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Friday, July 28

hope


boho, canon digital rebel xt

My dear bloggie comrades. First I want to gently apologize for my absence from your blogs the next few days. My husband and I are having a fertility treatment this Saturday. I feel so right about this path and am excited to be closer to our dream.

This past week I have felt as though I was walking on a puffy cloud. So light. So airy. So faithful. So knowing. Although, I can feel as the time approaches, I am becoming a bit overwhelmed with my usual tasks. I woke up this morning feeling weighted down and emotional. During a phone conversation with my wonderful marmie this morning, I realized my body is telling me that I need to take a step back from the usual and spend time nurturing myself. As soon as I heard her voice, my tears started flowing and I felt a much needed release. I told her that I want so badly to be back in that light space of being. It is essential that tomorrow I remain calm, relaxed and in a peaceful state of mind.

I believe in order to do this, I need to take time away from creating my gems, banners, reading and responding to emails, blogging and phone calls. The giving part of me worries that this is selfish but the nurturer in me knows that this is what I need to focus on us right now. I think if we are in tune to our bodies, we know where we need to put our energies and where not to.

Meditation. Prayer. Zen music. Breathing exercises. Acupuncture. Massage. Stretching. Visualization. This is what my body is craving and so shall it be.

As I am writing this, I am so full of hope. Fear has not set up camp here. Just hope.

25 Comments:

Blogger gkgirl said...

honey,
that is sooooo not selfish...
that is exactly what you
need
to be doing
and what you should be doing...

i'll be thinking of you,
xo

July 28, 2006 at 12:56:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Turquoise CRO said...

NOT selfish at all! Boho gal! YOU rest sweety and get your whole body and mind rested and pure! Meditate and pray, I will be too for YOU and Carsten!!! xo

July 28, 2006 at 1:04:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Tonya said...

well wishes and more puffy clouds.

July 28, 2006 at 1:29:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Susannah said...

Sweetest friend, you do what you need to do honey - follow your instincts... i probably don't need to tell you that i'll be thinking about you all day tomorrow :-) love you xxx

ps. the word verification thingy has the letters 'mum' in the middle !! i take that as good sign!

July 28, 2006 at 1:37:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Cindy said...

All that love you will be there with you tomorrow. Such a powerful force, love. You will feel it embracing you.

July 28, 2006 at 2:28:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Romina Bacci said...

ohhh sweetheart, i am sending all my angels to both of you (especially you :)

bdw, what a lovely mom you have!!

-love you-

July 28, 2006 at 2:48:00 PM PDT  
Blogger b/sistersshoes said...

prayers
prayers
&
more
prayers
&
a
little
lovins
too


if you turn head sideways you will see a M for Mommy :)

i luv u.......d

July 28, 2006 at 2:50:00 PM PDT  
Blogger M said...

Sending you positive vibes and warm fuzzies.....

July 28, 2006 at 3:47:00 PM PDT  
Blogger ruby said...

oh boho,

i'll be thinking of you tomorrow...saying soft prayers and keeping my fingers crossed....just take care of yourself and do what you need to do...xo...

July 28, 2006 at 5:05:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Letha Sandison said...

Hey there love! I tried sending you an email but yahoo is acting weird so I thought I'd contact you this way. I know that you have retreated deeper into your cocoon, nurturing your body and spirit in anticipation of tomorrow. I just wanted you to know I am thinking about you. I am sending you all kinds of love and saying positive affirmations that tomorrow is the day your baby comes to you.

I will be thinking of you today, tomorrow and all the way!! I am here when you are ready to emerge from your sanctuary. If you need me I am here.

Love to you. Good luck tomorrow, I will be thinking of you guys.

XOXOXOXO-Leth

July 28, 2006 at 5:42:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Yolanda said...

You know I will be thinking of you and wishing you the best of luck.
yolanda

July 28, 2006 at 6:45:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Teresa said...

I am sending positive prayers and thoughts your way. Your hope will light your way to your new beginnings, I can just feel it.

Teresa

July 28, 2006 at 7:51:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Amy said...

It's so sweet of you to think about all of us even though you're feeling a bit overwhelmed. Feel comfortable taking time off for a bit to relax and renew. We wouldn't want it any other way, truly.

You will be on my mind this weekend, love. I'm sending lightness and joy to you and your husband.

I love you.
Amy

July 28, 2006 at 7:59:00 PM PDT  
Blogger christina said...

Definitely not selfish at all--when I did get pregnant, I didn't learn the lesson soon enough about taking care of myself and was exhausted just before delivery--so you are a wise, wise woman to listen to yourself and take time to focus on what you need. We'll be here--wishing and praying and hoping for you, whenever you get back. Hugs!

July 28, 2006 at 8:40:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Deb R said...

Good for you! That sounds like a great plan!

July 28, 2006 at 9:01:00 PM PDT  
Blogger deirdre said...

Take very good care of yourself, sink into exactly what you need to do right now. I'm sending happy wishes and blessings to you.

July 28, 2006 at 9:10:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Lucille said...

Yes, you! Take care of YOU! Breathe in the calm you need. We'll all be praying for you and sending warm hopeful wishes your way...

Lucille

P.S. I used to take bags of Goldfish crackers with me to munch on during our treatments---the 'baby' goldfish variety ;-)

July 28, 2006 at 10:00:00 PM PDT  
Blogger a m y said...

I'm so very happy to read that hope has set up campe in you. That is beautiful, and is the first step to achieving what you want and need. I wish you lived closer so that I could massage you :) Follow those instincts and take gentle care of yourself. You know what you need. I will be sending you all of the good energy I have tomorrow.

July 28, 2006 at 10:30:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Sike said...

Good; so long as you live, there's hope, so keep to hope! :)

July 29, 2006 at 10:32:00 AM PDT  
Blogger Rrramone said...

Blessings and good luck with the process. :-)

July 29, 2006 at 5:26:00 PM PDT  
Blogger megg said...

sweet sweet girl - I'm sending you both so much love. xoxo

July 30, 2006 at 1:12:00 AM PDT  
Blogger la vie en rose said...

take your time my sweet one. do everything you need to do. love on your lovely self. i will be here when you return.

July 30, 2006 at 1:57:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous Lunarmusings said...

I bless you dear one...
e

July 30, 2006 at 6:22:00 PM PDT  
Blogger Stef said...

i am there with you sweet one - we all are. faith, hope and love!!

xo

July 30, 2006 at 8:26:00 PM PDT  
Anonymous melanie said...

Good for you, listening to your body and giving it what it needs. Enjoy the rest and keep the faith.

July 31, 2006 at 7:54:00 AM PDT  

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