hope

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My dear bloggie comrades. First I want to gently apologize for my absence from your blogs the next few days. My husband and I are having a fertility treatment this Saturday. I feel so right about this path and am excited to be closer to our dream.

This past week I have felt as though I was walking on a puffy cloud. So light. So airy. So faithful. So knowing. Although, I can feel as the time approaches, I am becoming a bit overwhelmed with my usual tasks. I woke up this morning feeling weighted down and emotional. During a phone conversation with my wonderful marmie this morning, I realized my body is telling me that I need to take a step back from the usual and spend time nurturing myself. As soon as I heard her voice, my tears started flowing and I felt a much needed release. I told her that I want so badly to be back in that light space of being. It is essential that tomorrow I remain calm, relaxed and in a peaceful state of mind.

I believe in order to do this, I need to take time away from creating my gems, banners, reading and responding to emails, blogging and phone calls. The giving part of me worries that this is selfish but the nurturer in me knows that this is what I need to focus on us right now. I think if we are in tune to our bodies, we know where we need to put our energies and where not to.

Meditation. Prayer. Zen music. Breathing exercises. Acupuncture. Massage. Stretching. Visualization. This is what my body is craving and so shall it be.

As I am writing this, I am so full of hope. Fear has not set up camp here. Just hope.