Thursday, November 13

wait ~ updated

thea coughlin, canon digital rebel xti

For the plane ride home I grabbed the most recent issue of W magazine. There was a spread of intimate photos Brad Pitt captured of Angelina Jolie. I was enamored with the mood, the texture, the grain, the raw quality and quite impressed by his natural ability for portrait photography. The images totally inspired me to play with black and white tonight. I tend to be attracted to muted colors and vintage tones but rarely do I see images in my mind as monotone. This particular article shifted that. So, I took a very intimate image that I captured of one of my best friends in our hotel room during a visit earlier this year and converted it to black and white, while cropping it a bit. I feel pleased and I plan to play a bit more with this style.

It also felt meditative for me tonight to go to a place I haven't been for a few weeks. My whole entire being has been intertwined with this adoption, which has been such an other-wordly experience. I haven't thought much about photography, which is extremely odd for me. A piece of my whole self that breathes life into me has been a bit quieted in my soul. But on the plane, flipping through those photographs, I felt a tingling in my bones and a longing to lay on a bed with an artist and capture their most intimate pieces of self. Soon, soon...

It seems every piece of my life is about waiting right now. While hanging out for 10 days in the town where our birth parents live, we stayed in a hotel that was across the street from a few shops, a Trader Joes, Borders bookstore and a healthy restaurant. Each time we'd cross the street to one of those destinations, we heard a voice over the crosswalk speaker...a voice that prompts a blind person whether to stay or go. The voice says in a soothing female tone, over and over and over until the light turns green..."Wait.....wait......wait......wait....". One of those times, Boho Boy looked down at me with a smirk and said; "Isn't that the story of our life?"


Update: Baby is not here yet. K has a doctors appointment tomorrow and she will call us with the latest results about how far she is dilated and effaced. We are all crossing our fingers and toes that she lasts until her inducement date (which is early next week). I've been home recuperating from a cold. I also had some dear friends in town this past weekend and will share more of that soon but until then, I needed to rest to make sure I am well for baby.


Anonymous Anonymous said...

Im just here...waiting with baited breath to hear "the news"...his arrival. I just want you to know I keep you close and am only visualizing his most beautiful entrance into the world. Your gift will be here soon....so soon, can you believe it? : ) I smile a huge one for you everyday.
hugs mama,

November 13, 2008 at 9:45:00 PM PST  
Blogger Pen said...

i love the post processing you did on thea's picture... she looks like an iconic movie star! you have such a talent!
may your long wait soon be over xx

November 13, 2008 at 11:44:00 PM PST  
Blogger Imelda said...

Checking in with this blog every morning (at work, shhh!) while I/we wait for news of Boho Bub.

I'm not good with waiting. I've a scar right over my left cornea which renders my sight in that eye completely rubbish (it's all just a big blur). Got to be patient and WAIT for the scar to fade which will take at least 6 months, if at all. Then I'll know if I need surgery or not.

Tired of waiting, I want my full sight back NOW!

November 14, 2008 at 1:59:00 AM PST  
Blogger Toni M Photography said...

Prrrr. What a lovely shot of yummy kitty.

I know what you mean about waiting.... It's been a waiting game here for awhile now...

Hoping to have a intimate shoot with you someday soon.

Love and hugs,

November 14, 2008 at 3:39:00 AM PST  
Blogger emily said...

that photograph is a perfect blend of your artfulness along with thea's. so much beauty! and your post speaks directly to my heart about my own pursuits of portrait photography. you have reminded me that i need to challenge myself to grow but be patient with myself at the same time. thank you for that! i can't wait to read about your boho dream come true...you are in my thoughts.

November 14, 2008 at 5:13:00 AM PST  
Blogger pERiWinKle said...

Love the 'smirk'...it that looking into each other's eyes, knowing exactly what the other one is thinking...and smiling...cause it is such a good wait!

Love that you have some time for playing around with such a gorgeous girl! xx

November 14, 2008 at 5:45:00 AM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I keep thinking; today is the day your blog will say, boho baby made his appearance into the world healthy, beautiful and special! - then I will stand up and cheer. Right now, we are all waiting right along with the boho family. In god we trust, right. Everything in it's own time.
When he is ready he will come.

November 14, 2008 at 7:20:00 AM PST  
Blogger Kate said...

"Wait....wait.....wait..." - the photo is just lovely (as are all of the shots that I have seen that you two took that visit)-- and the sentiment is as well.
As many someones have said, the only place we can be is where we are... but OH how I want to be then and there and when.... wishing you the best in your being and waiting.

November 14, 2008 at 9:11:00 AM PST  
Blogger rak said...

I'm not sure that I've ever commented on your site, but I check often...

You two are so blessed and I'm so excited for this baby to fill your lives!

Congratulations on keeping yourself grounded throughout this process...this journey :) And for allowing yourselves to FEEL every emotion that comes...with so many more on the way :)

November 14, 2008 at 10:26:00 AM PST  
Blogger Shaina Longstreet said...

i adore this new aspect of your photography. black & white images speak to my soul.
can't wait to see more of your creations. you are a wonderful, strong, inspiring woman.
thinking of you often...

November 14, 2008 at 10:39:00 AM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

when he is born... i would love to drive to eugene and photograph you all. is that something you would be interested in????

huge love and hugs,

November 14, 2008 at 11:02:00 AM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm sooo with you guys!!
I'm waiting to find a job, waiting to see how my mom's degenerative disease evolves, waiting to be three with my lovie... Everything is in suspended animation for me while others keep on moving.
That voice is also talking to me.
((hugs)) Happy you'll be three soon.

November 14, 2008 at 11:54:00 AM PST  
Blogger enchantedartist said...

At least...at the very least this is a good waiting, right? It won't be long now...:)

Thinking of you all...

November 14, 2008 at 12:06:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I can't get enough of the photo! Moody, sultry, pensive...almost noire; it really draws you in and hints at backstory, making your imagination roam all over. Well done!! Do more!!!!!!! :-)

November 14, 2008 at 1:31:00 PM PST  
Blogger Alessandra Cave said...

You and Boho boy are such an inspiring couple! How wonderful to have *that* while you patiently wait for life to unfold. You are already an amazing family. Little boho baby is a lucky one! xxox

November 14, 2008 at 1:43:00 PM PST  
Blogger all over the map said...

patience is a virtue.
so true, eh?
won't be long and the gift will wash away the memories of *wait*.
hope you two are taking care & resting.
thea is so darn gorgeous.

November 14, 2008 at 4:10:00 PM PST  
Blogger Designer Girl said...

Really I should have your blog as my home page because these past few days I check it for news before I check my email!!! I pray and affirm all goodness for you and your boho family (including K and fam). I want to say thank you for being you, and sharing all that you do... I feel such a connection and have learned so much from your honest vulnerablity... I truly can never repay the gift that you have given me.

Bursting with love,


November 14, 2008 at 9:42:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Tom Petty said it best ... "the waiting is the hardest part"

it takes so much courage to wait. to be still. to allow. to trust.

you are a brave cookie, my love. a brave, beautiful and amazing cookie!

November 14, 2008 at 9:42:00 PM PST  
Blogger jenica said...

such a sweet pin-up that thea is. i have a big thing for b&w, i prefer it over anything else.

gently wait, wait, wait. it's the last time you'll get to wait, from the time he gets here until forever it will be go, Go, GO.

so happy for you girlie.

November 14, 2008 at 9:56:00 PM PST  
Blogger penelopebeolchi said...

I was reseaching in web about Boho.
I´m a brasilian make-up artist and I have a blog too.
Are you realy bohemiam or is it just a nick name?A way of life?
I´ll make a post about "boho chic".
Wold you like to help me?
Do you know Brasil?Would you like to come some day?

Penelope Beolchi

November 15, 2008 at 8:29:00 AM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

beautiful post, Denise. simply beautiful. keeping my fingers crossed for you.

November 15, 2008 at 4:21:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Goodness ~ I've been away from your blog for far too long ~ I've just been catching up today and I'm speechless...so happy for you, so excited, it's your time for certain and your willingness to share so graciously as you always do continues to inspire me on my journey too.
love to you ~ I can't wait to meet him.

November 15, 2008 at 4:27:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I think this picture would have to be one of your best. Wow. Every bit is so perfect. I especially love the framing. Wow again. You are so talented. How stunning your subject is as well!! Even so, your talent is vast!

Black and white for portraits = swoon!

You are going to have a world of fun taking photos of Boho Baby!

We're all still here for you guys... waiting.

November 15, 2008 at 6:07:00 PM PST  
Blogger angela said...

on photography... old black and white photographs, the corn, the blur. that too is how i often try to capture my photographs. and possibly, what particularily drew me to this photo, as it did the photos of angelina.

and on the waiting, the patience. i hope at this moment, you are no longer waitiner, rather living that moment... and boho baby in your arms.

yes, patience is a virtue. the waiting makes the moment all the more glorious and all the more worth each moment of that waiting...

and as life continues, i hope that we sometimes never ever lose that anticipation of waiting... because there's always a wonder right around the next next corner of the street.

i hope all of you are well... and happy. and simply feeling love.


November 16, 2008 at 2:05:00 AM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Nothing but love.


November 16, 2008 at 9:12:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

she is a beautiful person to begin with, but you made her look like... i cannot even think of how to describe it, except for 'eat your heart out, marilyn monroe!' ;)

November 17, 2008 at 8:57:00 AM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Okay - can anyone tell me what I'm getting out of this waiting game??? I am not a patient person by nature, but this waiting for boho baby is going to kill me....LOL
Denise - my thoughts and prayers are with you and your boho family, seeing as we have not heard from you in a while, maybe that is good news hopefully!
Take care - can't wait to see pics of boho baby!

November 17, 2008 at 11:17:00 AM PST  
Blogger Gina (Lady Goats) said...

I must say, you're handling this VERY well! I don't have patience. At. All. So I honor your way of handling this (I'd pout). And that is an AMAZING photograph. Makes me want to go pick up the magazine!
Can't wait to hear when Boho Baby's home! You're blessed, already :-)

November 17, 2008 at 11:26:00 AM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I keep checking in to see if Boho baby has arrived. I know the due date is a few days away, and I am a great advocate of letting the baby stay in as long as they need to. I am just so excited for you and have witnessed how long and how deeply you have been wishing for this. Blessings on you and yours,

November 18, 2008 at 4:57:00 PM PST  
Blogger wrecklessgirl said...

i cannot even tell you how....simply in awe i am of you and your courage and openness.

this is the mantra from my week in southern california.


you are so....open. must bring so so so much joy to your life.

MANY BLESSINGS, bohogirlie.

November 18, 2008 at 10:59:00 PM PST  
Blogger pERiWinKle said...

Denise, do all you LOVE to do...cause when Baby comes...you are going to pour ALL your love into him...trust me on..do the things YOU love to do...:-) teehee...i know...you are so tired of doing the things you love to do...and oh so ready to embrace and cuddle the little bundle of joy...but do the things YOU love to do...teehee...xx

November 19, 2008 at 4:58:00 AM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

we are waiting for Boho baby too. can't wait!

November 19, 2008 at 6:21:00 AM PST  
Blogger Vanessa said...

it's getting so close! rest up and get all better... this week really is the final countdown to boho baby's eagerly anticipated arrival :) happy days.

November 19, 2008 at 8:16:00 AM PST  
Blogger Colorsonmymind said...

Oh my love.....tears of awe and gratitute that you keep pulling out photos that take my breath away and bring me back to our fabulous days together....

This processing is just amazing and I must say this is my favorite...

you have been fabulously patient my love. He will be here soon.....

Love you

November 19, 2008 at 8:09:00 PM PST  

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