray that it comes true, sooner than we could ever hope for! (How about NOW?!)

August 22, 2008 at 9:29:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Sooz said...

Oh I so love this dream...this knowing...such a gift. thank you for sharing. Your baby(ies) will be the luckiest little beings to call you Mama. thank you, thank you for sharing your story.

August 25, 2008 at 5:57:00 PM PDT  

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