Monday, September 15

post squam feelings*

thea on the dock near our cabin, canon 40D

I'm home,
and happier than I have been in so long.
Feeling loved.
Put back together.
Drenched in woods and lake.
Blissfully exhausted.
Belly hurts from laughter.
Mouth hurts from smiling.
Eyes heavy from joyful tears.

I am so tired from only a few hours of sleep per night and therefor cannot form complete sentences. Just know that I spent today, my birthday, in the arms of the man I love and missed so deeply, sharing all the stories that have shifted my life in such a beautiful way.

It was surreal and in a few days, I hope to find a way to express the magic and warmth that I was surrounded with during my time at Squam. I thought this photo I took of Thea sums up the essence of it all quite well.


Blogger wrecklessgirl said...

this image makes my heart pang...i love for this so badly. so good to hear you had a beyond-enjoyable day.

September 15, 2008 at 10:34:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Since there's a time difference between you and good old Germany, my wishes are not even belated!!

All the best to. I wish you a great year ahead of you filled with happiness and love!

All the best, Charis :-)

September 15, 2008 at 10:46:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Swirly said...

Happy Birthday my gorgeous love...I adore you.

September 15, 2008 at 11:51:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Silvia said...

Happy birthday!!!
Sometimes stories don't have to be told in complete sentences, a few words can be enough.

Lots of warm hugs,

xo sil

September 16, 2008 at 12:34:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Blessings on your special day..
Lorraine uk

September 16, 2008 at 12:43:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Amy said...

Gorgeous photo! And I love those boots! :)

September 16, 2008 at 3:46:00 AM PDT  
Blogger gem said...

happy, sweet birth*day and celebration of this new year in your miraculous life! always, thank you for this tender beauty...

September 16, 2008 at 4:04:00 AM PDT  
Blogger pERiWinKle said...

Happy Birthday Beautiful! xx

Squam sounds phenominaL! xx

September 16, 2008 at 5:11:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

i am new to your blog. i just visited your website and want to say congratulations. i am trolling through websites to find inspiration (not visually but by others taking the plunge, acting, doing...) to start my own small something with my photography. So, your blog was a blessing to find today. and, you also have a great blogroll, i am enjoying just about every one i click on.

September 16, 2008 at 5:18:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

happy birthday, grrrrl!

September 16, 2008 at 6:30:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Unknown said...

Oh, Oh, what I would have given to experience Squam.

Happy Birthday!


September 16, 2008 at 6:33:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

You are even MORE gorgeous in person than your gorgeous photos-- you are LUSCIOUS and *sound of love machine revving* rrrrrrrrrrrr


you are beauty itself.

~bisous, Elizabeth

September 16, 2008 at 7:30:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Sharon said...

Happy birthday! So glad you had a great time today :)

September 16, 2008 at 8:40:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

happy birthday denise!!!!


September 16, 2008 at 8:42:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Liz said...

Happy Birthday beautiful Denise, and you summed up so very wonderfully so many of the moments from last week...


September 16, 2008 at 9:01:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Stacy said...

mmmm, dreamy. i can't wait to be there next year.


September 16, 2008 at 9:39:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday dear Denise!
Many Blessings!

September 16, 2008 at 9:44:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Unknown said...

I'm so happy that I got to look into your eyes and hug your body:) You're the sweetest most genuine thing, honey.

love love you.

September 16, 2008 at 11:09:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Colorsonmymind said...

this does sum it up.....

I am in the same place..

thank you for capturing this moment and so many others during this retreat with you.

I love you to the moon and back

September 16, 2008 at 11:23:00 AM PDT  
Blogger melissa said...

happy belated birthday.

you have captured the time at SAW perfectly. i am so completely overjoyed that i got to be there with you, sharing the laughter and tears, and the love...oh the love!

you are beautiful beyond belief!

oh the love....

September 16, 2008 at 12:02:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Jaded Muse said...

9/15 was my birthday also. I hope yours was all you wished it to be.

September 16, 2008 at 12:08:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Admin said...

Happy Birthday!!!

September 16, 2008 at 12:49:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Lisa said...

Happy Birthday, Boho!

September 16, 2008 at 1:49:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...


Happiest of Birthdays to you yesterday! What a gift it
was to be in your presence and have you near. Thank
you for your kind words and hugs. May this year bring
everything and more than you have ever wished and
dreamed. I send you unending love.

Jen Diamond

September 16, 2008 at 1:49:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

happy (belated) birthday! i'm so happy that your arty retreat was so delicious.

September 16, 2008 at 2:17:00 PM PDT  
Blogger christianne said...

Happy birthday, Denise! It makes me happy inside to think of you feeling all these things at Squam, and now to be restoring your soul in the arms of your loving Boho boy. Much love to you on your special day.

September 16, 2008 at 2:35:00 PM PDT  
Blogger kelly rae said...

just left you a voicemail, mrs boho.
it's your day!!!
what a gift you are..

September 16, 2008 at 2:39:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Geninne said...

Hey! we share the same birthday :) Hope you had a great one!

September 16, 2008 at 3:33:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday my fellow Virgo :0)

September 16, 2008 at 3:45:00 PM PDT  
Blogger jenica said...

beautiful dreamer. happy birthday. i'm so grateful i got to rub elbows with you this last week.


September 16, 2008 at 4:58:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Susan Tuttle said...

So wonderful to have met you at Squam -- I adore your blog! -- photos and writing to stir the soul -- I'll be back often.


September 16, 2008 at 7:44:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

happy, happy birthday (a little late)! I hope it was filled with all that you love!!!
it was so nice to see you at squam...just wish we could have had time to talk, every day seemed fuller than the last, but in the best of ways!
Happy Birthday! xo

September 16, 2008 at 7:49:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

you spread so much joy to others!
may your birthday be an absolutely
magical and blessed one. :)

beautiful pic, boho girl.


ps virgos rock!

September 16, 2008 at 8:18:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Amy said...

So great to meet you last week. You are more beautiful in person, which is hard to imagine.

Happy Birthday, fellow Virgo.

Amy from Salt Lake City ;)

September 16, 2008 at 9:27:00 PM PDT  
Blogger liz elayne lamoreux said...

happy (belated) birthday! hope you are just soaking all the goodness up...
it was wonderful to see you again...


September 16, 2008 at 10:02:00 PM PDT  
Blogger daisies said...

hope your birthday was beautiful! xo

September 16, 2008 at 10:08:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Happy belated birthday to you, and best wishes for a beautifully magical year ahead...

x emily.

September 16, 2008 at 11:59:00 PM PDT  
Blogger kelly E. said...

i'm glad you had a great trip!! thaphoto makes me wanna snuggle with a yummy scarf and some hot tea! what a view! love you so much Auntie and Happy Birthday!

September 17, 2008 at 12:55:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Welcome back! I can't wait to hear more about it.

And Happy Birthday!!

September 17, 2008 at 5:53:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Happy B-Day Dear Boho Girl!!! Hoping all of your wishes & dreams come true :)

xo glo

PS - Nice to have u here "One Man's Dream"...good to know that guys are joining in on the fun 2 :)

September 17, 2008 at 6:06:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

happy happy happy birthday! wishing you every wonderful thing.

September 17, 2008 at 9:51:00 AM PDT  
Blogger me-nikk said...

Cheers to the best year yet to come for you!


I just read this and thought of you. Huh.




September 17, 2008 at 11:19:00 AM PDT  
Blogger beth said...

125{ish} women doesn't seem like that huge of a group, YET, I read your blog all the time, was at SQUAM and I don't think I know who you are....and for that, I'm so sad !!!

I would have loved to put your name and face together...

next year ???

and happy birthday.....

September 17, 2008 at 3:12:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Jennifer/The Word Cellar said...

It was lovely, lovely, lovely to meet you in person. I can't wait to hang the two bottle prints I bought.

I just checked out your photography website and can only say this: You have found your passion and your gift, and put forth a website that expresses it beautifully. Pure magic. If you ever come to Pittsburgh again, let me know so I can think about hiring you for a photo shoot!

September 17, 2008 at 6:40:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

You say it's your birthday? It's my birthday too! Love the new photo website. I'm not sure how to say this right, but I love the eyes in your pictures. They jump out at you and you have to stare for a moment. You're an awesome photographer.

Moxie Candice

September 18, 2008 at 12:58:00 PM PDT  
Blogger AnnaC said...

I hope you had a wonderful birthday.

September 19, 2008 at 10:17:00 AM PDT  

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