Monday, December 29

protected by your wings...

boho brother (jon-erik) & cedar on christmas day, canon 50D

Dear Uncle Jon-Erik ~

Meeting you was such a unique experience for me. It was like you came into my life swinging on a rope from trees with your oiled leather hat on just like Indiana Jones. I remember the first time you held me after a long day of traveling from Canada, you sunk into the rocking chair and just tuned everything out and sat with me for a few hours. You kept calling me a "beautiful, fragile eggshell soul" that you wanted to envelope with your wings and protect like a bird. I loved how each time you said this, you made your arms look like wings hovering over me. It was then that I knew you were different and cool and spiritual and had a lot to teach me. I felt so safe with you that I instantly fell asleep in your arms and you fell asleep too and my mommy just couldn't stop taking photos (she thinks I don't notice these things when my eyes are closed).

I thought it was cool that you would go on long walks for hours on the beach with your leather hat, camera strapped around you and a bag to collect sea treasures. You'd bring them back and put them on the floor in a cool design. You'd tell us stories of your travels and how you were the only one with a tshirt and sandals while everyone else was bundled up. Something about it being obvious you were Canadian. It must be cold where you live because you talked about you needing to wear like four sweaters and coats and even your dog has winter clothes. I guess that's why you were outside when no one else was over here.

I remember every morning when you'd come into our bedroom and see that my mommy and daddy had been up all night with me you would say "you guys are on the red eye train to love" with this huge smile on your face and they would look at you like they wanted to eat you for breakfast. You never took the night shift because you must like your sleep. I don't think my mommy and daddy like to sleep because they stay up with me.

I thought you talked really cool. I liked hearing you say phrases like "cosmic junction" and "feminine energy". I think that means you're a hippy. I want to be one when I grow up. I heard that if you have a Volkswagen bus that you're in the hippy club. We have a bus, so does that mean I'm a member? Perhaps if I start referring to the fact that my mommy gives me a bottle when I scream for it as a cosmic junction, eh? See...I threw in something Canadian just for you.

I'll never forget the look on my mommy's face when you showed her the transformation you made on our veranda as a gift to us. How you made it more spacious and redesigned the plants and flowers in each pot and hung candles and lanterns and prayer flags. Now it looks like a cool Zen garden with each plant covered in all the rocks you collected. I heard her say she will now take me out there in the mornings for breakfast and that they want to get a baby hammock to hang. Dude...that so rocks. Thanks, man.

But wait...there's more. During the photo shoot of us that my mommy did, I was naked and I peed all over you and rather than get grossed out, you cupped my pee in your hand and wiped it on your jeans without flinching. That's some serious manly coolness. Lets do it again but this time I'll poop and we can use it to paint stripes on our faces like the Indians.

So, you're gone and I already miss you, your thick Canadian accent, your stories about living in the woods and heating your food over the wooden stove. I miss hearing your passion for art and all things creative and earthy. I have a feeling when I come visit you, we'll have many adventures in the forest and lakes...just like my daddy had when he grew up.

Until then, I will feel protected by your wings.

I love you, dude.



Blogger Janel said...

Is John Erik married!??? He is SOOOOOO.........HOT!

Lucky Cedar!!!

December 29, 2008 at 5:36:00 PM PST  
Blogger Janel said...

And I give great foot massages too!

December 29, 2008 at 5:38:00 PM PST  
Blogger Janel said...

Sorry, but I didn't read what Cedar wrote because I was enthralled and gaga over Uncle Jon-Erik, but now I know I am completely head over heels!! He is like a dream come true to me..seriously. Amazing. I am gonna go find him, some how, some way. Not in a stalker way though.

taking a cold shower now...

December 29, 2008 at 5:43:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...


December 29, 2008 at 5:52:00 PM PST  
Blogger Megan said...

That man exists? In that body? With a brain and a heart in there, too? Hoooooo.

Yeahhh...just so Jon-Erik knows, those photos are like a tidal surge, luring many ovaries to Canada.

As they say in my hood out here: Dayum.

December 29, 2008 at 6:03:00 PM PST  
Blogger Megan said...

Oh, right: Cedar. Lookin' good, dude. Way to use the pee as a litmus test! Haven't said it yet, but I'm so glad you're here!

December 29, 2008 at 6:05:00 PM PST  
Blogger Vivienne said...

this is so wonderful! of course, the peeing part (and the very suave response to it) had me laughing up a storm.

stunning photos too! what a lucky nephew and a lucky uncle!

December 29, 2008 at 6:07:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

woweeeeee ,where has he been hiding??? oh sorry Boho''s hope you have a very very happy New year ,you know it is going to be the best Love xxxooo Carole

December 29, 2008 at 6:09:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

gorgeous photos. i love these letter posts. it is such a wonderful way to celebrate the lovely uniqueness of the people who mean so much to you, your husband and the little one.

December 29, 2008 at 6:15:00 PM PST  
Blogger Carla said...

That was such a great post ... smudging poop on his face next time? LOL!

Carla :0)

December 29, 2008 at 6:51:00 PM PST  
Blogger Alberta Art Classes said...

You are all so lucky! Cedar is just blossoming into a full faced boy. He is so lovely...

December 29, 2008 at 7:03:00 PM PST  
Blogger Brenda said...


December 29, 2008 at 7:04:00 PM PST  
Blogger sweetsalty kate said...

aaagggh! help! I've fallen into incurable uncle crush and I can't get up.

December 29, 2008 at 8:07:00 PM PST  
Blogger alaskagirl said...

yes, boho brother is yummy like christmas morning, but the very best part of this post is the actual post. Cedar is totally the dude!!

December 29, 2008 at 9:08:00 PM PST  
Blogger Leacayoungart said...

These are gorgeous. Wow. Nice work!

December 29, 2008 at 10:20:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Fabulous pictures. The black and white ones are very, very good. You are so talented, and a fantastic teller of stories. Cedar is so blessed to have such a creative mother and family.

These pictures again bring home to me just how much Cedar was meant for your family.

Here's hoping for more sleep in the nights - it will happen...

December 30, 2008 at 3:43:00 AM PST  
Blogger Colorsonmymind said...

oh you had me giggling up a storm. What gorgeous photos darling!

JE is a hotti;)

You are so fabulous at these letters my love....I adore them and the veranda set up-oh how wonderful. A baby hammock? I remember dreaming of Cedar while talking to you, laying in my hammock out back. I can't wait to one day lay with Cedar in a hammock looking up at the leaves.

He is beautiful sweetheart.


December 30, 2008 at 5:22:00 AM PST  
Blogger Shannon said...

Oh wow. Just .... wow.

Amazing pictures, amazing words, amazing man!!!!

December 30, 2008 at 5:38:00 AM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

wow. pant. wow. hot man and beautiful baby. pant. whew.

December 30, 2008 at 6:12:00 AM PST  
Blogger beth said...

what a great letter written to an obviously sweet, intelligent, earthy and beautiful man...cedar is very lucky to have his daddy and his uncle in his life.

and those photos....simply magical!

December 30, 2008 at 6:31:00 AM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I see everyone is going nuts over Jon-Erik. Carsten - don't worry - it's just that Studliness seems to run in the family. Nobody has forgotten the original stud-muffin! You two look so much alike! It's nuts & beautiful :) Cedar is one lucky boy - a handsome dad, handsome uncle and one BEAUTIFUL mommy!! (And gorgeous family members on Mommy's side as well). What a life- surrounded by beauty and love, eh?

December 30, 2008 at 6:40:00 AM PST  
Blogger Marica said...

JonErik, holy-moly, he is so fine...
lookk at those eyes...

Something about a hot man with an adorable baby that is just too much!
Great pics, girlie!

December 30, 2008 at 8:12:00 AM PST  
Blogger kim said...

There are no words to describe the beauty that is this post. I know its been said before but your brother is beautiful! Is he looking for love? if not is he al least looking to be admired :)

December 30, 2008 at 9:22:00 AM PST  
Blogger Eileen W. said...

I was laughing out loud- totally, dude!! J.E. has built a fan club, but I do believe Cedar's takes the cake- way to pee, buddy! :)

December 30, 2008 at 9:34:00 AM PST  
Blogger christine said...

Yes, I want to echo the fact you've got a very hot brother!

December 30, 2008 at 9:41:00 AM PST  
Blogger monkey's mama said...

those photos are breathtaking! and i am glad you included the part about cedar peeing on j.e. because i was wondering if he made it thru the shoot without doing so. ;)

December 30, 2008 at 10:30:00 AM PST  
Blogger Rute Magalhães said...

Hello Boho Girl

Hope my English is OK, sometimes i am really clumsy with foreign words!
This is the first time I'm writing you a message, and I don't even know if you're gonna have time to read it.
I found your blog in a mysterious way a long time ago and I keep it in my favourites (I love photography).
I've been reading you and your "story" for a while, and it was good to see that your being bless with a dream coming true.
I was thrilled wen I read you have a Portuguese family (my god, is it possible to "go somewhere" and not find some "Portuguese
fruits" around!?) My name is maria, I'm 24 years and trying to found the way to find me, and my dreams too (including save the world!).
I'm writing you from Lisboa. It is a beautiful city, and with a very interesting story, here, we began discovering the entire world!
Probably that's why I move, I want to feel inspired by all the sailors that had courage enough to fight big monsters!
I have this crazy wish for 2009, never keep feelings just for me!
This was what make me step here and say:
you are an inspiration to me!

Thank you for share your little moments with the world!

Wish you and yours the best for 2009.
Abraços Portugueses!

Maria Caxuxa

December 30, 2008 at 11:52:00 AM PST  
Blogger curious girl (lisa) said...


December 30, 2008 at 12:03:00 PM PST  
Blogger jon-erik said...

Hey CEDAR L Kroon....yaaaaawwwwnnnn!

I got in late and slept in. Coffee and a fire in the fire place is roaring.......barefoot on the computer and the ice is outside my window..I miss the sunshine you dwell within....and thought I would tell you... our First meeting was magical..... you DO realize.... I LOVE YOU....and I was honored to spread my wings for you..over you..around you........I am your uncle and I am proud of this cozmic obligation.....Welcome to the hands and hearts of our family circle!......:-)!!!
Your mother and father are so in tune with you.......the three of you are a song! Thank you for letting me look into eyes so deep with wonderment and fragility. Thank you for feeling my body warmth and love when we cuddle. Thank you for "sensing" as an unburdened soul. Thank you little dude for feeling safe within my hands and arms...my hands in connection with mind, body n soul are to protect you and defend you, whether you are right or wrong....you my nephew CEDAR will always stand within our family circle as an equal life force with dreams and gifts and desires as YOU so choose......with family circle support and acceptance....welcome to our circle on a continent of freedom and love. I will be honored as a living book, to share, teach and show you all the amazing aspects of nature and the gift of creativity.....I personally would be touched to sit by firelight and WE read together, the greatest book to be read....."Mother Nature".. Herself! I know it will be inspiring for both of us and your mother Denise and father Carsten as well......I am emotional rambling here...but when you are old enough to read the written word...here is where i would like to tell you tiny CEDAR...that when your life energy needs to PEE...needs to bleed...needs to feed..and needs to smile....my hand will be there...some way or some how..to ease and set free......so i guess when you are older and giggle at this moment...I want to let you know...that first PEE on me.....NO WORRIES..:-)...for I realize to hold ones hand out and cupping a young babies pee is...cupping the LOVE CREED......I will always be here for you.....Welcome to North America...and welcome to planet earth...an ashram of Life beautiful.
Oh by the way...CEDAR.....your Mother's and Father's cooking...I can not wait till the day you taste the wonderful cooking from the sustenance of plant and animal combination's your mum and dad have chef'd together. I love n respect you CEDAR for all of... what and who you are...and to Denise n Carsten......I love you both as well.....and am proud of your strength and courage and the belief in your combined manifestations...you both are each's ADAM AND EVE within turbo world.....you truly are both soul mates to each other....I raise my chalice of wine this evening and toast you THREE! You as a family are the proof, of the..." power of BELIEVE"! Oh Yes...Thank You to all feminine energies shinning attraction...plain n simple...Thank You for the smiles from your comments........NAMASTE...Uncle Jon-Erik Kroon
p.s....hey Cedar...its time to let the good times roll.....and let the story be told.....hey one day we will sit at the river and listen to a band called THE CARS!...:-)..my treat!!!

December 30, 2008 at 1:54:00 PM PST  
Blogger mccabe said...

wow, boho brother looks so much like boho boy.

beautifully tender and touching photos.
just beautiful.


December 30, 2008 at 3:32:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Cedar is simply beautiful :D And...ummmm...Jon-Erik is quite amazing...I could look into those eyes for an eternity :P From Cedar's description of him I would say he is a beautiful soul..inside and out.
Happy New Year Boho's !! Give kisses to Cedar!!

December 30, 2008 at 9:29:00 PM PST  
Blogger Beka said...

Wow. Beautiful photos and adorable letter.

And how *about* those Canadians...I think it is time for me to take a road trip and investigate! :)


December 31, 2008 at 10:50:00 AM PST  
Blogger Helen said...

What gorgeous soul shimmering pictures! Boho Bro so has his mother's eyes, and Cedar's peepers fit right in with the whole boho brood. I still think Cedar has such a happy giggly bliss look because he has masterminded this whole trip to earth and is very contentedly chilling now that it has all come into fruition. muhahahahaaa! and heeheehee! on his cute little part.
I'm really curious- I am Canadian and need to know- what is this "thick Canadian accent" of which you speak? Do we speak funny? I thought it was you guys who spoke wierd. How do we sound to you?

January 1, 2009 at 10:34:00 AM PST  
Blogger jenica said...

love the cuppa pee.
love the love
love these letters
love to you!

January 2, 2009 at 5:06:00 PM PST  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Gooooooodness....if only every child could have a man so enamored of them, someone to look up to. This is the kind of man every woman wants in her child's life. This is the kind of man women want to make babies with. A man who sees the true wonderment of a baby is to be treasured.

If I may say, seeing these pictures makes me mourn for what my children's father has not been for them.

January 26, 2009 at 12:44:00 AM PST  
Blogger Maria Nissen said...

hi denise-

The name Jon-Erik made my head turn twice. Our oldest son's name is Jon-Erik. Such a great name and I personally have never met another one and he's 20 now. Congratulations on your beautiful family. You have many joys ahead. Motherhood: the most rewarding, painful, never ending, wonderful, sleepless job you will ever have. Faith, Hope and Love has kept me going all these years. Happy day to you.

February 23, 2009 at 7:26:00 AM PST  
Blogger Unknown said...

was just flitting around when i landed here. thank you so much for sharing. it would be quite arrogant to think i know you at all. however, y'all (you, your husband, baby, brother...) seem to be open generous souls full of love, which i find to be the very essence to beauty. quite rare.

July 4, 2009 at 8:20:00 AM PDT  

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