fairy godmother*

jen gray, canon digital rebel xti

We have chosen a Fairy Godmother for our son.

Well, perhaps he had chosen her first and then whispered it into our ears.
Or we had all chosen one another when we were angels, before we got here.
One big fairy family coming into being. ; )

When we thought about who we wanted to be the godmother to our son, my dear friend Jen immediately came to mind. It felt like a powerfully spiritual moment. I saw a very vivid image of her laying on her back with our son in the grass, looking up at the stars, while he shared with her some stuff going on in his heart. I saw laughter and teasing and a huge grassy safety net. My heart felt all warm and I felt tingly (although she does that to me every time...). I saw it so clearly and so did Boho Boy.

Then we asked her. Like we were getting down on our knees and asking her to marry us. She got really quiet and took a deep breath and then...she said yes! And she said it with tears and nearly inaudible words. We cried. We all felt it. She felt him too. She knew it was meant to be...this connection.

Jen and I had very similar backgrounds as children and young adults and now we are living such a parallel lifestyle. When we talk, its always full of "me too, me too!" We both have an equally beautiful relationship with the men in our life. She's like my twin sister, although she's much taller and thinner and blonder and has a much better memory for songs. She also likes to dress up in costumes and make videos and paint and can make me laugh so hard that I pee my pants. I think she is amazing at improv and dresses like a rock star. She loves her peeps like a fierce lion and holds them in her arms like a gentle lamb. Everyone who meets Jen falls madly insanely in love with her. She has a billion and more crushes on her all around the world and yet is so humble it makes you crush on her even more.

I could write a book about the beautiful person that she is and perhaps someday I will. Or perhaps my son will. Or perhaps we'll all sit around on that grass and write it together. How she has scooped Boho Boy and I up so many times on this journey to our son and held our hands and stroked our hair and played soothing love songs or made us laugh through our tears. And now she opens up her arms to do that for him too.

Our boy is going to have so many strong, powerful, gentle, wide openly loving, creative women in his life. My tribe is already circling him and lately with all of us going through emotionally shifting times...it is him that we can all talk about with pure joy. He's the connector to happiness for all of us. What a gift he already is.

And what a gift Jen, his outrageously cool Fairy Godmother, will be in his life. She'll bring the concept back into fashion like Cinderella and Sleeping Beauty did.


me & jen at squam, taken by jonatha brooke, september 2008