still and rooted*
me feeling grounded, canon digital rebel xti
Recently, I became aware, through the gentle help of a life coach, how much our body speaks to us and is a source of clues into how we are feeling about something. Meaning...when she asked me to share how I felt about certain issues going on in my life, she also asked me what my body was doing in that moment while I was sharing. I found, that when I spoke about things I feel peaceful about, my body was relaxed and my arms/palms in an open position. When I spoke about things that are surrounded in fear and anxiety, my body felt tight and closed off, arms folded against my stomach or chest. When I spoke about things I feel certain about, even if I was sitting, I would move my legs to where my feet were planted on the ground...feeling grounded and warrior-like. This was all subconscious until she put my awareness there, after the fact.
This awareness created a connectedness I haven't felt within my body in a while. It helped me to trust again in my inner voice when faced with decisions that are laced with confusion. I felt like in those moments, that voice was speaking to me through my body language.
Within all those moments, it was the awareness of me feeling grounded in parts of my life that I am wanting to revel in. When so many things feel whirly and tossed around for me right now, it feels so good to know there are places that are still and rooted.