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Thursday, October 16

boho baby*


me on our dock at Squam, photo by Thea Coughlin

Our lives are about to take a huge, wild, awe-inspiring shift.

We're adopting a newborn baby in a few weeks.

There, I said it. Can you believe it? Did I just totally rock your worlds?!?!?

I know, I know...I am still walking around in a daze wondering if this is all a dream and if I'll wake up. Well, it is a dream. A dream that has taken over our lives over the past few months but a dream that is real and present and overwhelmingly emotional in a beautiful way.

We've been preparing for this in every way that is possible the last few weeks but also learning to let go of the parts we truly cannot prepare for. It's been hard to keep it from you. I thought I should/could hold out a little longer but there are just so many emotions I need to work through right now and my blog has always been one of the places I felt safe to do this. Perhaps because of the very non judgmental and gentle support I receive from all of you.

Everyone knows that adopting a newborn has that risk. That risk that the birth mom will choose to keep the baby after birth and because of this, I wanted to protect us, protect you from getting too invested and attached. But then again, I realized that if I surprised you with a photo of our baby, that there would be so many questions and I would have missed that opportunity to share the journey leading up to this precious new person in our life.

Love is risky. Totally absolutely risky. So, in the name of love, I am taking this risk, knowing that it is worth it. Worth it to us, worth it to you and worth it to the little bean to ride this roller coaster that adoption can be.

A few months ago, my husband and I were on the trying to conceive train. We had considered adoption a while ago and when it fell through, we went back to what felt comfortable to us. We knew we would dip our toes back into adoption again. Perhaps for our second child but didn't feel quite ready.

Then we got an email. Our superhero adoption consultant had a birth mom in mind for us. She knew we weren't considering it but she had a gut feeling and she took the risk and put it out there for us, knowing our reaction might be full of fear and uncertainty. And it was. I was frightened. Frightened to put my heart out on the line again. But Boho Boy and I talked and both felt in our guts that we were supposed to hear her out and we did and then I must say...it felt like our hearts grew wide, wide open. We wanted to hear more and surprised ourselves. The birth mom sounded amazing and safe and intriguing.

She was due in November with a "presumed" girl. We had always imagined a girl in our life. I'm not sure exactly why. Perhaps it is that we are both so very sensitive and soft and I am so feminine. Most people in my life and on my blog said "girl, girl, girl". Our adoption consultant knew we had a girl in mind.

The birth mom received our profile book. A book of photos and the story of our life. While she was reading and gazing and marinating on our book, we were learning more and more bits about her that we were attracted to.

So, we fell in love with this birth mom and she has fallen in love with us. We're like a dream team for this baby, pulling together to figure this all out. Sometimes awkwardly. Sometimes with utter and complete flow.

While I was at Squam, I got a call from my husband that she went in for an ultrasound and they found out it was really not a girl. It was a boy.

Woah.

To be honest, at first it was an adjustment. I had a closet full of beautiful girl clothes given to me by a friend. What was he going to wear? Isn't it hilarious that in my shocked state of mind, I went to something so superficial? That's what shock does, I suppose.

It was so divinely perfect that I was surrounded by some of my tribe at that time. They gathered around me while at Squam and when I needed to break down and work through all the weird emotions that came up, they were there. Then there was one night in front of the fire in our cabin when I could literally feel my heart release and all this clarity came rushing in. The photo above was taken the next day. Can you see the peace?

What helped was that I remembered a few things that I had shoved away to protect my heart.

I saw a psychic a few years back that told me in a past life I was considered a Queen. I had many children and concubines that suckled them. There was one particular baby that missed that intimate connection with me and wanted to come back into my life for a new relationship. It was a boy, she said.

Then I remember about 6 months ago, I had a dream about a boy calling out my name. I woke up and missed him down deep.

I had another psychic session on the phone where she told me she saw a boy spirit around me.

Then I started reading this book called Spirit Babies and there was this chapter when the author of the book was counseling a couple. He has the gift to see spirit babies around people and has since he was little. This couple had tried to conceive for many years. He told them that he sees a spirit near them but that it is a boy and all these years, they have wanted a girl. For some reason, this really got to me and I started balling, tears flowed freely for a long while. I couldn't figure out why that hit me down in my gut.

Of course in retrospect, the messages I was getting from God and the Universe were so very clear. Funny how I consider myself so in touch, empathic and intuitive but yet I couldn't see any of this until now.

Now I cannot imagine it any other way. My heart is so very open and in love with this little boy and it all makes so much sense to me now. Everything. Everything leading up to this and all that we've gone through.

Some of the pain of our journey and longing to be pregnant is so fresh but so much of this joy is lifting those wounds. The connection we feel with our child goes beyond the womb and that is something I cannot really explain yet.

The birth mom is at 33 weeks and is having early contractions. We've been told that everything is fine with him and it could be any day now. She has had children before and each of them have been born quite early. So pre-term labor is common for her. They are all healthy and thriving.

We are not allowing worry to come into our life about the fact that he may be a preemie. We are not projecting anyone else's story onto ours. We will have our own story.

We've spent the last two weeks preparing our home, our hearts and our minds for what is to come. I can't really think about anything else but the health and comfort of our sweet birth mom, whether or not the baby is okay and the fact that I'll be a mommy very very soon.

Please keep the birth mom and this baby boy in your thoughts and prayers. We are flying out to meet her face to face this weekend. I am a bundle of nerves and excitement. In fact, I don't quite know what to do with myself until then. Will I totally lose it when I see her? Will I hold it together and be strong for her? Will it feel strange that our baby is in her belly? Will it feel beautiful? Will she like me? Will she like Boho Boy? Will our conversation flow? Will it be awkward? Will it be blissful?

Even though she has chosen us. Even though we've heard those words whispered to us, from her over the phone with absolute certainty. These vulnerabilities and insecurities surface.

Tune in to find out how it all went... ; )

218 Comments:

Anonymous amy (formerly coffee and sunshine) said...

as someone who has read this blog for years, and followed your story and prayed and thought of you, i cannot tell you how excited i am. i am sitting in my classroom, crying tears of joy for you and boho boy. i am so, so, so, so happy for you. i can't wait to see the rest of this journey unfold.

so much love to you and your growing family! blessings, and congratulations!

October 16, 2008 at 9:36:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Jo said...

I'm de-lurking just to say congratulations on this incredible news! A son! How amazing!
As an adoptive mama myself I have to tell you there is no joy quite like it. We are not lucky enough to know our girl's birthmother (maybe one day)but I hope and believe you will build something special between you this weekend.

October 16, 2008 at 9:39:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Carolyn said...

Oh!Oh! Denise! I know that you don't know me but you have just made my day here in VA with your news. I've been rooting for you for so long. I always pictured myself with a daughter also and throughout my pregnancy my husband and mother both swore up and down that I was having a girl even though I didn't want to find out the baby's gender. When my baby was born, my mom was in the delivery room with me and when the doctor looked up and said "You have a fine son" my mom actually said, "Are you sure?" Ha! It is just the best thing though, having a little boy. I can't explain it but soon enough you will know what I mean. I was talking to one of my girlfriends about it and we decided that there are so many fantastic women in the world but it is a real privilege to get a chance to raise a good man, like your husband is. Is there a PO Box that I could send something small and knitted to for you and your fine son?

October 16, 2008 at 9:40:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Leslie said...

I am a relative "newbie" to your blog, but have been gripped by every single word you've written. Today, I got goosebumps. I'm so thoroughly overjoyed for you!!! Thank you for including us, your cheering readers, in this momentous occasion! I cannot wait to hear more!!

P.S. Being the mom of a baby boy is a magical thing. :)

October 16, 2008 at 9:41:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Cocktail Vegan said...

Congratulations Boho Family.

Peace & Blessings to all of you.

xo S.

October 16, 2008 at 9:41:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous nikole said...

My heart is full of hope for you.

October 16, 2008 at 9:48:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Christianne said...

Okay, I'm sitting over here with tears in my eyes and sobs rising in my chest. I am so happy for you. You have privileged us with your life for so long. You have lived out loud. You have let us see the heartaches and the ups and downs. You have continued to have hope and inspire hope in others. And now all of us can just take in a collective breath of amazement and let out the tears of joy.

So, so happy for you and Boho Boy. Prayers to you and the Boho family (including Boho Baby and Birth Mom) this weekend.

Love to you . . . and God's many blessings and love.

October 16, 2008 at 9:51:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Caiti said...

I too do not comment often, but have been a longtime reader. My eyes immediately welled up with tears of happiness at reading the mere title of this post. I have been sending my own thoughts and wishes to the universe for a baby to come to a couple who is so deserving and loving. Blessings to you and the Boho Family!! I look forward to hearing your experiences with adoption (whatever you are willing to share), as I have long felt the "pull"--a quiet voice within me--to adopt a child.

October 16, 2008 at 9:51:00 AM PDT  
Blogger rubyslippers said...

what an amazing story! you are all in my prayers. i'm going to write you an email--so much to share with you and i don't want to hog your comments! this is just fabulous news, mama!

October 16, 2008 at 9:53:00 AM PDT  
Blogger missm said...

Oh I loved reading this. So, so, so beautiful. The beauty and the joy and love just radiate from your writing.

I want to be your baby. :) xo

October 16, 2008 at 9:55:00 AM PDT  
Blogger lexiloo said...

hooray, i am very excited for you and boho boy!

October 16, 2008 at 9:55:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Micheline said...

Every story is so beautiful and unique and yours is certainly no exception. I am in love with the line "Love is risky. Totally absolutely risky. So, in the name of love, I am taking this risk, knowing that it is worth it." The greatest rewards in life come from the greatest risks. You never seem to run away from a big risk even though you might be scared and now the reward couldn't be any sweeter.

I love that you didn't wait to share this with everyone (even strangers like me). The ups and the downs are all part of life and are the perfect recipe for a truly great story.

Congratulations to all of you.
Micheline

October 16, 2008 at 10:02:00 AM PDT  
Blogger kathygrace said...

this is the most beautiful news! i've never even MET you before, but i am completely overflowing with joy for you. love and congratulations. i'll keep your whole *family* in my prayers.

October 16, 2008 at 10:03:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

You are absolutely meant to have a boy

I've thought this since I began reading your blog, and as I was reading this post felt that the stars aligned when you wrote it was a boy

Your femininity will be balanced beautifully, and you with your husband will raise a man that the world needs

Sending good thoughts for you and boho boy and the birth mom and this baby into the universe

October 16, 2008 at 10:06:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Schmoops said...

i love these words:

"Love is risky.
Totally absolutely risky.
So, in the name of love, I am taking this risk, knowing that it is worth it"

amazing seeing this post finally here.

*tears*... all over again.

i love you.
xo

October 16, 2008 at 10:08:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Kristin said...

I have only commented once before ... But I really want to say I'm encouraged by your words. I hope all goes well. As an adoptive mother myself, I know you will be richly blessed by this situation.

October 16, 2008 at 10:10:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Sarah said...

Oh, I'm so happy for you. I've read here for a while though I don't comment much, and this seems like such a fulfillment of who you are. Yay for y'all!

October 16, 2008 at 10:12:00 AM PDT  
Blogger wordnerd said...

Denise, I have been reading your site for a fairly long time and have read along from home about your hopes and dreams in becoming a parent. I was in a similar boat until recently with the birth of my son.

It sounds trite to say (after the fact) but I always knew it would work out for you and Boho Boy. I'm not sure if you can call it "manifesting" or just destiny...I just knew it would happen....it had to happen.

I also know that this baby is truly blessed in having you and Boho Boy as his parents. I know that this is exactly how things were supposed to turn out and that all 3 of you are in for the adventure of a lifetime...:*)

MANY congratulations to all 3 of you...what a wonderful, wonderful announcement.

October 16, 2008 at 10:20:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Fran said...

I am thrilled for the two of you. I am so excited that words fail me. But know that my heart is filled with joy.

October 16, 2008 at 10:21:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

i've been reading for years and am so very very happy for you! amazing!

October 16, 2008 at 10:42:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Mama Gast said...

Fantastic news! I have been reading for a long time and I really ached for you. Just think of all the corduroy,fleece and denim that will fill your baby's closet. I grew up with just sisters and having a boy has shone a light on a whole new side of myself I never new existed. We spend many hours in the imaginary world of brave knights, fierce dragons and marauding pirates. It has been refreshing...

October 16, 2008 at 10:43:00 AM PDT  
Blogger laundrygirl said...

I'm speechless!
And excited! And I wish I could give you a hug!
My goodness - I am elated for you!!!!!!!!!

October 16, 2008 at 10:44:00 AM PDT  
Blogger jenica said...

oh dear, could i shed any more happy tears over your story? um yeah, here they are. so excited you finally shared it here! i've been squeaking with joy trying to keep it all in.

i love you.
i love boho boy.
i love boho baby.

watch your post box, love is on the way!!!

xoxoxoxo
ps have i told you lately what a good mama you already are?

October 16, 2008 at 10:44:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Jodini said...

Your story has given me goose bumps! I couldn't be happier for you.

Love is on the way. A little bundle that you will love unconditionally.

October 16, 2008 at 10:48:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

darlings, i would like to extend my sweetest warmest wishes to you and your son, and to the birth mother and ehr generosity if spirit. i ahve been a longtime reader of your blog, have been
struggling with similar issues for 9 years, and want a child more than anything. i pray that this all works out for me too, someday. i am so happy for you and have tears of grateful joy for you. bless you, bless your hearts. i hope that i get to be a mother someday. it is so hard when it isn't happening for you. my husband is going further and further away from wanting a child at all. that's very male energetically, to jsut cut off your feeligns and give up to protect. i want it. i stillw ant to be a mom. i too see a girl but would be grateful for a child at all. bless you. sendign you lvoe. i hope it all works out safely and beautifully. take care! xoxox love from an unseen friend

October 16, 2008 at 10:49:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Carmen said...

Blessings abound!

October 16, 2008 at 10:51:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Sandi henderson said...

OH I am just sending out love and happiness to you! I'm so so pleased for your growing family.

The tender honestly you write your blog with is absolutely touching lives.

xo
Sandi

October 16, 2008 at 10:54:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Goddess Diana said...

Go Goddess!!! Go Goddess!!! Go Goddess!!!

What a blessing. And a privilege.

Thank you for sharing.

Wishing you,
Peace & Love, Just Because,
Goddess Diana

October 16, 2008 at 11:03:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Jummy said...

You are a constant source of hope and encouragement, Boho girl.

Congrats to you and Boho boy. Have a lovely and completely thrilling weekend!

October 16, 2008 at 11:21:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Heather said...

I could not be happier for you and Boho boy. It is ironic that in the past few weeks I had sensed a much greater bit of peace and contentment from your posts. Maybe, this is me over analyzing. Best of luck as you meet the birth mom this weekend. Let go and savor it as you would say...Thanks for letting us all share in your joy.

October 16, 2008 at 11:28:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Erin S said...

Wishing you peace on your coming journey. I'd imagine the birth mother is nervous about meeting you, too.

As an aside, I was also convinced I was going to be the mommy of a little girl. It was going to be fairy dust and tutus all the way. We went to our big ultrasound and expected to hear "it's a girl!"

Nope. Our little man was waggling his Mr Winky and Friends (as the lovely ultrasound tech called them) all over the place.

Now that I've met my sweet boy, who was also born at 33 weeks, I couldn't imagine it any other way. He's my heart. Now I want nothing more than a house full of loud, dirty boys.

Many blessings to you, Boho Boy, your new baby, and his brave birth mom.

October 16, 2008 at 11:28:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Belinda said...

I just went "Hurrah!" very loudly into an empty room. I am so so excited for you, and this is just so right for you and Boho Boy.

All the best of luck and love in the world for the future.

October 16, 2008 at 11:31:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Amy said...

Oh Denise!!! Love and blessings and all my good thoughts and prayers are with you, your man and the little new man in your life!! :)

October 16, 2008 at 11:41:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Alisa said...

De lurking to say how happy I am for you and your husband. This is amazing to be reading this late morning - I am just over the moon for you and that little one who will have you both as his own. I have to say, while reading all the girl talk/feelings, I had a photograph in my head of you on the beach with a little boy. WOW.

All the best with positive thoughts and prayers.

October 16, 2008 at 11:45:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!!

October 16, 2008 at 11:47:00 AM PDT  
Blogger karin said...

i'm a new reader ... and had to come out of "hiding" as i've not commented before ... i'm the mommy of a girl and a boy, so i know exactly what the other mommies are saying - raising a good man is a priviledge and an honor. and it's also an amazing journey. amazing. enjoy the chapters your are unveiling in your life. you'll have your girl one day, too. i can feel that for sure! ;)

October 16, 2008 at 12:01:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Rowena said...

I'm actually sitting here with tears running down my face. The ugly kind. And I have to blow my nose. As soon as I read your first few words, I just started crying.

I am so happy for you and I am sending you luck and love.

It seems so silly, because I don't even know you, but I can't stop crying for you. Good tears. Good tears.

October 16, 2008 at 12:02:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Terri said...

I am so happy for you! Sending you lots and lots of love and happy thoughts your way.

October 16, 2008 at 12:03:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous glo said...

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

I got chills when I read this post!!!! Happy chills!!!! :)

YIPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! I am SOOO happy for you Denise!! What a true blessing and gift you are getting. It's a wonderful journey you are about to embark on... I am so happy I could give you a big bear hug right now but wait, you're not here....anyway....here's a cyber bear hug ((((((DENISE)))))....hee, hee... OMG... I am ecstatic for you....you are going to be an AMAZING Mama!!! And Boho Boy an amazing Dad!!!!

CONGRATS!!! As the mother of 2 little boys I can tell you that Motherhood is AMAZING!!! It's hard and challenging too, don't get me wrong...I've had many trying days along the way but it's so worth it. I can't imagine my life without my little guys... the hugs and kisses they give me are unlike no other...and when my 3 yo tells me he loves, fuggggget about it...I melt :)

Congrats once again and I will keep the birth Mom and you in my prayers so that all goes well.

xoxo glo :)

October 16, 2008 at 12:07:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Miracles...all around...you are so deserving. Boys are the absolute best blessings. I am sending you the love and peace and grounding that your blog has provided for me. Congrats to the Bohos...and the luckiest little bean on the planet.

Amy in Kansas

October 16, 2008 at 12:10:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Andrea de Haan said...

Denise,
I also rarely comment here, however, I have been a daily reader for almost two years. Recently, I went back in your archives to read your blog story from the beginning. The last couple of weeks I have thought a lot about you and Boho Boy (I am also married to a wonderful Canadian). The title of your post today gave me goosebumps, and as I read what followed I cried and cried. What incredible news! I am excited to meet your son and read about your Boho Family adventures!
Thank you for sharing.

October 16, 2008 at 12:17:00 PM PDT  
Blogger The Accidental Blogger said...

OUTSTANDING.
it's time!
i am elated for you two and for this boy. i sent more extensive wishes to carsten via email; they are really to both of you.

welcome to the wild ride. you'll love it.

October 16, 2008 at 12:26:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Susan said...

Words can not express how happy I am for you and Boho Boy. This is the most precious news. Thank you for sharing it with us. Keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers!

October 16, 2008 at 12:36:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Karen said...

Another lurker coming out of the darkness to say congratulations!!! I have been following your story for so long - and am so happy for you and Boho boy.

My own journey to parenthood went through the heartbreaking ugliness of infertility, ending with the adoption of my gorgeous, fabulous, amazing, beautiful baby boy five and a half months ago.

I have goosebumps thinking of the joy that awaits you in the next days, weeks and months.

If you ever want to talk to someone who has been there, you can reach me at clarkk3 at hotmail dot com.

You are so blessed, your son is blessed and his birthmother is blessed. I can't wait to read your story as it unfolds, I know you'll be able to describe your thoughts and emotions more eloquently than I could.

Congratulations!!

October 16, 2008 at 12:40:00 PM PDT  
Blogger justagirl said...

Oh My that is such good and exciting and scary news!!! I am so happy to hear this...

congratulations!!!

October 16, 2008 at 12:49:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I've only resently come across your blog but i love the way you tell your story and have been through your archive.

I'm thrilled at your news and your chance to become a family. I've got a little boy (Max) who be 3 tomorrow. He took 18 months to comcieve so I understand some of the journey that you've been through.

Your little boy is so lucky to have you two as parents and I'm looking forward to reading about the next chapter in your lives.

Louise, UK

October 16, 2008 at 12:52:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Lisa said...

I am covered in goosebumps and a smile from ear to ear...
Continued prayers for you and all involved.
This news has made my day :)

October 16, 2008 at 12:52:00 PM PDT  
Blogger XT said...

Hooray hooray hooray! I have been following your journey and keeping you all in my prayers. I am so happy for you, many many blessings! Christie

October 16, 2008 at 12:53:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Shannon said...

So incredibly happy for you! I've followed your blog for a long time and I'm so delighted that your dream of having a child is coming true! I will keep you both in my thoughts! This is going to be an amazing journey!

October 16, 2008 at 12:58:00 PM PDT  
Blogger sacredcrayon said...

I am just so happy for you. I love coming to your blog for inspirational words, and I've read about your journey towards parenthood and wished and prayed for you. I've found myself mentally crossing my fingers when I check in on the site, that maybe this time there will be good news for you. And today there is. I'll be keeping those wishes going over the next few weeks for you, x

October 16, 2008 at 1:09:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Vanessa said...

i am giddy with excitement and anticipation for you! this is such truly wonderful news. thank you so much for sharing your whole journey the way you do... you are so special and inspiring. thinking of you.

October 16, 2008 at 1:21:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Parijan said...

when I opened the site and immediately saw "boho baby" I totally felt my heart going 2 million beats a minute. Before I read another word. There is a time and reason for everything and reading that your dream is finally coming true gives me hope that mine will also... you're magic and this wee one has just been waiting for the perfect time to make his appearance. I know my words - compared to your girly-tribe and the long time readers of your blog might not be sufficient, but I say with my heart that you are blessed and I am thrilled that there are such miracles left in the world. Sending you and your husband best wishes, hugs and tears of joy .... the birth mom is going to love you! ~michele~ p.s. please give your address so magical and heartfelt/made goodness can come to your boy! ~michele~

October 16, 2008 at 1:25:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Pherenike said...

I dont know what I can say that hasnt already been said, but thank you. Thank you for risking in the name of love :) You story brought me to tears.

I wish your family much happiness.

October 16, 2008 at 1:27:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Yay! How truly wonderful...so happy for you and your husband. What a great family you will be xx

October 16, 2008 at 1:29:00 PM PDT  
Blogger daisies said...

yay ~ congratulations boho mama, boys are wonderful :) wishing you all sorts of wonder as you embark on this new and blissful journal of love, xo

October 16, 2008 at 1:33:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous AndreaD said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!! I'm so ecstatic for you. Fantastic news! Truly :) Hooray for making dreams come true!! *BACKFLIP* That is one LUCKY boy!!

October 16, 2008 at 1:41:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous rosalicious said...

Wow!! Amazing news! So happy for you! ;)

October 16, 2008 at 1:51:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Vivienne said...

this is such stunning, beautiful news! i'm so incredibly excited for you! and thank you for being vulnerable enough to share this with us! cause although lots of us are complete strangers, we also circle around you sending you love and support.

i really really hope everything goes as planned, and i'm sure the birth mom will simply adore you. i will keep her, the lil' fellow, you and boho boy in my thoughts and can't wait to hear continued news about your new journey!

October 16, 2008 at 1:55:00 PM PDT  
Blogger True Girl said...

This is such good news. I understand the hesitancy to shout it from the rooftops, but am so glad you did! You are absolutely right that love is risky - but oh, so worth it. Love and peace and light to you and Boho Boy. And the Birth Mama. And the Little Babe. Delicious.

October 16, 2008 at 2:04:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am sooo excited for you both! Much love from "German Sarah" :)

October 16, 2008 at 2:20:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

this news is wonderful. many positive thoughts going your way from san francisco. i hope all turns out well...

October 16, 2008 at 2:49:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Jacki said...

I'm speechless, the tears are flowing. I'm so very happy for you!

October 16, 2008 at 3:01:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Megan said...

I'm so Happy for you!! In fact, I'm so happy that happy just doesn't seem like a happy enough word but I can't think of another!! LOL!

A year ago, any news of another woman getting her baby would have brought me to my knees. Not now. You are the 2nd in just 2 weeks who have shared such wonderful news and I'm just giddy!

I don't know what my future holds right now, but, honestly, it feels good just to be OK!!

Oh, and because little boys in my life outnumber the girls, I'm a little biased. Little boys are incredible. And what an opportunity to raise them into little men!

October 16, 2008 at 3:04:00 PM PDT  
Blogger bee said...

oh, DENI.

i came straight here from facebook and i'm crying now.
tears of complete, the universe knows what it is doing, utter joy.

you and c. are meant to be parents...this birth story is amazing....eek. i cannot freaking bloody wait.

congratulations. blessings. love.

i'm in shock too...but good, happy shock....

October 16, 2008 at 3:09:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

WOW WOW WOW- i am so happy for you- i have been lurking around for ages but i really want to send my good wishes, prayers and thoughts to you. i am the mother of 2 boys- i always thought i'd have girls too being a very girly girl . but you know the rest- i wouldn't have it any other way. my boys are 15 and 17 now and still crawl into bed with me to talk about everything. i feel so privileged to have them for my sons. I can't wait to hear all about your magical experiences- i am crying as i write this- i am SO happy for you.
joan

October 16, 2008 at 3:18:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous kelley kelley said...

i am happy for you sweet denise...wishing you all the best on this new journey & staying tuned to hear all about it ;-)
ox kelley kelley

October 16, 2008 at 3:32:00 PM PDT  
Blogger jin said...

i just WHOOOPED with joy when i saw your note on facebook - i have been dying for the official announcement to come out... more tears... and smiles as wide as the sky.... joining all the many others whose hearts you have touched with your beauty and gentleness who are SO VERY HAPPY for you and boho boy and blessed boho babyboy!!!! xxxxxxxxxxxxx

October 16, 2008 at 3:33:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Visual-Voice said...

This is so beautifully written. I'm even happier I sent you the subscription this morning. Congratulations! I'll hold you, your family and this baby in the light these coming days and weeks.

xo
Susan

October 16, 2008 at 3:49:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Martha-Anne said...

Wow!!!!!!
I am overjoyed for you! Congrats!!!

Can't wait to hear how everything goes!! I'll be keeping you in my thoughts.

October 16, 2008 at 3:58:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Cape Cod Kitty said...

Denise,
I haven't visited your blog for a few weeks and something told me to turn the computer on and "visit" you this evening. As a long time reader and admirer,I am just thrilled for you and Boho Boy, your new baby and his birth mother. I know your meeting will go well and it will be miraculous.
Loud cheering from Cape Cod!!

October 16, 2008 at 3:59:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous shelly said...

Denise, delurking the other day I was reading your latest post and had a vision that soon you would have a little boy. to you and hubby.happy days.Shelly

October 16, 2008 at 4:18:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Rebecca F. said...

How absolutely wonderful!!

To be honest, I remember very little from being pregnant and although I can imagine that you feel like that little part is missing, the experience of a baby is so much more worth it.

Congratulations! Oh how many congratulations!

October 16, 2008 at 4:27:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Sarai said...

This is the first time I've commented even though I've been reading for a long time, but I just had to say how glad I am for you both! Such happy, wonderful, exciting news. The consistent thread in your blog has always been your hope and determination to have a child, despite the disappointments and frustrations that were thrown at you, so I'm overjoyed to hear this at last and really hope that everything turns out for the best and you will hold your own baby son in your arms in a few weeks' time.

October 16, 2008 at 4:30:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Jamie said...

I told you that you are treasured by so many more people than you even realize :)....soak in the bliss and all the warm hugs celebrating with you today...you are beautiful and all will be well. I'm just ecstatic for you :)

October 16, 2008 at 4:39:00 PM PDT  
Blogger enchantedartist said...

I know this journey to your baby has not been simple (and I know, major understatement...but quite simply this is meant to be...:)

Much, much love and congratulations to you and Boho boy.

xoxo

October 16, 2008 at 4:45:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Natalie said...

I read your blog frequently, though I never comment. But today I couldn't resist! ;) I always check back hoping to read news of a baby and today was the day. I will keep you and the birth mom in my thoughts and prayers.

October 16, 2008 at 4:46:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Anna said...

You beauty! I have been quietly reading your blog for a while without commenting but I got a little bit teary at this post today. My heartfelt joy and and best wishes are just pouring out to you and boho boy and the birth mum and baby. Beautiful beautiful news! How exciting! How awesome! I wish you all the best.

October 16, 2008 at 5:06:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Emily said...

i feel blessed to be an adoptive mom.
the most amazing journey of my life.
there is sunshine after infertility!

oh my, life is about to change!
have fun!

October 16, 2008 at 5:14:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Lymie Lisa said...

Congrats to you and Boho Boy! I've been reading your blog for years and am so happy and excited for you both. Enjoy every moment!

October 16, 2008 at 5:18:00 PM PDT  
OpenID tryingtostayfocused said...

What absolutely wonderful news! I've been reading your blog for so long and have never commented. Thank you for sharing your soul with so many people. It's so obvious this will a blessed baby. My baby boy is 13 now and I've witnessed far too many mean-spirited, macho boys his age. Our world desperately needs boys who have been raised with gentleness and a connection to their spirits. I'm so happy for your family!

October 16, 2008 at 5:39:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous amy said...

i am so thrilled for you and your husband. this is such lovely news. thank you so much for sharing it. i hope the next steps in your journey are wonderful ones. take care.

October 16, 2008 at 5:43:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Maureen said...

Denise--I've been following your blog for several months and have so wanted to e-mail you and share our adoption story. In fact, I even went so far to draft one up and send a link to one of my blog entries on adoption--but then decided you might be offended (this was about the time you were reading "Spirit Babies"). Anyhow, I am so, so, so happy for you and your husband. YOu are going to be a mom--how awesome is that?

When I was your age, my husband and I tried to conceive for years--and went through a number of invasive fertility treatments. We eventually wound up adopting two 22 month old Cambodian orphans and I can't even begin to tell you how much joy they have brought us. We are so blessed and I firmly believe that we were meant to be their parents. Sometimes life doesn't unfold like you imagine it will, rather it can unfold more wonderful than you ever thought possible.

Here is the blog entry that I so wanted to share with you:

ON BECOMING A FAMILY...

Flashback...almost 20 years ago: I was a single, 24 year old, 2nd Lieutenant living in the Philippines. I had no desire to get married anytime soon and certainly had no thoughts of having children for at least another 5 years. Nonetheless, I decided to do volunteer work at a local orphanage that was home to approximately 25 orphans. Shortly after I started volunteering there, someone brought in a little boy who had been abandoned in the local marketplace. He was approximately 3 1/2 years old and was a total mess--he had obviously been physically abused (he had cigarette burns everywhere), he was bald, had a distended stomach and body ulcers and he was suffering from 3rd degree malnutrition (he only weighed 20 pounds)... He totally broke my heart. One day, when I arrived at the orphanage, this little boy was curled up in a corner by himself and was sobbing. I took one look at him and began to cry myself. I thought, if this was a dog, I'd have already done something about it--most likely taken it home. And here he was--a child, and I was doing nothing. So right then and there, I decided to take him home and I would try to find an American family to adopt him. I didn't even have a car at the time--only my motorcycle--so the orphanage staff tied him to my back and off we went. Well, to make a long story short, I did find an American family to adopt him--ME. After caring for him several months, I fell completely and totally in love with Matthew and couldn't fathom not having him in my life.

I still continued to volunteer at the orphanage and after watching two babies die needlessly from simple ailments, I became an adoption fanatic. I went back home to the States on leave and while reading the newspaper, I saw ads placed by couples who wanted to adopt a child. I very IDEALISTICALLY started calling these people all over the country, telling them about all the orphans in the Philippines who desperately needed homes--babies who were dying and beautiful children who didn't have a snowball's chance in hell, unless they got adopted (they are turned out on the streets at age 16). My idealism was quickly crushed when many of them told me they wouldn't consider adopting any child but a Caucasian infant. Like any passionate idealist, I got very angry with some of these people and responded that “obviously you don't want to be a parent bad enough." In hindsight, it was definitely not the most empathetic thing to say to couples struggling with infertility.

Well, flash forward 6 years...and I get married to a wonderful man. In addition to Matthew, we plan to eventually have our own biological children, but want to wait a few years. Well, a few years turned into 6 and when I was 36, we FINALLY began trying to get pregnant. We tried and tried but nothing happened. Eventually, we visited a fertility clinic and after much testing, we discovered that nothing was physically wrong with either of us--we had U.I. (Unexplained Infertility), which in my opinion is far worse and more frustrating than having some diagnosable condition. After several unsuccessful IUI (intrauterine insemination) attempts, we finally tried IVF, which also failed. I'd be lying to say I wasn't devastated. I always thought I'd have one or two adopted children and at least one biological child. I don't think people who haven't struggled with infertility can even begin to understand how stressful it is--sex becomes totally regimented and to be honest, almost unenjoyable. The procedures are extremely invasive and uncomfortable. And then, you're constantly getting psychosomatic pregnancy symptoms all the time. I can't tell you how many times I was convinced I was pregnant, only to get my period the next day. It's very emotionally and physically draining. Worst of all is that all your friends, relatives and co-workers are popping babies out like there's no tomorrow, and as much as you're thrilled for them, you can't help but feel a twinge of jealousy.

Well, fast forward a few years and after much soul searching, I realized that there is no way I could love any child more than I already love my son Matthew--your child, is your child. I am a mother, not because I gave birth, but because I love my child with all my being. Family is all about love, it's not about biology. So after coming to grips with the fact that pregnancy just wasn't in the cards, I got the adoption wheel rolling once again. I spent hours on line researching agencies and looking at photolistings...until finally, I found her. My little Mikaela--the daughter I always dreamed I would one day have. The only problem was that she was in a Cambodian orphanage half way around the world. And as luck would have it, there was a beautiful little boy, born one day later, also available. Thirteen months later, the problem was rectified--they were both home with us and we couldn't be any happier. I love them so much and there's not a day that goes by that I don't thank God for them--they are truly the greatest gifts.

As time goes by, I realize that I am most likely never going to get pregnant. Every once in a while, I still have the tiniest bit of hope that it might happen, but I no longer worry about it. If it does, great, but if not, I already consider myself to be extraordinarily blessed--I am a mom to three beautiful children!!!

Mikaela and Connor's adoptions have rekindled the adoption fanatic in me. For those of you who are childless not by choice, please, please, please consider adding children to your lives through adoption. I am not exaggerating when I state that there are literally millions of children around the world who desperately need homes. There are millions of orphaned girls in China alone, to say nothing of the several hundred thousand orphans in Russia, the massive number of AIDS orphans in Africa (which they are finally allowing to be adopted), and kids in Guatemala, Haiti, and a host of other countries, including our own. Adoption isn't nearly as expensive as believed (there's a $10,000 tax credit) and most people can adopt--married couples, singles, homosexuals, even people up to the age of 55 can adopt children from China and Guatemala. Anyhow, if you're at all interested, please check out www.rainbowkids.com, www.precious.org and www.adoptuskids.com or please feel free to contact me off line.

I wanted to leave you with a video to watch (but for some reason, it's not uploading correctly and when it does, it locks up my xanga site). So instead, here's the link:

http://www.bringmehope.org/dvd/index.html .

Watch the 4:30 minute version, but grab a kleenex first. I guarantee, you'll be moved.

Once again, congrats and welcome Boho baby! I can't wait to follow your experiences as a mom. :-)

October 16, 2008 at 5:58:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Mama V said...

Wow! Tears! Joy! Excitement! Nerves! And this is just from me, reading!

I too have been lurking for a while, but wanted to finally say hi and congratulate you.

I have two boys - one almost 3 years old and the other 6 months old. We're still figuring out who our spunky 6-mo old is, but our 3 year old is a sensitive, gentle, empathetic, intense, loving boy. Who happens to like trains. :)

And I agree with an earlier comment: you and Boho Boy will raise the kind of boy that the world needs more of!

Blessings to both of you as you continue on this exciting journey. Can't wait to hear updates.

October 16, 2008 at 5:59:00 PM PDT  
Blogger BJ said...

WOW! I am over-the-moon happy & joyful for you. As I was reading, chills ran up and down my spine. What a journey you have been on....and I'm honored to be following along with you. Much love to you both.....you are going to be the most wonderful parents. God bless.

October 16, 2008 at 6:36:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous ceanandjen said...

What beautiful news! I am so happy for you and wish you a wonderful journey.There is nothing quite like a boy...and we feel blessed that we were gifted with one. He will be a bright light in your life. Congratulations!!!! xoxo

October 16, 2008 at 6:59:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

that baby boy spirit has chosen you and your husband to be his parents...some things are just meant to be.

October 16, 2008 at 7:02:00 PM PDT  
Blogger sweetsalty kate said...

I am bursting. It is MESSY, but good. Bursting with rightness and love and light and hope and all things good. WAAAGGGGHHH! You sneaky girl you! (great, big, knock-you-down hug)
xoxo

October 16, 2008 at 7:03:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

yay!!!!!!!!!!!!

so, so, so happy for you!

sending lots of love and warm wishes all the way from Mumbai!

XO,
Aruna

October 16, 2008 at 7:03:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Tammy said...

I am a lurker, but wanted to de-lurk a bit and send you warm wishes as you prepare for the new joy in your life! Will stay tuned for sure!!

October 16, 2008 at 7:11:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Liza said...

My heart is full with such joy and happiness for you, your husband, and beautiful baby coming so soon!!

Hoorah!!!

October 16, 2008 at 7:21:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Juneau.Eco.Mommie said...

so happy for you words cannot describe. I have been a boho fan for quite a while. I know how excited you must be to finally be 'expecting' your first one. We can now share stories, I am expecting my second, another little man in February.

Congrats and much love sent your way. What a magical 2009 you will have.
-erin

October 16, 2008 at 7:27:00 PM PDT  
Blogger AMANDA said...

amen~ I am so happy for you and boho boy! Thanks for sharing.

October 16, 2008 at 7:31:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Allison said...

Woo hoo! I am so happy for you. I have been waiting for the day when I came to your blog and heard your news. I knew it would come. I am so excited for you. Wishing you love, peace, and joy this weekend, and in the days ahead.

October 16, 2008 at 7:35:00 PM PDT  
Blogger tiffany said...

Adoption has healed up our broken hearts three times over. I wish the same for you. Big huge congratulations.

October 16, 2008 at 7:46:00 PM PDT  
Blogger blisswarrior said...

goose bumps...all over my body...I cannot wait to see his beautiful face and read his name...you will soon be called...mommy...sending you lots of strength, Jessica

October 16, 2008 at 8:03:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

whoa! wishing you endless energy! big joy.

October 16, 2008 at 8:06:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Mardougrrl said...

I cannot even express how happy I am for you, sweet Denise. I am heart glad. Congrats to you and Carsten!

October 16, 2008 at 8:15:00 PM PDT  
Blogger tammy said...

YAY! So happy you shared this wonderful news with all of your loving and supportive blog readers! Can you just *feel* the love that is swirling around you, Carsten, "K", and boho baby?

I'm thrilled and totally honored to be a part of your incredible journey.

YOU ARE HAVING A SON!!! YAY!!

Thanks so much for allowing me to help guide you to *your little one*...

Blessings and Love to ALL of you!

Tammy

October 16, 2008 at 8:20:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Louise said...

I am SO happy for you! I have been following your blog even though I don't comment..sorry...
This is extremely exciting, if I lived near you I would throw you a baby shower ;) I am thrilled for you.
What an amazing blessing!!
Congrats to you and Boho boy!!

October 16, 2008 at 8:48:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Beth in San Diego said...

Congratulations to you Denise, and to your husband, your extended families and most of all... I believe this little baby boy is very, very LUCKY to have been chosen by you two. I know that you and I have often said to each other "We will be pregnant," but maybe instead we should be saying, "We will be mothers." You are a true mother/warrior already... now go get your baby!

xoxo
Beth

October 16, 2008 at 8:57:00 PM PDT  
Blogger mames said...

right when i clicked to this post, i knew. oh, boho family, you are so blessed. and let me tell you, boys are a wonderful fascinating messy ball of joy and fun. mine bring me such wonder, it is like seeing the other side. huge congrats and hugs and kisses to the new little one to come.

October 16, 2008 at 9:01:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Karen Maezen Miller said...

Do you see why they call it a shower?!
From Lucky Number 102 love droplet.

October 16, 2008 at 9:27:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Honey said...

What news could be better than this? None I tell ya. I am so thrilled for you all. They chose well. This is one lucky, lucky child. Best wishes!!

October 16, 2008 at 9:37:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I think congratulations are in order, especially to Baby Boho. What a lucky little guy! He has been loved since before his time. Welcome to parenthood!

Love,
Nashay

October 16, 2008 at 9:57:00 PM PDT  
Blogger samin said...

ahhhh!!!! ohmygosh! congratulations!!! this is wonderful....i'm so happy for you!

October 16, 2008 at 10:16:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Carol said...

What wonderful, wonderful news Denise. A big congratulations to you and Boho Boy :-)

October 16, 2008 at 10:48:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous lindsey said...

Denise! Amazing! So deeply happy for you & your husband, and eager to hear all that comes next.

October 16, 2008 at 11:22:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Holly said...

oh my! i am crying happy tears for you and your beautiful news! my heart is bursting with excitement and joy for you - i have observed every part of your graceful journey with awe and hope for you for so long. i honestly often think of you and send good baby vibes your way :) wowowowowow! congrats and sending you much love and blessings for baby bohito!

October 16, 2008 at 11:25:00 PM PDT  
Blogger liz elayne lamoreux said...

i am so excited for you two...

your words shared here are so beautiful. and your readers words are beautiful as well...so many dear people sharing in the love and joy.

many blessings and peace and light to you...

October 17, 2008 at 12:17:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Inside My Shell said...

Wow! This is amazing!!! I'm so utterly happy for you!

All the best,
Esther

October 17, 2008 at 1:02:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

That baby is so blessed to have chosen you both as parents.
Love & happiness,

Goldie

October 17, 2008 at 1:42:00 AM PDT  
Blogger christine said...

Congratulations

October 17, 2008 at 1:49:00 AM PDT  
Blogger the camp said...

you will be just perfect when you meet face to face. you will be just what you need to be - YOU,
gorgeous, kind, oh so cool - YOU.

big hugs coming your way, dear denise. big tears in my eyes too.
i am so happy for all of you. i think i will lite some candles, incense and do the happy dance in the studio today while i paint and design.

peace be with all.
kelly

October 17, 2008 at 3:01:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Busymomma66 said...

what a blessing! big hugs, breathe and release into it! Enjoy every second it goes by so quickly!!

Congratulations momma!

October 17, 2008 at 3:34:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Ju said...

Denise, all the best for you and your new family! This is so exciting, thanks for sharing!

October 17, 2008 at 3:35:00 AM PDT  
Blogger elizabeth said...

This is such wonderful, exciting news! I am so happy for you!

October 17, 2008 at 4:25:00 AM PDT  
Blogger echo said...

I'm also de-lurking to wish you luck. I hope it all goes well. It must be so exciting for you. YAY!

October 17, 2008 at 5:04:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Christine from Florida said...

Delurking to send you the most heartfelt congratulations and best wishes as one journey ends and another begins!! I went to high school with your Boho Boy and happened upon your chronicles sometime ago. It has been wonderous to share your love and life together through your generous prose. I myself travelled the long, twisted and turbulant road towards motherhood and I too was gifted with a son, now 6.
Many, many blessings to you all. He is already an incredibly lucky and cherished soul... :)

Christine

October 17, 2008 at 5:09:00 AM PDT  
Blogger pink sky said...

from all the years i have been following your story, i knew that this day would eventually come...some how, some way. even with knowing this it doesn't compare to actually hearing the news and the absolute joy i feel for you and boho boy! from one woman who has felt the longing to be a mother to another, celebrate and embrace every drop of joy that is so rightfully yours and leave fear behind. from one mom of a baby boy to another, i wish you every happiness to come with snips and snails and puppydog tails (and rocks and bugs too :). and from one adoptee to a family about to adopt...your gift of love is everything; life changing, everlasting, and beautiful. he will carry that gift with him forever. congratulations!

October 17, 2008 at 5:28:00 AM PDT  
Blogger kristin said...

oh WOW, my heart leapt for you. and a beautiful baby boy. he will steal your heart in ways you do not even know yet. and your softness and boho boys softness will only bloom a baby boy into a beautiful sensitive soul. more byos should be so lucky. wow. i have goosebumps. much love on this journey to you both.

October 17, 2008 at 5:30:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Cole said...

What a beautiful journey! Thank you for sharing it with us. I am a new-comer to the blog but fell in love with the spirit here quickly. I wish you such joy in this son.

October 17, 2008 at 5:43:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Christina said...

Hi Denise, it so nice to meet you! No more lurking, I have to say, I wish you the best in this beautiful journey you and your family are on.

Blessings to you and your family ; )

October 17, 2008 at 6:54:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous patriciadolan@comcast.net said...

Hey there Mama,

Boys are Joys! I'm so delighted for you and Boho boy. Boys love their Mamas fierce and first. What an unbelievable thrill ride awaits you...the love oozes out of you and you can't believe that you could ever love someone so immediate and you already do. I'm beyond thrilled for you, Mama!! Keep your eyes peeled from a package from me!

Much love,
Trish
patriciadolan@comcast.net

October 17, 2008 at 7:11:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous michele, satori17@yahoo.com said...

Oh joy!

i am sitting here reading your words and crying.
i am overwhelmed with happiness for you.
for the feeling in your heart must be gigantic to say the least. wow. a new baby.

i have always felt through reading your blog that you would adopt and i always thought it would be a boy.

i had emailed you many moons ago about having a dream of you and a little baby boy! he had brown soft eyes and he was pure magic.

to see you embarking on this path is so beautiful and what a journey, what a story this little man will have to tell. what love he will have.

i am the mommy of 2 little boys and let me tell you first hand how awesome they are! yes, they are spirited but they are soft and loving and gentle and kind and beautiful! and just think, you will forever be the queen that you are!

wishing you much love and giddiness, magic, peace and joy!

i am over the moon thrilled for you and your hubby and can't wait to see photos of your next journey.

being the lovely mommy that you are going to be!

love & peace to you~
m

October 17, 2008 at 7:13:00 AM PDT  
Blogger kirsten said...

congrats & much much love to you, boho family!! i am thrilled for this new place in your journey together.

wishing you peace & oodles of love,
-k

October 17, 2008 at 7:26:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Jen said...

i'm so happy for you! you are going to be such a wonderful mom. i can tell just from reading your blog all these years. yay!!

October 17, 2008 at 7:45:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

What a lucky lucky threesome you are! You have found each other, it is all unfolding as it should.

I am so happy for you all.

Susie

October 17, 2008 at 7:54:00 AM PDT  
Blogger LeS said...

yay! for boho babieS!
it's time to put up some double buns and do a boogie dance!

October 17, 2008 at 8:19:00 AM PDT  
Blogger ~Michelle~ said...

This is wonderful news! So happy for you all! It is just so meant to be and timing is perfect.

We adopted our Sweet Precious Baby last February and remember all the butterfly feelings of seeing the birth mom for the first time then holding our Wee One for the first time. Hearts welling up with joy!

It is such an amazing journey and I am so very, very happy for you and Boho Boy!

xoxo

October 17, 2008 at 8:25:00 AM PDT  
Blogger lizard mama said...

I rarely comment on your blog...but have been following your journey...tears filled my eyes when I read this beautiful post. You are going to be the most amazing mama...you already are. wishing you all peace and love.

October 17, 2008 at 8:28:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous kelly said...

i have tears of joy today for you, boho girl. and many thanks -- for sharing your thoughts and feelings through all of this. i am still on my journey, trying to find my baby, and your wisdom has taught me to acknowledge and feel my emotions, to let go a little, and trust my instincts and my body, not easy things to do. you are a comfort, as is this wonderful news of your baby boy.

October 17, 2008 at 8:32:00 AM PDT  
OpenID henna73 said...

Wow, I am so very happy for you guys. It's always tough to allow yourself to open up to things like that, but feeling is what keeps us human.

I am sending your hugs and good thoughts that everything will be as great as you deserve.

October 17, 2008 at 8:39:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous meg said...

This is amazing! I almost fell off my chair when I saw your post title. All of you will be in my prayers in the coming weeks; I'm so glad you decided to share.

Oh, and we presumed that our son was going to be a girl. Yeah.... I was excited but apprehensive at the same time, but I cannot imagine it any other way now. Boys are a blast!

October 17, 2008 at 8:47:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Maria said...

Dear Boho Girl,
keep strong and good luck for the upcomming weekend. I have confidence on you and will be thinking and praying for you and all the Boho family members.
Thank you for being who you are.
Maria_Lisboa

October 17, 2008 at 8:49:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Christine said...

Look at all of us un-lurking in order to tell you how excited and happy we are for your family : ) I've been following your blog for a while and yet I am always shy about leaving comments. But I had to respond to this news - this is so wonderful. Congratulations! I'm sure you must be feeling every single emotion under the sun! I wanted to share with you the fact that all of the adoption stories I know have the most beautiful, happy endings. Actually endings seems like the wrong word... wonderful, happy beginings? The newly created families and connections that I've witnessed have been amazing. I also wanted to add myself to this gigantic circle of people, most of them strangers(!), who will be thinking of you this weekend and wishing you well. And finally, I wanted to say thank you for sharing your story with all of us. I love the internet for this very reason - such a lovely web of stories touching out there in space.

October 17, 2008 at 9:42:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous debbie said...

I echo what anonymous wrote ...

yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyy!!!!!!!

Rock on, Momma!

October 17, 2008 at 9:49:00 AM PDT  
OpenID meetinggrace said...

much much love and congratulations to you on this wonderful news

can't wait to continue following you on your journey!

October 17, 2008 at 10:11:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous jennlui said...

wwwwoooowww!!! what terrific news, well actually there isn't a word i can think of to describe how great this news is to hear!!! i have been following your beautiful blog now for over a year, only commenting a few times, but i was so feeling for you and sending you "baby" vibes. 15 months ago i became a mother and i can't even imagine the sadness of wanting to be a mother but not being able to bring that dream to life. but now you will and my heart sings for you!!! i will send you, boho boy and of course the birth mother and little one all the positive vibes in the world!!! good luck to you on this new journey, having my little one has changed my life in the most profound and unexpected ways. it has totally shook me to my core and it's like i have been reborn myself.

October 17, 2008 at 10:11:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Jeanine said...

OMG! What tremendous news! I am so thrilled for you and Boho Boy. Keeping all of you in my thoughts and looking forward to my first peek at your little angel.
Breathe deep! She (birth mom) and he (your baby) will fall in love with you both within instants of meeting you.

October 17, 2008 at 10:18:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

wishing you the greatest of blessings this weekend. what wonderful news! little boys are the best.

October 17, 2008 at 10:55:00 AM PDT  
Blogger gkgirl said...

i am so excited for you!
you are going to shine as a mommy.
sending you the best of luck
and the biggest of hugs!!

xo

October 17, 2008 at 11:22:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Through My Lens said...

Oh my. Congratulations! I have been an on and off reader for years and I am so, so glad to see that some happiness is finally upon you. Congratulations and I cannot wait to see how great of a mother you'll be after having wanted this for so long!

Blessings!

October 17, 2008 at 11:25:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Kristin said...

My brother and I were both adopted. We are nine years apart. I was the oldest and a Christmas baby - my parents put me under the tree and took pictures and said I was the most precious gift they ever received. There are wonderful stories my parents tell about both of our adoptions - the thing that always comes strong is how much we were wanted and longed for. On my wall growing up was a drawing with the caption "never forget for a single minute, you didn't grow under my heart, but in it." My adoption was a closed adoption and there is no knowledge of my birth parents, but I will be forever grateful to them for having the courage to send me to two parents who love me so much.

I am now blessed with 5 boys and a girl. Three I gave birth to and three are mine by a second marriage. No matter how they came to me, they are all loved and I can't imagine life without them.

Last year my brother and his wife adopted their first - twins, and they are the most amazing family.

I guess what I am wanting to say is although I don't know you, my heart is full for you and this wonderful blessing that has come to your life. This child may not have grown under your heart, but most assuredly in it.

October 17, 2008 at 11:33:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Lucia said...

I am so so so so happy for you.
Good luck.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

October 17, 2008 at 11:42:00 AM PDT  
Blogger ddphotography said...

well..im not sure how i stumbled here..a few clicks here and there and i found myself enveloped in your stories..your images and moments, so beautiful and delicate and alive..thank you for inspiring me and for sharing so openly and freely and selflessly...you have truly touched me..in ways im not sure how to feel yet.

I am elated with your special news..I dont know you, but I pray it all works out in the way your heart has so hoped for. I will be back soon to peek at his little face.. Congratulation..and best luck.

October 17, 2008 at 11:46:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Emily said...

Congratulations to you both ~ I am so happy to hear your news! You will all most certainly remain in my thoughts & prayers. I look forward to hearing how it all goes.
With love from the other side of the Pacific,
emily.

October 17, 2008 at 12:41:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous satori17 said...

boho girl~

wow, i had to check back to see this circle of human love from all across the globe coming together to wish you love! i am amazed at all the girls who had to come out of their lurking to wish you yummy goodness.

all i can say is that you are a special girl and this little guy is so very lucky to have chosen you.

remember, it is all a grand design!

xo
m

October 17, 2008 at 12:48:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Star said...

Wishing both of you well as you open your hearts and welcome this new little one into your family.

October 17, 2008 at 1:04:00 PM PDT  
Blogger BlossomingSoul said...

The wait is almost over!!!

I cried happy tears for you. You deserve this.

I don't know who I am more excited for- you two or that precious little boy!

October 17, 2008 at 1:22:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Maike said...

Hey there!
I'm reading your blog for a while now... but never commented. Today I really have to. I feel so happy for you and send all my thoughts and prayers to you. And I am pretty excited ... can't wait to see you three as a family.


Greetings from Germany
Maike

October 17, 2008 at 2:03:00 PM PDT  
Blogger kelsieann said...

I'm tingly with joy and happiness for you two. So excited!

Love & light!
Kelsie

October 17, 2008 at 2:11:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am so happy for you. You will be a great mother!

October 17, 2008 at 2:18:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous heather murphy said...

YEAH! What beautiful and happy news. I am so thrilled for you and Boho Boy . What a blessing for this baby boy too, to be raised by such beautiful people. Thinking of you all this weekend!

October 17, 2008 at 2:31:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Words cannot express how happy I am for you...

October 17, 2008 at 3:28:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Piper said...

Oh, Denise!!! I am beyond thrilled for you sweetpea!!! I hope everything goes beautifully for you all!

October 17, 2008 at 4:12:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Julianne said...

I have been following your blog for sometime, and have commented infrequently. I think I found you searching for some type of organic beauty product, but I was intrigued by your blog, and have kept following.

I am so so happy and excited for you. When I was pregnant the first time, my mother had hand smocked 13 dresses for me. It's a good thing it was a girl! That was 27 years ago! Then, 11 years later, pregnant for the second time, I was so afraid to have a boy. Afraid I couldn't love a boy. The second he slid into this world that feeling was gone.

I can't wait to hear!

October 17, 2008 at 4:20:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Willow said...

I've been reading your blog for awhile now and just wanted to say Congratulations. you and boho boy seem to be amazing people. Your photos portray you both as being kind, big hearted, down to earth, genuine kind of people and after reading your story I know this child will be blessed with a wonderful life. Love and Light to all of you.

October 17, 2008 at 4:25:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Your baby found you :) BEST NEWS EVER!
Can't wait to hear Baby Boho's name and sending wishes for a healthy birth!

October 17, 2008 at 4:37:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Janet said...

that's amazing!!!! what a blessing. thank you so much for sharing your experiences with us, i feel privileged to able journey with you. xoxo

October 17, 2008 at 6:47:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Gypsy Alex said...

Sending a huge warm welcome to the little guy! I can't wait to meet your son! You're an amazing mother already. LOVE LOVE LOVE xoxxox

October 17, 2008 at 6:49:00 PM PDT  
Blogger danielle marie said...

all this time, growing, growing, beneath the surface-- deeply intertwined roots-- your love blooms a baby boy! may you breathe in and treasure each magical moment! congratulations!

October 17, 2008 at 6:50:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Becca said...

D. Ive read this post 5 times and each time, I like a baby...!!

I cant put into words my very own excitement for you.... Im just so touched by YOU in so many ways....the universe is paying you back for all the joy you, yourself bring!

hugs and so much love!
Becca

October 17, 2008 at 7:35:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous homeinkabul said...

Oh YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY.

This is all I can say, yay yay yay! What beautiful, splendid news.

October 17, 2008 at 8:39:00 PM PDT  
Blogger an ambrosia life said...

crying, in a rock my world kinda way....beautiful, bountiful blessings for the boho's!!

October 17, 2008 at 9:39:00 PM PDT  
Blogger debsphotographs said...

Yay, yay, yay! I'm so incredibly excited for you guys. What an amazing, wonderful, blessed time in your lives. Thank you for sharing and...I can't wait to shoot the Boho family of THREE! Much love and hugs, Deb

October 17, 2008 at 9:53:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Joyful Dreamer said...

I haven't commented before, but I have been reading your blog for a long time. You are an amazing woman and you are going to be an amazing mom. This is such a lucky baby! :)

I am over the moon happy for you and Boho boy! I have four children, one daughter and three sons. Boys are marvelous :)

October 17, 2008 at 11:22:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous lorraine uk said...

many blessings, wonderful news. Make his coming into this world as special and sacred as he is.

look forward to reading all about him. Boys are very loving, my 2yr old keeps telling me who he loves.. mummy daddy ,his sister, brother then toys ,colours.
Embrace all that is thrown at you, its what parenthood is all about.

October 18, 2008 at 7:00:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Moxie said...

This is fantastic news!!! What we've all been waiting for and wishing for, for you and your sweet husband for years. Yippee!! And I'm secretly very glad it's a boy. Girls are awesome, don't get me wrong, but honestly there is nothing - nothing- like the bond between mother and son. Your son. Doesn't that sound cool? I'm thrilled for you. Thrilled.


Candice

October 18, 2008 at 7:52:00 AM PDT  
OpenID bijougirl said...

No words, I cried at work as I sneaked on your blog. I thought sleeping on it would give me something more profound and inspiring to say, but I have nothing. I am just so happy for you my sweet Bohemian Mama & Papa.

He was born in your hearts and it's exactly as it should be.

Jaclyn

October 18, 2008 at 8:16:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Violet said...

Amzing!!! How wonderful for you both!!! I've been following for several months and always hoped that one day i would drop by your blog and you'd have posted this wonderful, blessing from God news.

Many prayers for safety, health, healing and love for all of you!

October 18, 2008 at 9:11:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

oh so wonderful! been following your blog for ages. you will be the best mum to your beautiful son.

as the mummy to a 10 month baby boy I can tell you baby boys are the most magical, awe inspiring, special little beings...and having the honour to nurture them is incredible.

October 18, 2008 at 10:46:00 AM PDT  
Blogger julie king said...

your story has really touched my heart. my thoughts and prayers are with all of you. god bless you and your husband for taking the leap to find love and open your arms for a little one!!

October 18, 2008 at 12:45:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Debra W said...

It will be all of those things and many, many more, dear heart. When I look at your beautiful pictures, I see the soul of a wonderful Mommy looking back at me. I see an individual who radiates love and compassion and joy.

Best wishes on the coming arrival of your son. It sounds like you have been waiting for each other for a very long time. May he be blessed with good health, long life and a happy heart. May his birth mother understand what an incredible conduit she has been in connecting three souls who have longed for one another. May she take solace in knowing that this is how it was supposed to be for all of you. May she take incredible pride in knowing that she has given you and your husband a gift that can never be repaid.

Hugs,
Debbie

October 18, 2008 at 2:17:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Jennifer said...

I am so excited for you. Reading this post made me cry. I think it is wonderful that you are allowing us to share this journey with you. And know that we are all here to support and love you.

Congratulations on such wonderful and joyous moment. You and boho boy with a little boy. I can picture it so clearly in my mind!

I know it is a difficult journey but I wish you the best. My thoughts and prayers are with all of you. And I look forward to hearing more.

October 18, 2008 at 2:26:00 PM PDT  
Blogger AnnaC said...

wow... I have been on the road with no internet access... then I opened your blog to find this! What a fantastic surprise.
Congratulations... boy or girl -- what a lucky child to have such loving parents -- birth and adoptive.

October 18, 2008 at 2:47:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Elena said...

Oh! Its been a while since I made my way around bloglandia! How thrilling it is to visit your beautiful corner of the world and see such wonderful news!

Many blessings to you and you growing family! You have both been deserving of this for so long...

Elena

October 18, 2008 at 3:23:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Denise, there has never been a luckier baby about to enter the world, ever. If baby spirits choose their parents, this little spirit chose extraordinarily well. Congratulations!
-Amy

October 18, 2008 at 3:31:00 PM PDT  
Blogger christina said...

Boys are the best!

And how awesome... Maybe it will sound funny to say that I thought something was up. I had this overwhelming feeling coming here the past couple of times that something was going on...something good that you weren't yet sharing.

I am SO HAPPY for you. Let me know (me and all of the other commenters who have watched you go on this journey and crossed our fingers for you!) if there is anything you need--any quesiton you have...

Hugs to you & Boho boy.

And really...boys are beyond wonderful.

October 18, 2008 at 4:04:00 PM PDT  
Blogger sweet expressions said...

Sending you all heartfelt blessings that everyone involved is happy, healthy, and loved!




peace to all of you

October 18, 2008 at 4:55:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

denise,
i feel like i know you, as i have been an avid reader for a long time--your gentle spirit and positive energy flow through each blog entry. as you have so kindly shared your story with all of us, i feel like i have struggled when you have and soared when you have.... and now i am celebrating with you, too! congratulations doesn't seem to do this happy news justice, but please accept it as a small token of the happiness that a perfect stranger feels for you and your growing boho family!!! With so much love....
namaste,
krista

October 19, 2008 at 7:43:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Denise, I have been reading (lurking) for a long time, in part because I just enjoy your thoughtful entries, and in part because I can relate to your struggles in building a family. This is amazing, wonderful news and I am overjoyed for you that you are moving to the next part of your life. Congratulations.

October 19, 2008 at 8:59:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Eileen W. said...

Your baby awaits you!! I am so excited for you all and looking forward to hearing more of the story. Blessings and love to you! xoxo

October 19, 2008 at 9:36:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Emily said...

I am so ecstatically happy for you! I am looking forward to this next chapter in the Boho Chronicles. Your journey thus far has been deeply inspiring. Thank you for sharing with your community.

October 19, 2008 at 9:48:00 AM PDT  
OpenID tuckergurl said...

Wow, congrats!! I have been reading your blog for a while and I just feel so happy for you. Adopting is a brave and beautiful thing to do. I hope to do it myself some day. All the best!

October 19, 2008 at 11:37:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Erin said...

Your post brings tears to my eyes and a flood of hope for you to my heart. I pray that everything goes smoothly and soon you will have your baby in your arms. (((hugs)))

October 19, 2008 at 3:44:00 PM PDT  
Blogger kim said...

I am blissfully happy for you. My heart is filled with so much love. You have endured so much and this is just right. I dont even know you (though I feel like I do) however I have fallen for you and boho boy and will soon fall hook line and sinker for boho baby. Much love peace good thoughts and dancing for you.

October 19, 2008 at 4:33:00 PM PDT  
Blogger all over the map said...

Your journey has been long. God's timing is not always the time frame that we have in mind but it's always for a reason.
Love to you both. I feel your love in all you have shared and it's so beautiful.
I am looking forward to meeting *wee Boho boy.
xo

October 19, 2008 at 6:39:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Stacy (mama-om) said...

Hello,
I am another new reader who has been moved by your amazing news! I can feel the electricity coming through in this post, and am very touched.

I am wishing you and your husband an amazing continuation of this journey.

Blessings,
Stacy (a mama to two boys ;)

October 19, 2008 at 8:09:00 PM PDT  
Blogger monkey's mama said...

boho girl! i am so happy for you and your hubby. =) i have been reading your blog for over a year and check in periodically for this exact news. i gave a baby boy up for adoption 7 years ago and now have a gorgeous 5 month old boy of my own. ours is an open adoption and we are all very close. such a beautiful thing, adoption. good luck and god bless!

October 19, 2008 at 8:12:00 PM PDT  
Blogger meesh said...

this is what is meant to be. i think your meeting with the birth mom will be all of those things you mentioned but most of all totally beautiful.

so happy for you both! every baby should be blessed with parents like you and boho boy.

love and peace,

meesh

October 19, 2008 at 9:00:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Sam said...

Oh my goodness! Such WONDERFUL, AMAZING news! Praying that all went well...and I promise you, a boy is a joy in many, many ways. I always longed for a girl, but how I adore my boy. When I was expecting him, all these mamas would pull me aside and tell me how special the bond is between a son and his mama...now I can't imagine anything but little boys, and I hope to have a houseful one day! I am just celebrating this truly joyful news of yours. I'll be praying for your little one to be healthy and blooming in every single way...

October 19, 2008 at 9:14:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Ali la Loca said...

Wow!!!! Best of luck to all.

October 20, 2008 at 12:27:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Ames said...

When I clicked thorugh to the link to your site today I thought to myself, 'This will be the day I read about a baby in your world.', how bizarre that it is!
I'm so excited and happy for you, enjoy the ride, hope all goes well this weekend.

October 20, 2008 at 12:49:00 AM PDT  
Blogger jen said...

So many tears flowing for you today...I sit in a flourescent lit office in a sad little cubicle and I am pouring my eyes out...my coworkers look a little frightened of me. We have never met and never spoken but my heart is brimming with joy for you and your husband, and of course for the little boy who has been loved fiercely, by not just you but a whole community of friends and strangers, before he was even conceived.

October 20, 2008 at 10:07:00 AM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I have been reading your blog for years. Each time i click on the link to your webpage quietly praying that this will be the time that you announce that you and Boho Boy will be having a baby. The tears of joy are flowing - I am so happy for you both. Thank you for sharing your beautiful journey. You will be the most amazing mom!

October 20, 2008 at 12:38:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Lisa "Oceandreamer" S. said...

Denise I check your blog all the time....I've read with empathy and hope all the words of your journey. You are so eloquent, open, honest and divinely real. I never once thought that motherhood wouldn't come to you....I just always knew it would...in some way. I have had a lump in my throat reading your blog some days, I have a felt a peace and a calmness from you, as well as heartache and pain. But trough this all the love you and Boho Boy share...your sense of commonality and support and trust and nurture. I just kept thinking "these two will be AMAZING parents" - I never thought the words "would have".
Now I came by to check today and read this amazing news. This birth mother will not only love and adore the two of you BUT meeting you face to face will reinforce her decision that YOU are the parents meant for this baby boy!!!
I say a loving and hearty congratulations to ALL of you - I can't wait to see a photo of him in your arms!!!!
XOXOXOXO
Lisa

October 20, 2008 at 3:42:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

What a blessing and joy for all of you ~ truly magical;)! Please know that our hearts, happy thoughts and positive energy are with you every step of the way! We believe that everything happens for a reason .... your little boy found his way to you and you to him ... just as it is supposed to be. We are here for you! Sending our love , n,r,l,d xoxo

October 20, 2008 at 6:52:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Dreamy said...

Dear Denise,
How utterly delighted I am to read this post about hope and love. Thank you for being so beautifully open. Magic and stardust to you:)

October 20, 2008 at 7:28:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Jules said...

love love love & light

to all 4 of you

x

October 21, 2008 at 3:01:00 AM PDT  
Blogger moo said...

just stumbled on your blog today and am sitting here, weeping.

I don't know you and yet, I am so, so happy for you and confident in the love that you'll share with your son.

Congratulations and best of luck!

October 21, 2008 at 8:31:00 AM PDT  

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